today is a day that only comes once in four years.. cool huh. :)

guess who i saw in coro today? evan! in glasses! soo cool right??? ...haha.
my whole family went to coro without inviting me. how terrible. but since they woke me up from my sleep, i had to go. yep. so we were in the car, just outside coro, and i looked out of the window, and saw this guy in a grey shirt with his younger bro. ..then i was thinking to myself... could that be evan? ..no lar... its impossible. then... looks like him leh.. the way he like.. stands and walks, then looks at his hair, looks like him also!! then i exclaimed, "is that evan? omg!!! it is!" [and in front if my parents! think of that!] and my sisters were like.. where? where??? ah well.. my oldest sister caught sight of a figure walking into the toto shop. yep. so we all got out of the car and my sister was like... ewww!!! thats not evan lar! hes sooooo ugly lor! ..but she was looking at the wrong guy lar... haha. then i was like... actually i'm not sure if that is evan lar. maybe i saw wrongly... but.. maybe it is! so my sister took me to the back [where the toto was] the look for evan. so we wre like.. walking back.. and *gasp* there he was! in glasses!! walking in my direction. and my sister was like.. hes very cute leh!] yep. but i don't think he saw me.. 'cos once he was coming near i ran off. haha.. i wear until very ugly leh!! :P yep. so walk here and there, and saw him.. blar. and bought alot of food. ..funny how the little ntuc seems soo big suddenly. :P

yep. and oh!!! don't you just loveeee zhang jun bao??? i do!! ..he sent me the 2nd last ep. of ji xiang ru yi yesterday!! ahh!!! watched it tday.. i love him!!! :P

sometimes, i feel really unappreciated......

went to ting wei's house today. yay!! that place is so familar now... feels likes my 2nd home.... but not really lar. :P yep. so went there... did the mask. made the eagles' beak! whoop! at first it turned out like shit... then jingxuan showed me the obvious and obviously right way of doing it. sigh... yes. i dumb! so like. yep. did it. turned out fine though... erm.. nvm. yep. and jing xuan can sew soo omg well!!! jingxuan!!! i hate you!!!! yep. her stupid skirt and her stupid shirt turned out soo damn nice! [lala.. i chose the colours!] but.. haha... shes doing my costumes!! so.. yay!! :) [ps. i'm keeping the pants!! i don't care!! ...please?] haha. yep. and jingxuan kept "insulting" tingwei's younger brother. soo mean lor!! ..i mean like... yar... anyway. hes ok lar. :) yep. what else?? .. dunno.. can't really remember. jingxuan kept changing in the room, and we all had to turn around. jing xuan... so troublesome ah!! *wags finger*
om. and taking up so much time. tingwei thinks she will fall sick... and jingxuan is showing signs of sickness. oh well...

yep. then went to church. i was late. :( ..but belle joy was later :( yep. so went in. squeezed through evryone, feeling soo extra. and oh! hsuan ming was there standing next to joseph. so i asked her where belle joy is. auntie chowling said everyone was in front. so squeexed though the even more packed people, feeling even more extra, only to find that belle joy wasn't there. squeezed bak again. feeling all the more xtra. and went to find hsiun ming who said i could stand with her. yep. and she was standing really close to evan. why does it always seem as though i'm trying to attract his attention? ...i mean like... yar. ..thats how i feel lar. very... coincidental. ..hopen he doesn't think so. :P

yep. cell [and combined worship] was fun. like the song above all... suddenly. yay :) yep. cell was... fun lar. as usual. yay!

oh. apprantly evan reads hannah's blog [he uses the internet!!??] and hannah thought it was me k!!! hey!! i'm sooo innocent and cuteee... how could i do sth that would make anyone unhappy??? [ok fine.. alot of people have alot of things to say to this... fine!] yep. so.. thats not the point. ...he uses the internet!!!??? ...haha. fine lar. a stupid rich [arggh!!!] person like him probelly has his own comp. [like that stupid justin. justin- :(] :P actually... am i the only one in this world who doesn't have her own comp?? ...hope not man... yep. so.. yar. thats not the point. ...too! there is like.... sooo much crao in hannah's blog... and i am sooo. omg going to die. arggh.

btw. the soo nice to jingxuan!! ...found two cute and rich guys to intro to her[ remember how she keeps going on about "do you have a bro? how old? got gf? cute?" and "do you have a male cousin? how old? got gf? cute?" yep. so nicenice me.. found two guys for her!! ..cheryl keeps telling me that they are sooo cute.. and from what i read.. they are rich.. so.. yay!!! i'm soo nice right?? jingxuan, next time when you get married and have lots and lots of money, do remember me! haha. :p

k. what was i going to say? ...nvm

tag my blog!!! ...please? ..its damn sad!

damn dumb today. forgot lots and lots of thing early in the morning. first, i forgot my darling watch. how could i ever? yep. then.. brought an empty wallet to sch... forgot to put money in it. *wow* then.. this is the best part!!! it was only when i was on the sch bus when i realised that my ex. link card isn't giro. i need to top it up!! arghh!! damn dumb of me right... but thx to one understanding girl [zoe] and one super darling darling friend [rosliand!!!!] the day passed well. :)

yep. went to for walk this morning. with zoe and jing xuan and gloria. all the way to mobile. :) yep. bought mentose and walked back. whoop! i'm healthy.(:

yep. what else?? i've another mummy and daddy!!! ..its none other than.... mr hong and lao shi!! wahaha.. damn funny lor!! yesterday for some reason the class started calling her ma. then she was like.. yi ri wei shi, zhong shen wei mu k!


