pre exam stress.

that 'thing' is coming back again. well... some of it. it makes me wonder, does the problem lie on me? ..or is it totally because... [edit]

sometimes i wish [edit]

oh well. its back again. the examinations. and you can be i'm i'm freaking out real bad. bahh. hist tomorrow. it under preparation and the unavalability of "hitting high levels" i just suck la. freaking out. and theres science! ahh.

i know i shoul be trusting God. faith Hes grace and might will pull me through this. and he knoes whats best for me, no matter what the result is. so... well. pray for me people.

africa.

SuMIn is currenly in africa riding an elephant and currently unable to blog at the moment. however, she saw that taiboon person in africa as well and had a great shock. this resulted her in saying his name repeatedly and seeming like a despofreak. bahh.

however, SuMin is enjoying her ride on elephants the scenary in africa. minus the taiboon part.

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make as many words as you can, starting with dic/dict:
Dicky.
dictate
dicky.
dictonary.
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
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the Dicky-nicholas tse incident is getting on my nerves. i mean.. like whats the guy's problem? he is really making a big deal outta nothing. i would really like to visit him in the hospital and give him good punch on his face and rub salt on his wounds. bahh. the worst thing is that itcomes out in Life! like nearly everyday? like.. uhh. ok. so wad? [edit] bahh.

so anw. i din get to study today. ended up sleeping on the floor _-_ because i din wanna sleep for too long. surprisingly it was pretty comfortable... as long as you have a nice soft pillow! aha (:

satt.

amazingly it sat again! like.. whoa. i wasn't really looking foward to it that much since it marks the offical nearing of my exams. bahh. ok. this tells me i should go back to studying. and i will: after i'm done with this.

ok. and this is the 6747357357th time i saying this, but i'm going to cambodia! its pretty much nearly fully official! whee~ excited. (: lala~

that botak forgot his lit notes again!! well. mine la. oh well.... shall pester him this week. ..then maybe he shan't forget. oh well.

i want my pe lesson back. ): bahh. oh well. at least lao shi let us out of higher chinese. (: i love lao shi! aha.

went to KAp to study. so exciting! met soo many people i know! aha. like.. yao ying, ruth, su hui, qi bin and rachel. but that qibin wasn't wearing his tie! so naughty. aha.

sigh. cramped the entire day today. from morning to like.. 4? -dying- lol. couldn't stand it in the end and went to buy coffee. then they all ate ice cream leh! bleah. unfair.

Did this for teachers day! aha.  

bahh.

i'm sich of of life. sick of everything. sick of exams. sick of competition. sick of how straight forward everything is in life. bahh.

oh well. so as you can see. studying, or rather, not-studying has gotten me into a bad mood. i just sit there with the book open before me and nothing gets inside. the worst thing is i don't evem bother to try! bahh. i just sit there and start day dreaming. bahh. how can i even get into single bio at this rate?

i need to study! i can't believe i'm even saying this but. yeah. what i did[or haven't been doing] ion the first 3\4 of the year is killing me. but yet.. i just can't sense that knife... that halter.. that evil poisen. bahh.

i need help

*prays*

and i wanna learn volley ball.

passed my science thank God. not exactly a good averaqge in total. but still above the b3/4 i expected. oh well. -always look on the bright side of life!-

other subjects were... bahh. oh well. shall have to mug.

i don't want to! bahh.

ran 2.4 today. another personal best! 14.50. dun you dare laugh.

death.

science + chinese spells disaster. which leads to mass failing of tests.

lets revise science.

GS+HCL -> failure.

no er.. valency and atoms needed. oh well.

this just isn't good when chinese isn't exactly yr best subject and you don't understand a word of science.
everyone pray for me.

car wash and mission trip.

i didn't study today! aha. wasted like 2 hours of my day watching.. guess wad? liu xing hua yuan? sheesh! i thought it was only one hour! but haha. relieving memories la. those in p6.. haha. (:

went to church. and the only time i'm there on time, i couldn't find anyone!! bahh. so ane. blar. and there was carwash! oh yay so fun. after we were done, you could look round the entire car park and everything was so shiny! like.. whoa. aha. so proud or our work. someone should have took pictures! haha. so.. yeah. we wahsed 60 cars in like... 1 1/2 hours? pro or wad?

oh and yay. i get to go to cambodia. but er.. whatsthatword-ly. 'cos the details are not confirmed yet. oh well. at least there a pretty large chance. just have to see if i manage to save enough money for the following months and what God does. God really answers prayer! i was praying to Him if i could go the other night, and i thought[still not able to get God's voice yet] He told me to start saving up. so.. well. to me that ment that He would see how sincere I am then work on my parents. but even though i haven't um... really started, so yep. he allowed me to go in the most unexpected way! apprantly my mum was talking to auntie woonyeow and happened to ask if i should go for the mission trip. and she was like.. yes! she should go! its VERY good for her! she will be blessed! so.. yay! haha.

and also. i miraculously have a placing in Debbie's cambodia group although being the last to tell her [i think] actually belle joy told her for me. last sun she was like.." i told debbie i'm going for cambodia ready." then.. "i din tell for you!" and i was like.. hey! so she told her today. how nice. haha./ so now apprantly debbie is going to kick out someone for me!

no such thing as miracles? bahh.

today.