rosliand is damn nice. did i say that? she is!

ting wei said my plot is damn good. tingwei said. haha. :) and oh.. i soo suck at sewing... you people don't have to remind me. really! :)

zhang jun baO is sending me the ji xiang ru yi. don't you just loveee him??

k. though i should seperate the last post from this... 'cos i sound kinda "happy" so.. it doesn't match. i know it was damn sucky lar. but if i don't get just a little out... i'm really going to explode some day. i hate poeple who take advantage of you... and just seem to think you owe everything to them. its your duty to serve them. ..makes me want to slap her. ..i used to keep telling myself that its ok. but now... i just can't take it.

yep. went to ting wei's house for ipw. for what? i went there and wasted my time, and just got pissed with *her. ah well... bought the cloth. feel damn [dunno what] now.. my cloth is more ex than others!! ..i didn't do it on purpose. really! apprantly they didn't have the same type of material for the brown cloth. haha. hope they don't say anything tomorrow. esp *Her *rolls eyes*

k. what else?? ..marcia is really very nice... can't stand it!! ..haha.. it kind of makes me wonder if she dislikes me... shes soooo nice.. i can't tell. see lar marcia! chio and nice... arggh. :) nvm. at least the chio-ness isn't wasted... sooo suits her charecter!!! unlike... someone. yes... *her.

ohohoh!!! i passed my zi du!!! i got 7 leh!!! beat jillian!! the super super smart jillian!! [actually only by half a mark.. but.. still! :P] ...hist test... nvm lar. yep. and ooh!! i got a tan!! a t-shirt tan!! ..on my neck!! ..yuk right.. i think so too.. its like.. one "stripe" ..but... jing xuan says its very nice.. and makes me look healthy so... yay!! :D

today was normal. pissed of her *her again. sigh... i used up all my energy refraining myself from screaming at her. felt sooo tired. though i did end up arguging with her in the end. but it was short... too short. i didn't manage to get everything out. i find it weird, really weird. but.. i seem to.... really want to quarrel with her. just scream at her. get everything out. i'll just feel so much better. i know it. it seems that.. i don't treasure our friendship any longer. ..i want to! ..but... i no longer care. why? i need help. ....i need to breath. i need to get it all out.

nose sucked and sucked today. yuk. still sucking. :( ..and i;m damn stressed. yes its sunday again. sigh. i don't like sundays.

sigh.. don't you just love sats? i do! ..pity it only comes once a week. sigh. ): whats wrong with me? well... think i put on quite alot of weight today. slacked the whole day off again today. its thr type of day when you try to do everything, and end up doing nothing. ..you know how i feel. and what do i do? ...i have a gloeg test tomorrow. and everything is due tomorrow, or the day after. what am i to do?

Su ying is damn blur. she thought the acjc funfair is next month. hi mummy!!! ..i found someone as dumb as me!!! ..ahaha... *hi su-ying...*

sigh. i'm dumb. and depressed, and stressed. ):

got emails from my ny friends. apprantly, their lives suck. and they are damn depressed. i wanted to write an email to all of them. to comfrot them... tell them what to do... anyway. i wrote one line, and closed the box. why? ..i just couldn't think of what to write. why?

went to church today. think my grandfather was quite pissed even though he didn't say anything. do you think i should have stayed at home? ..it was.. after all, his b'day celebration. k. now i feel damn bad. :( no. but i seriously think we meaningless. we do the same thing every year. eat, talk, go home. its not like i actually talk to my grandfather when hes there or anything. k lar. i do. but... its not really a real convo... 'cos hes watching tv. and i don't even bother talking to my cousins... just go there and listen to their convo. k/ so what do we do during the celebration? eat, talk watch tv, cut cake. i went to church, ate , talked, watched tv, and cut the cake. ..did i miss anything?? oh well. yes. i'm a horrible girl. i know that. sigh.
chuch was... the same lar- fun! haha.. don't yiou just lovee church??? ..we wr ejust crapping and crapping non stop. and the msg was only like... sooo short. oh!! and adeline said i eat very daintily!!! whaha!! ..she gave us some giant pockey and we were eating and she said, only Su-Min eats daintly. ..then i looked around.. can't see the difference, she said i', the only one who actually bother to dunno dunno what... i think its becuase my stick broke. heh. :) and belle joy said i'm very good at all those slapping stuff. opps! :)

yep. so.. came home ate alot and alot. haha... i was soo hungry.. [sheesh man!! spelt it as hungary... geog is killing me!! ..the effects of the mapwork hasn;t worn off:(] stomach was grolwing non-stop during cell. wonderful adeline's wonderful pocky stick saved me... :) yep. so the food was nice lar. basically pigged myself out. ate and ate and ate non-stop. ..inculding the sweet my cousin was going to eat. [hehee.. thx :)] and the blueberry cheese cake was nice... yum!! my sister is damn funny. she asked junxu if he has a six pack. and he refused to answer. ..i say... he does! :P

su-ying asks when she ever said she was chio-er than me. i wonder... at least once every squash training? i mean... please lor. shes forever telling me that i'm sooo ugly and shes [so much] chio-er than me. i would know... everytime she says that she hurts my self esteem. i know i'm ugly k!!!.. but no one ever says that to me!! k lar. they do.. but not once a week!!! ..and they only do it sometimes.. actually.. very rarely. no one hurts my self esteem!! and when she says that i'll look at a mirror when i walk past it and think to myself.. and i really THAT ugly? ..i mean.. i kinda know i am... but not to a certain extent where no one actually wants to look at yr face! ..whatever lar. i'm crapping as usual. now everyone knows why my compos are all sooo longg!!! ..when i say crap..i mean crap. blar... and it is kinda irrtating having someone calling you a cowbu all the time btw.