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Mrs bowness is funny. she came in to class. "tell me! is this the teacher's table?" then she pushed everything off it [s stack of newspapers, a basket fill with stuff, and er.. sth else] and started saying how we should repect the teacher and bla. then after all that she started picking everything up. lol.

haha. thats about all for today. tingwei shall stop abusing me and i shall stop abusing tingwei. *uses the joey look on tingwei*

whatwasigoingtosay? err. wait. ..ya. can't remember. oh well. nvm. i need to study!! studystudystudy. bahh. when will i ever start?oh well.

yay.

health checkup. my eyesight is good. but my back is slightly crooked. nvm though.. its normal for tall people like me! believe it or not!?

went to Macs with su ying. rather freaky. aha. we made the counter auntie irritated. and su ying was like.. shes looks damn pissed! and i was like.. ya. dun care. then all of a sudden this woman behind started talking to us. ...like.. ya! shes looks pissed.. bla. she turns out to be the sth of the head office of Macs. yep. think we got that auntie into trouble :X. got free coffee though. :P

met jia jun there. su ying was "daring" me to say hi to him la. said i get to say she thinks shes cute and she'll play along. she didn't then anw. i was like.. willing him to go to the counter! "chilli suace! chilli sauce! you want chilli sauce!go get chilli suace! chilli sauce! chilli sauce..." and after like.. three mins of that. he got up and went to the counter! ..this happened twice. mind you.

recess was so like.. aha. one third of gy ended up in the book shop! and we started chatting with the bookshop auntie she has an eng name now! aha

had vollyball for pe! funfunfun. though i still can't serve. oh well.

childhood wisdom.

this song came to my head last night. ..or was it the night before.

oh well.. besdies bring back SPK memories..

"Don't say sth, that isn't nice!
better listen, to this advice!
when your mouth is making fun,
you can really hurt someone!
so keep yr lips together
and SHH!

when you can't say sth, thats good and true,
theres always sth you should do!!!
Shhhhh!!

strange thoughts.

-note- you might wanna skip the first para
nothing much in sch today. but i think i'm becoming just plain mean. to a certain person in my class. its just so wrong i don't know. it just comes naturally. and i feel bad after that. i have no idea whats making me do this. a short temper? or selfishnees? bitterness and unforgiveness? lack of compassion and love [duh] or issit just me being mean us usual. oh well. maybe I just gotta start trying/


graph and skittles dont go well together. its defying nature!

was reading this book which was talking bout death. it makes me wonder, do we take things for granted? such as... the existence of out own parents and loved ones? like if they go overseas for a short period of time, you don't missed thme that much, for though they are gone, you know so well they will come back. but yet... what if they don't? ..what if.. something happens and... well. what will happen to us then? not just like.. what will we live on and who will take care of us but. emotionally? who, or what will patch up that hole in out heart? ..how will we even overcome it? ..how badly will we miss them/ oh well. i guess thats where QT comes in. haha. i dunno la. i'm feeling weird. that book throws so many philosohpys at you.

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nothing much today. maths is boring. bahh.

had PE today. captains ball. (: i feel like i've improve. whee. i like improving. now all that has to happen is for my eng. chi.. science and hist to improve. then i'll be the happiest girl in the world. oh and math too. and geog and lit. yep .i don't ask for much. (:

thenthere was this 88.3 poeple. pretty much a waste of my time la. they said that they bring singers to other schs.. but wad bout ours? some schedule problems. like... whatever.. but like.. imagine if they brought Dicky? ..and there i would be sitting... watching him... listening to him sing.. like.. ohoh!! *melts*

a bad start.

a warning on the start of a new day on the start of the new week on the start of the new term. bahh.

oh well. nothing much to blog about. ..but the exam stress is coming onto my. radiating from the surroundings and pressing me down. oh well. i need stress

offically 18 more days to the exam. i need to start studying. but... how?

was reading evan's blog. and arggh. even he is beginning to mug. and really mug like mad. but yet I. oh well. self-discipline. bahh.

na jia yun. the colum is widened. its fat and weird. go tag.

1st anneversary.

Happy birthday! + one week!

ok. quite hard to believe that i actually managed to keep my blog for such a long time. ..unlike a limp attempts to start a diary, this blog has actually followed me for over a year! reading my own blog, its strange to see how much i have changed and... maybe even matured during this year.

this blog keeps memories that have came upon as i walked through the path of life. some, beautiful and some ugly. however, these are the things that keep me going in life.

i wanna thank all those people who have helped me keep this blog going.

my ardent readers [none]
the taggers
and most importently: ME *ego*

hee. anw. i love you my darling blog!

an unexpected visit.

certain thoughts come to you. when you least expect it. and... its something that you don't want to think about. although it might bring a smile to your face. but yet... i don't know. its weird. i'm weird today. oh well... ...

[my title has two meanings!]

had a little chat with gloria today! ...haven't had a proper talk with her in ages. and so much has changed since then.. ... oh well. anw. she got baptised! today! oh well. but this gloria ah... goes to church to look at boys... and expects me to do the same... :P

byebye holidays. hello sc. oh well. it can't be that depressing. after all. sc rocks... oh well. ...hello sc. its the last day of the hols! today was dedicated to slacking. aha. had a nice looong sleep in the afternoonm *smiles contentedly* then slacked somemore. oh well. (:

an unexpected visit to church yay. belle joy called me at 6.20 to go. ...it started at 6.30 but heck. ...oh. and i wasn't supposed to be there! bahh, oh well. so halfway through the thingy i got an sms. ..didn't read it until we were downstairs eating. turns out to be from jonlo. "yr head is blocking me" someone shorter than me ... shorter than me. *grins proudly*