ps. sorry isAac for spelling yr name wrongly... go change now k?

today was... fun. played rubgy for PE again, out in the hot sun. promised myself to be more violent... and i was!!! ..not as violent a jing xuan lar.. but still. violenter. pulled out someone's shoe also... wahaha... she was damn what man.. i pullsed out her shoe, ting wei pulled out her sock, someone pulled out her glasses, and she was being attacked on the grass. haha... who ask her to get the ball? ...but she scored a goal anyway. 'cos even though she had problems running her whole team was pushing her forwards so we couldn't do anything. yep. then when he came back to wear her shoe, jessica took it and threw in onto the track. so damn mean right!! see her to small and cute somemore... but i like! :D ..and i cut my finger!!..it bled!! :(haha. basically this team[opp team] was really really violent. and they didn't really care if anyone got injurd. my group was kinda pissed. but its really quite *what lar. they kicked felicia's face, and stepped on deborah's glasses. very *what lor!! they knocked her glasses onto the floor and i was screaming "stop!!! deborah's glasses!! don't step!!" ..and no one even bothered. deborah says there is permanent damage to her glasses. and jing xuan was damn pissed as well. oh well...

went to watch the friendly with rgs and chij. rgs was soo good lor!! ..and so is jillian. speaking of her... so looks so damn chio without her hairband lor!!... like ALOT...and shes already so chio!! ..*jealous* ..this class is sooo filled with chio people i can't stand it. :(

hihi. this blog is for yesterday. 'cos my wasted my stupid time doing that cme project. trying and trying to load on the pictures so that i slept at 12. but the pictures did not come out in the end :( so.. like.. hmm... should i hand it in without the pictures and lose ten marks for evidence, or hand it in on mon and lost markd for handing in late and wasting my time and effot and failing anyway? sigh.. cme. whats the point?

k... bad memory again. totally forgot what i was going to say :( erm... hmm... yesterday. had squash. yep. played with su-ying before it started and trashed her!!! yay!!!! :) then... coach said that mgs cca wants to play freindly with us. arggh. we are soo going to be trashed. ohoh!! squash!! do you know we saw germit singh!!! like.. su-ying and i were going to trhe toilet. then there was this guy refilling his water bottle. then.. omg!! its was germit singh!! ..then he was outsdie the squash court when we went in. cool huh!! and when we were playing.. becky came. amd she was soo omh excited. wahaha... but he looks damn depressed you know? ..like.. so quiet... i dunno. :(

k lar. really can't remember what happened. can;t be bothered to think also. ..should i change my blogskin?

played rugby during PE. haha... its like that lar... i'll never get used to snatching the ball. and its kinda weird when you apoligise everytime you hit someone. guess its just not for me. i think i was the only one who wasn't rolling on the grass. ah.. .can't help it. i'm refined :P i dunno lar.. i kinda try to help people get the ball.. but i never actually try to snatch it. oh wait.. i did. once.. i just didn't end up rolling on the ground. oh. but i did score a goal!!! ..its damn sad. wanna hear? haha... jing xuan, hugging her ball, runs from one side of the field to the other. till shes just outside the goalpost. then someone comes and attacks her.. so there a re rolling on the ground. then i saw the ball on the floor. ..so i picked it up and scored1!!! yay!!! ..haha :)

yep. what else? hmm... the day was.. like that lar. let off one lesson early for the music thing. missed history. arggh. anyway... yep. then gillian was this this mustard coloured shit, and zhi ying wanted to eat her. haha. then we were like.. k. jing xuan [orange] is the ketchup, gillian is the mustard, zhi ying [green] is the lettuce ..then i was like.. i'm the xtra!!! then there were like... Su-min is the bread... Su-Min and Lorriane is the bread.. then we kinda of ended there. ..what about the meat?? ..oh!! and lois was chilli. so like.. wow. lovely burgar manz. yar.. i was was like.. our burgar is bread and mustard and ketchup!! and everyone was like.. yuk. haha :)

yep. then went for the concert. damn siao. the whole group of us [sy ans gy] were all cheering for mad. like.. for no reason lor!! [to me lar].. just felt like cheering. hee. oh!! and i came up with a song!! ...sang to the tune of heal the world.

I look out my window and i see
Gloria Khoo is so ugly~
i think about the world.
it seems so very beautiful to me
but think about the air that we all breath~
its polluted by gloria!
i close my eyes and wish that i could see things differently,
maybe theres still time to change
together we can do it
togerher we can try,
together we can kill!
gloria~ khoo~
if the world is dying,
its up to you and I
together2
we can fo it if we try!!!

whoo!!!! *whistle* yes. i think its nice too. :P

oh!!! our class won $100 swensens vouchers. yay!!! ..looks like we are going to have a class outing... and make mr hong pay the balance of our bill! :P

oooh!! Guess what? I failed my chinese test! 17/40/ chi Rawks. esp my chi. damn dum b lar. i could have gotten 20. list marks for nth. pissed. now my mother is making me go back to that sucky tuition. please lor! i attenteded the first three classes. and i failed. that teacher keeps talking crap to her and she thinks its soo good. please lor. then she said maybe i can go to jiang if i go find out about it. yay. :)

k. what else? hmm.... lit. lit!!! yay1!! got my test back. guess how much i got??? upon 25?? 20!! yay!!! haha.. i'm damn go. yes. i know. but.. who cares?? ..i did soooo weelll for my chi i have to talk about sth else. yep. could have gotten 22!!! ..didn't have enough time to complete it. and you know what? Lois said that she came in late.. thats why we had less time. stupid.

yep. had music today. ..during recess. started to erm... stop liking it. taking too much of my recess lar! so like.. went in late today. apprantly MRs Goh was angry. and guess what?? ..i could hear from her playing!!! ..we wre like singing and i asked gloria if she was angry and she said yes. ..but when i looked she didn't seem angry.... dunno... better not be late... i'm too nice :)

hm... what else??.. stayed up until 12.30 to do that stupid lit essay [my darling sister came home in time to edit it. thank God man!! she spotted this big big mistake!!! ..and she stayed until 12.30 to help me too1! love you!! *muackies!!*] yar. then today... Miss wee let some people hand it in on wed, because they didn't edit it. wah lao! i stayed up until 12.30 leh! wanna give us extension tell us earlier can not??

hmm.. what else??? ..dunno.. damn crappy today..
ps. yay1!! yao ying tagged!!!

k. today was damn stressful :( soent nearly the whole day diong my lit essay. and didn't get any help from me lit-pro sister. sigh... should have completed it earlier.

besides doing that crap essay.. what did i do.. hm... went out for lunch at this tim sum place.. food was damn ex. not ex. lar... overpriced? yep. but food was..ok... lar. damn full. yep. thwn went to macs to eat ice cream. and oh!! guess who i saw??? Yao ying!! i was going to buy ice cream with my sister.. then loked up.. isn't that Yao ying?? ..it was lor!! ..but didn't really talk to each other. sad.. yep. so ate ice cream.. then went to buy slippers. and oh man! saw heather. my ister saw her actually.. who would look at her man? yar lar.. after today i kinda realsied i haven't really forgave her. thought i have... well.. this kinda of thing is hard... esp. after 4-5 years. like.. yar. i keep telling myself that i have forgiven her.. but now when i actually see her.. i kinda realised i haven't. and i dunno how to. sigh. anyway. bought sandels. $3 only leh!!!.though the quailty is quite bad... but that do you expect right? ..also bought one size smaller 'cos they didn't have size 5. ..i wear size 4 sandels... how sad can i get? so.. yep. one more pair of sandels to add to my pathetic collection of.. erm... one. sigh.. thats how sad i am.

yep. then walked around. yar. damn stressed by my essay leh. what if i fail? arggh!! *runs off*

Happy Valentines day everyone! *muax*

watned to find a new skin for valentines, but realised i couldn't be bothered. anyway my skin is pretty valentine-ish. don't you think so?

slacked the whole day today. i'm soo going to fail my sec 2. and its the streaming year! oh. had piano lesson. Miss Lee was trying to tell me about the feeling you should have while you are playing a peice. esp. a slow one. ..she thinks i have it [but] but it sort of needs to be... devoloped? then she started on how music is like painting a picture, the diff chord and ornaments are different colours. then that freaked me out. creates a feeling of.. dislike for music now. for i person with my artistic "talent" ..its best you don't use art to make examples. so then. issit true that artistic play the piano well? ...sharon is an example!

sonic edge soo totally rocked! ..and the songs were so meaningful..though i didn't know some of them. but i was kinda hoping for like.. better than life or sth. nvm... all the same. :D yep. but it was really soo damn nice. [the music...] like omg! the drums! and there was this part when there was no music.. and everyone was singing... then the drums came in and then the music. ah!!! and there was another one. like.. the band was playing, then they sll stopped suddenly. for like.. 5 secs. then they all played together again. ah! k.. i know that when you worship the music and songs are not importent. its God and everything. but.. yar! nice music makes me happy. and God wants you to be happy when you praise Him. k fine. wring context. whatever... :)

belle joy said my hearts nice!! my ugly heart!! i heard her!! i passed it to her and she looked at it and she was like. "nice leh!" awww... my heart.. nice!! me!! with no artistic talents!!! yay!! my lousy effot wasn't wasted manz. then she was trying to stuff the heart in her wallet. like.. op wallets all have the plastic pockets? ..yar. she was trying to out the heart inside. then it was to big. then she tried to out in into the tranparent thing. too big also. then she tried putting it into the net thing... dunno where it went in the end.

yep. sermon was good. about worshiping God again. learnt more about how.. badly i treated worship. hmm... must change.

yep. then went to great world city with my parents. me the dian deng pao. :( nvm. i'm sure they love me alot and alot so they are still very happy :P yep. had the same rice thingy as the last time [yes. i'm boring] .but after that i kinda realised why i liked it so much. it was HONGKONG food!! ..look how fated *we are? yep. then went shopping. didn;t buy anything though ): wanted to go to the shops upstairs, but by the time i finished with those downstairs, the shops were closing. so.. sigh :( but there was this kinda nice jacket. but they only had m. and my mum said that jackets had to be big. ..so i didn;t buy :( yep. then went home. yay!!

oh!! i have a mother!! a 3rd mother... yay1! guess who??

yay!! holiday today. went to my darling tingting's house. she is sooo cutee!!! like omg1! k. woke up at 7 this morning [and on a non-school day!] took MRT for like.. 1 hour? then went to have Macs breakfast. wow. haven't had it for soo long!! ..never managed to wake up early enough. heh.

yep. then went to my da-yi's house and ooh!! tingting!! shes sooo cuteeee!! I missed her!! yep. so played with her until like.. 10? then went to cut my hair!! yay!! its sooo much neater now! and it isn't short!! ..though it kinda looks short.. but she just layered my hair alot more. and cut the top part. so.. its nice. well...neat at least. no more "branches" sticking out. [bird's nest] yep. then played with tingting somemore. until.. 2? then went home. but on the way walked past a shopping centre. so.. bought stuff!! yay. got this new shirt.. quite nice lar... except for the front... where theres this hole and ribbon[theres xloth undeaneath so its not revealing.. i don't wear revealing cloths k! Gloria!] yep. then went to ntuc.. blar. then went home! ..and because poor me woke up and 7, i ended up sleeping in the train. haha.. my poor mother.. *muax* yep.. then went home[changed train 'cos my mother was going somewhere else]. and can you believe it? i almost missed the station! like.. my mother was telling me five stops. and at the 2nd or 3rd stop there was this cute little ang moh baby and omg.. she is sooo cuteee!! [kichikichikoo!!! ..as melody would say] so i was busy starting at her. then 2 stops later some irritating RGS girls came up. and i wasn't paying attention to the thigny lar.. then when the MRT stopped i was like.. how come so long? ..then i listened out for the thing that says the station? ..but the stupid RGS girls were talking so loudly i couldn't hear. [sorry yao ying!! ..no offence] so i looked out.. and i saw the plactic thing "newton" ..so i was like.. opps!! ..and ran out of the Mrt. *phew* thank God man. :)

yep. finished two books today. amazing huh! ..think so too. yep. and my stpid tag=board isn't working. it doesn't let me tag! irritating! so erm.. leaving my msg here?

Su-ying: huh? perfect plan for what? ..short term memory heh. and don't you dare bully MY Dicky k! *fierce look* yao ying too!! humph...
ps. Zoe has been bathing for 1h 1mins. ..can't believe it.

sylvester: erm.. sorry. but who are you? ..and whats wrong with SCGS girls? .. i nkow i'm not a very nice person but you can't judge the whole Sc by me.

haha. reading Su-Ying's blog. well.. just finished. she was talking about us planning to erm.. "how to sabotage time" as she calls it. damn funny leh!! nicenice Su-Ying agreed to walk me to the bustop [traffic light actually.. but nvm. still very nice:)] then we were planning to ...erm..... sth. and it was damn dumb and funny lor. laughing like mad. [actually i told her what to do lar.. i'm more evil:P]

oh.. and i got "A" for ther CS bugs and flowers thingy. yay!:P

what else... lao shi and mrs Bowness was nice, :) and oh! mrs canham too, :)

wasted my time making valantines day stuff for my cell.wasting my marker ink manz! :P haha. i'm damn mean right. i think so too. [sheesh]

was reading my zoe-entry. k lar... think i shouldn't have be soo mean. ..i wasn't that pissed.:) so.. if yr reading this.. sorry k. .but i'm not going to delete it. :P

you know.. i was talking to Su-ying [as usual] and the topic moved to Zoe. and like... we both find her damn irritating. sometimes. i mean like.. she goes round and does stupid things that affect our lives totally. and she doesn't bother think about how we feel or probably just doesn't care. i mean like.. yar. she just does stuff like that and expects us to talk to her and act like nothing has happened. i mean i do... but it really gets on my nerves. i have to stop myself from screaming at her.

like... for ex. Su-ying.. i was like.. "bullying" her and calling her isaac's gf. [in front of zoe] and i mentioned that Su-Ying talks alot about isaac. and zoe.. obviously. starts calling Su-ying isaac's gf too. njow. theres nth wrong with that [though Su-Ying might object] but she has to go round telling the whole world, including those who don't know Su-Ying] that shes isaac's gf. .and no. on one knows isaac. i mean.. how childish can one get? and no. she doesn't stop there. she goes on... to tell isaac that half the sch knows about it. and puts the blame on me! not that she said directly.. but she just said do you knows half the sch knows blar.. and isaac said issit Su-min? and she says don't worry.. i will help you.... spread it!! but if you were isaac you would definatly think that it was me and zoe is the innocent party right!? ..no ike my reputation isn't bad enough... [sorry.. i know it kinda sounds like its about me.. but actually i;m complaing for su-ying]

yep. and shes so.. heartlessly insensitive that she goes and... arggh. i just can't say it out. but it makes me wanna scream at her. before that say she told me that she would do it.. but i didn't believe her.. i mean.. who would do sth so.. childish and despicable. its.. a joke carried wayyyy tooo far. i mesn stuff like prank calling i can laugh along but *this? ..scream at her? no... she would call me a wet blanket. *rolls eyes* and now.. shes threatening to do it on sat. [valentines day] if she does it.. i'm not going to control anymore i tell you. i ready told her that i would "jue jiao" if she did that. i mean it k. i'm warning you...

its like.. really really very *what. like.. once we were chatting and i jokingly said sth like i know who you like... she blew up at me and was like.. Su-Min1 i tell you. i'm never ever going to tell you a secret again. you can't keep secrets. i very dissapointed in you.. etc... i mean hi!! who was the one who spilled out a secret and nearly broke my friendship with gloria? i mean like.. she likes junxu [erm.. hi..?] and hes there sitting there in my msn list.. but do i ever do anything? no? becuase i havge the basic commen sense of how she would feel!?

whatever lar. when i stared writing i felt more erm.. lighthearted? ..but now i'm getting pissed... no use getting myself worked up over a small matter..
anyway.. i'm mising my benny chan.. bye!

Happy b'day DICKY!!

yep. just wanted to wish someone very special in my life a verry happy birthday. this day is special for you. it comes only once in a lifetime [so does everyday. but this is more special:)] i hope that this day has truely been a meaningful one to you. one year has passed quickly. and alot of things has happened. I'm sure you have matured and grown wiser throughout the year. many saddening events [like the death of anita mui] has happened. but i'm sure it has contributed to the growth to yr charecter in one way or another. don't worry. just stay happy and keep smiling.. always. :) don't worry. even though yr 39. you don't look old at all. and

i will love you always!!!

haha. just wanted to wish my very special darling [Dicky] happy b'day. i know he doesn't read my blog and it sounds damn stupid. but ah well... who cares?


found out that the sonic edge is coming next week for praise and worship. can't wait1!

yep. came come and played hearts and titee. family bonding. yay. ok... what was i going to say? i have no idea. nth imp i guess.


"everyone lives for a reason, whats yours?"

it set me thinking. but i didnt get far. i dont have TIME to even think about some mind-boggling major issue like this. THIS is the sad state of my life.

this.. i got from ..someone's blog. think it kind of applied to me. i have heard this question. yes. it set be thinking. but besides the hasty answer of "for God" i never got any further. never ever bothered to think.
yes. what is my reason for living? ..what is God's purpose for me? in my case. i actually have the time to think. but.. i guess i never bothered.
ok. while typing.. the answered kind of came to me. it sounds kinda lame here but... makes sense.
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read purpose driven life! ..haha.. so coincidental. my mother was asking me to read the book just now. and.. i refused. came to the comp... first blog i went to... and saw that? ...could it be....
oh. another thing came to my head... a worship song.. you are my purpose for life! you are my reason for living...
ah well.. i guess my hasty answer of "for God" is right too... sigh.. i now have to add "reading purpose driven life" to part of my everyday stuff. hope i'll have enought time for everything!! :)

ps. oh yes. wanna wish emay and deborah's cute little bro happy b'day too! *muax*

ps. 1385 words!! :)

had church today. amazing race. how fun. [really!!] i guess everyone wants to hear the evaney parts. i'll try. :P funny though... forgot totally how evan looks like [no memory.. sigh...] but when i type his name.. his image came to me.. weird..

yep. went to church with my sister. who went there one hour early just for me. [muax] and while we were walking towards the church [my father dropped us of ourside the hawker center for some strange reason] my sister suddenly said. hey! is evan going early too? nope... haha. yep. went to church saw lenoard in the lift. "hello!" mumbles.. hello.. you are... Su-min... right... nods. wonders how he ever heard of my name. surely.. *they don't talk about me during cell.. i'm not that "infamouse" right!? ..lift door opens.. walks out hurriedly to room 210. find that room is empty. except for a tab studying. says hi. shuts door to find that i nearly close it in lenoard's face. hurridly opens the door. yes. why is the room emtpy? we were supposed to meet at four? no? yep. they[belle joy and charisa] came at 4.20. wow. the worse thing was how unorganised they were. i think debbie was kinda pissed. 'cos she was scolding belle joy. and in the end she organised everything for us. by that time it was five 20. the game was supposed to start at five. ah well. everyone rushes down to start the game. i left with ruth and tab. walks out of the door and oh! who is sitting there in his sch u? ah!! and guess what? tab was there blocking my way. which leaves me [still] standing behind him! anyway. left for the urban room, started counting the colours on the wall [eight] ..they gave me a question with no ans. ..ah well... then... took less than 2 mins for me to get bored. walked back to church. peeps from behind the wall. and oh!! guess whose face was there right in front of me?? ..quickly walks away. anyway. took out my book to study [how hardworking!!!] amd forgot to close my bag [no wonder evan was smiling!! but... he couldn't have seen that embarassing sight.. i had my back to the wall!] then here comes dawn's group. asking me if i knew where elizebeth was. shrugged. wouldn't have told you even if i knew!! :) [oh btw!! you were supposed to be looking for me.. hee] then joseph comes.. alone "for evan's sake.. give me the clue!!!" what station are you looking for? ..to tell you the truth.. didn't even know if it was mine anot. yep. ..he dunnos as well. the block sth one.. guess its mine.. where is the rest of yr group? they're over there slacking. get them here! you mean the whole group must be here? ...said yes. but brought him to the urban room anyway. [do you want to run there to meet evan?] count the main colours. ..how many chances do i get?? *counts* 7. wrong. 6. nope. 5. nope 8! *gives clue and he runs off.* then dawn's group. the jon lo. 6. nope. 6.nope. 4. nope. 7 nope. 8.. 10.. 9... 11. yes. 8. takes clue..laughs and walks off. repeats what happened to evan. hmm... was i too....nice? ..should hace said.. "make up yr mind!" right!? ah.. who cares? yes. thats right. evan. stading there for a really long time. until his group runs past me. with evan walking right at the back. until he got quite near me and started running. whatever... can't stand me.. humphhh [oh. this was when he smiled. btw.. a kind soul.. who i don't know.. told me that i bag was open :) thx dear! :)] erm. lets see. poor me waited and waited although i knew no one else was coming. but just stayed there in case a group was realy really slow. then wen hui appeared. and persuaded her to go to ntuc with me... by bribing her.... with water. lol.

yep. walks towards the church. saw evan's group walking... Su-min!! where is the ..... didn't hear.. so i said dunno... then joseph shouts... Su-Min!! evan!! uh1!! *rolls eyes* to think of it.. don't think he saw. can't help it that my eyes are small right!!! and.. they come. and ask me for my clue!! well.. not really mine.. wen hui.. yep. so since we were walking in the same direction i was like.. you know that just now you all were the first?? ..then now.. like that.. then isaac was like really!?!? we wre firsst!?!? then josph was like.. yar lor!! i was first leh!!.. then he was like.. see lar!! when i was doing we were first leh!! ... then i passed it to you then like that. ermm.... yar anyway. on the way to ntuc.. saw grace at her station. ..the one where poeple had to eat bread with stuff. so i wanted to see.. ended up helping her. yep. i think i was pretty irritating at the station. 'cos i kept shouting. esp at joseph. haha. too bad. ...told you i was easily irritated right? ..just.. depends on my mood lar. :) yep. so ther was this group. [erui's] had to eat bread in water with peas. then this girl just refused to eat. spent really really long refusing. then at that time.. evan's group came.. so.. i went to "serve" them. [this was when i shouted at joseph. ..not really shouted lar.. raised my voice? ..dunno] there was this wheel he was supposed to spin. and he refused to spin!! and i was like.. spin. spin. spin!! and he lifted up the paper to see what was underneath. and i was like.. SPIN LAR! and he didn't.. so i gave the wheel to someone else to spin. "spin!" ..i ment to give it to isaac.. but i think it kinda looked like i was giving it to evan 'cos isaac was stading behind. then joseph took it and fake.. spin one round. then open. i was kinda irritated by then.. aso i was like.. can't remember what i said lar.. then i gave the board to the guy next to joseph [other side] and was like.. SPIN. and he did lar.. peanut butter and bread. so.. gave them the bread.. [i gave everyone except evan. 'cos he took it from wen hui. on purpose right!!!! humph!!!] yep. and joseph asked for more and i was like.. NO! ..sorry lar.. there wasn't enough bread. yep. so they left. melody still there struggling with her bread soaked in water. then grace came back with a big bag of... POPATO CHIPS!!! yay!! soo nice of her *muax* and we started piggin out right away. :) yep. finished out chips and melody was still there. then cheryl came with bananas. ate it 'cos it reminded me of swk. :) so.. waited there REALLY long.. grace wouldn't let us go. until a boy came to tell us to go back. then had to stay there and help to clear up. so.. by the time we reached... the games started ready. so.. yep. stood there with me fren. then oh!! evan was right in front of me!! stupid boy. so act pai. never tuck in his shirt. yr sch u leh!! not even pe lor! ans its like... tuck in.. not never tuck in properly. tuck out.. but also not tuck out. ..you know what i mean... i can't think if anyone who does that so it can;t be that i'm just.. nerdy. ..right!? right!? ..i dunno. i just am so nerdy. anyweay.. looked up. found my sister drooling at evan.. ah well.

yep. ice breaking games ended. then this funny isaac thing happened. but nvm. then.. they wanted to thank the amazing race people [thats meee!!!] but belle joy and charisa weren't there.. so they cheered for ruth and me only!!1 lalala...

yep. went home. my sister said that evan is getting less and less cute. ..and he doesn't have nice legs like mingsheng. who stares at people's legs? tell me! huh? er-jie! [opps]

oh. and we bought a new cage for squeak. she lovess it!! it has two levels, is made of wire [yuks] and cost $50. ..why is squeak so expensive to keep?

Love is patient, love is kind. it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. it is not rude, it is not self-seeking... [1 corinthians 13:1-8] if that is so, shouldn't i be happy for Dicky that he is about to be happily married? yes. happy. *wipes away a single tear.*

ah well. i still love lao shi. :) i forgot to bring my textbk today.. and she didn't scold me!! :) yep. and she played music on teh cd player she brought. yep. my cd. but *sigh* it is not confiscated... by sue lyn. i miss my cd. :( anyway... we all stayed in class during break to listen. damn nice leh!! and we ruished back during recess to listen again. and after school...last lesson was ipw.. lao shi lar.. then after that was chi. and lao shi played the music again. then when she walked out of the class.. gillian went to change the cd to micheal jackson.. black and white then when lao shi came back she was like "wah! hao da dan! zao fan le!!" lol. :)

you know.. i'm glad I chose this IPW group. I love it! [except for the "wakefield twins" :P] like.. you actually have people who actually bother about my suggestions and what i say. Unlike.. certain people. *rolls eyes* yep. We went to shop for cloth today [of course without the two of them] wanted to go to people's park. but darling Jing xuan wanted to go to sport light where everything is soo ex. stodd there arguing for quite long. then she offered to pay the difference.. so we went [but of course she didn't]. waited forever for the bus. took another life time to decide what cloth to buy. finally decided. ...and i wanna be the new creature!!! its soo nice k!! you know what Jing xuan is wearing?? she hasa grey furry top [for the bear] and a hot pink tail!!! arggh!!! soo unfair right!? ..i choose [suggested and argues over] the colours lor!!! soooo nice!! and what am i [the darling griffon] dressed in? brown furry bottem [as material as jx's its velvet i think] and erm.. smelly mask with feathers. ...still brown. sigh. yep. so got the stuff. yay!!! .went home. yep.

watched the jessica xuan show. nice.

omg!! can you believe how stupid i am? i actually missed the post fever100 meeting!! arggh1! i'm pissed wuth myself. how could i have mixed the dates? tell me?
stupid k!! here i am. thinking its tomorrow. then isaac comes online and i ask him what time it ends. and he tells me that it was today1!! arggh! how dumb can a person get? ..and i really really wanna go!! *breaksdown* :(

wish me luck for my test! (:

no school today. whee. went out for lunch at my father's fren house. got more ang baos. yay! :) Didn't expect any too. ..should the money go into my sugaring fund? ..should i have a sugaring fund? hmm.. we'll see! :)

yep. got un-pissed with Gloria on msn today. in fact... felt quite bad at being pissed with her. though it did not hide the fact that she bluffed me. yep. but.. dunno lar. dunno why i feel bad also. sigh.. i'm weird. so... yup. saw melody online finally. yay!! :) but felt kinda weird.. like we.. drifted apart? dunno.. didn't realy know what to say to her. and i kinda realised i totally forgot about her blog

yep. what else? i slacked the whole day again! but am I supposed to do for my lit and hist test? ..which is tomorrow!!! [and wed for hist but i dun have much time and have lots and lots to study] and its hist and lit!! what am i supposed to do? *faints* yep. getting the usual i-have-got-incomplete-work syndrom. and this time i know its soo soo true 'cos i have maths!! and i kinda like.. left my file in sch! arggh!! how!?

i feel damn stressed. i think weekends are bad for me. they make me stressed. on sunday nights lar. i miss the hols!! and ji iang ru yi ends tomorrow. :( nvm. theres still benny chan. yes. thats right. always look on the bright side. stay happy.

and i killed a beetle last night. soo proud of myself!!! first time i have ever ever done something like that!!! ah!! i threw a slipper on it and stepped on the slipper to make sure it was dead. ..but didn't dare to lift it up though... :P sad. yes. but... nvm.

well. what do i do for my lit test? i dunno.. pray and hope for the best? yes. sigh. ..only thing i can do now. right? sigh. this blog is soo full of crap. and deborah though *she was reffering to her. of course not right!? haha.. don't worry deborah. yr nice. :)

what else? just very worried for my lit lor. and hist. and i haven't done my sewing! omg!!! sigh.
weekends should last longer. like.. maybe for a month. i half wanna wish bord flu will give us another hol. but.. omg.. that is soo WRONG! i shouldn't be having tt though! arggh!

wah!! got testinomy to share!!
i somehow managed to get my d drive stuck. :S so traumatising k!! like yar.. suddenly cannot open. i was soo freaked out!! so asked everyone what to do. in the end my sister told me to asked my bro.. over the internet. so my bro asked me to find a small hole and poke with paper clip. and i did. then it hink i poked too hard. 'cos there was this funny noise. so my sister asked me to poke again.. and press open. then will i press.. suddenly.. the light went out!! i was soo freaked out!! and my bro said maybe had to replace lor!! [as you know i already broke the tap] in the end just restart the comp. then i prayed like mad. and guess what? God answers prayer!!! when he comp was on, the light was there. and when i pressed the button, the thing opened!!! ah!!! thank God man!!!..i was like.. jumping up and down!!! :)

yep. just wanted to share. :D

ohohoh!! and you known i lost my darling Cd, and i was praying and searching really hard. and i found it!! muax!! ...and i found another one.. i lost super long ago. [ looking for it 'cos the stupid D drive to get stuck]

yep, tts all.. until i think of somemore. :)

nth much happened today. basically slacked the whole day. tried doing some work but... lets just say it failed. ended up walking round the house. blocking my sister who was watching her mixue. [just bought new vcds, lucky darling]. yep. in the end... took a long break with nothing done. and after the break... never really got back to work :( yep. spent the "break" on the comp [duh] ended up chatting with sharon. [ao long nevr chat with her!!] who seemed to think that evan is 17 and angmoh!! i was like.. omg!! no!!! lolz. and erm.. what else? got pretty irritated wtith gloria today. 'cos there was this secrect that zoe told everyone. and i was asking her what it is. and last night i said issit this this? and she was like. nooooo!!! like zoe would ever do that. she would rather die etc... then today i asked her. and she said it was sooo long ago. [less than a week! please!] she forgot. then i said that someone told me she said this issit true and she said yes. please lor! sooo fake right. shes contridicting herself. and i got so pissed and she didn't evem realise it. and i kept telling her that she didn't make sense and she didn't get it. please lor! if you don't wanna tell me just say you don't. don't have to lie to me right. if you wanna lie to me you can make it more obvious right. *rolls eyes*

yep. what else? ..had steam boat for dinner. yay! :)