pre exam stress.

that 'thing' is coming back again. well... some of it. it makes me wonder, does the problem lie on me? ..or is it totally because... [edit]

sometimes i wish [edit]

oh well. its back again. the examinations. and you can be i'm i'm freaking out real bad. bahh. hist tomorrow. it under preparation and the unavalability of "hitting high levels" i just suck la. freaking out. and theres science! ahh.

i know i shoul be trusting God. faith Hes grace and might will pull me through this. and he knoes whats best for me, no matter what the result is. so... well. pray for me people.

africa.

SuMIn is currenly in africa riding an elephant and currently unable to blog at the moment. however, she saw that taiboon person in africa as well and had a great shock. this resulted her in saying his name repeatedly and seeming like a despofreak. bahh.

however, SuMin is enjoying her ride on elephants the scenary in africa. minus the taiboon part.

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make as many words as you can, starting with dic/dict:
Dicky.
dictate
dicky.
dictonary.
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky
dicky

the Dicky-nicholas tse incident is getting on my nerves. i mean.. like whats the guy's problem? he is really making a big deal outta nothing. i would really like to visit him in the hospital and give him good punch on his face and rub salt on his wounds. bahh. the worst thing is that itcomes out in Life! like nearly everyday? like.. uhh. ok. so wad? [edit] bahh.

so anw. i din get to study today. ended up sleeping on the floor _-_ because i din wanna sleep for too long. surprisingly it was pretty comfortable... as long as you have a nice soft pillow! aha (:

satt.

amazingly it sat again! like.. whoa. i wasn't really looking foward to it that much since it marks the offical nearing of my exams. bahh. ok. this tells me i should go back to studying. and i will: after i'm done with this.

ok. and this is the 6747357357th time i saying this, but i'm going to cambodia! its pretty much nearly fully official! whee~ excited. (: lala~

that botak forgot his lit notes again!! well. mine la. oh well.... shall pester him this week. ..then maybe he shan't forget. oh well.

i want my pe lesson back. ): bahh. oh well. at least lao shi let us out of higher chinese. (: i love lao shi! aha.

went to KAp to study. so exciting! met soo many people i know! aha. like.. yao ying, ruth, su hui, qi bin and rachel. but that qibin wasn't wearing his tie! so naughty. aha.

sigh. cramped the entire day today. from morning to like.. 4? -dying- lol. couldn't stand it in the end and went to buy coffee. then they all ate ice cream leh! bleah. unfair.

Did this for teachers day! aha.  

bahh.

i'm sich of of life. sick of everything. sick of exams. sick of competition. sick of how straight forward everything is in life. bahh.

oh well. so as you can see. studying, or rather, not-studying has gotten me into a bad mood. i just sit there with the book open before me and nothing gets inside. the worst thing is i don't evem bother to try! bahh. i just sit there and start day dreaming. bahh. how can i even get into single bio at this rate?

i need to study! i can't believe i'm even saying this but. yeah. what i did[or haven't been doing] ion the first 3\4 of the year is killing me. but yet.. i just can't sense that knife... that halter.. that evil poisen. bahh.

i need help

*prays*

and i wanna learn volley ball.

passed my science thank God. not exactly a good averaqge in total. but still above the b3/4 i expected. oh well. -always look on the bright side of life!-

other subjects were... bahh. oh well. shall have to mug.

i don't want to! bahh.

ran 2.4 today. another personal best! 14.50. dun you dare laugh.

death.

science + chinese spells disaster. which leads to mass failing of tests.

lets revise science.

GS+HCL -> failure.

no er.. valency and atoms needed. oh well.

this just isn't good when chinese isn't exactly yr best subject and you don't understand a word of science.
everyone pray for me.

car wash and mission trip.

i didn't study today! aha. wasted like 2 hours of my day watching.. guess wad? liu xing hua yuan? sheesh! i thought it was only one hour! but haha. relieving memories la. those in p6.. haha. (:

went to church. and the only time i'm there on time, i couldn't find anyone!! bahh. so ane. blar. and there was carwash! oh yay so fun. after we were done, you could look round the entire car park and everything was so shiny! like.. whoa. aha. so proud or our work. someone should have took pictures! haha. so.. yeah. we wahsed 60 cars in like... 1 1/2 hours? pro or wad?

oh and yay. i get to go to cambodia. but er.. whatsthatword-ly. 'cos the details are not confirmed yet. oh well. at least there a pretty large chance. just have to see if i manage to save enough money for the following months and what God does. God really answers prayer! i was praying to Him if i could go the other night, and i thought[still not able to get God's voice yet] He told me to start saving up. so.. well. to me that ment that He would see how sincere I am then work on my parents. but even though i haven't um... really started, so yep. he allowed me to go in the most unexpected way! apprantly my mum was talking to auntie woonyeow and happened to ask if i should go for the mission trip. and she was like.. yes! she should go! its VERY good for her! she will be blessed! so.. yay! haha.

and also. i miraculously have a placing in Debbie's cambodia group although being the last to tell her [i think] actually belle joy told her for me. last sun she was like.." i told debbie i'm going for cambodia ready." then.. "i din tell for you!" and i was like.. hey! so she told her today. how nice. haha./ so now apprantly debbie is going to kick out someone for me!

no such thing as miracles? bahh.

today.

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Mrs bowness is funny. she came in to class. "tell me! is this the teacher's table?" then she pushed everything off it [s stack of newspapers, a basket fill with stuff, and er.. sth else] and started saying how we should repect the teacher and bla. then after all that she started picking everything up. lol.

haha. thats about all for today. tingwei shall stop abusing me and i shall stop abusing tingwei. *uses the joey look on tingwei*

whatwasigoingtosay? err. wait. ..ya. can't remember. oh well. nvm. i need to study!! studystudystudy. bahh. when will i ever start?oh well.

yay.

health checkup. my eyesight is good. but my back is slightly crooked. nvm though.. its normal for tall people like me! believe it or not!?

went to Macs with su ying. rather freaky. aha. we made the counter auntie irritated. and su ying was like.. shes looks damn pissed! and i was like.. ya. dun care. then all of a sudden this woman behind started talking to us. ...like.. ya! shes looks pissed.. bla. she turns out to be the sth of the head office of Macs. yep. think we got that auntie into trouble :X. got free coffee though. :P

met jia jun there. su ying was "daring" me to say hi to him la. said i get to say she thinks shes cute and she'll play along. she didn't then anw. i was like.. willing him to go to the counter! "chilli suace! chilli sauce! you want chilli sauce!go get chilli suace! chilli sauce! chilli sauce..." and after like.. three mins of that. he got up and went to the counter! ..this happened twice. mind you.

recess was so like.. aha. one third of gy ended up in the book shop! and we started chatting with the bookshop auntie she has an eng name now! aha

had vollyball for pe! funfunfun. though i still can't serve. oh well.

childhood wisdom.

this song came to my head last night. ..or was it the night before.

oh well.. besdies bring back SPK memories..

"Don't say sth, that isn't nice!
better listen, to this advice!
when your mouth is making fun,
you can really hurt someone!
so keep yr lips together
and SHH!

when you can't say sth, thats good and true,
theres always sth you should do!!!
Shhhhh!!

strange thoughts.

-note- you might wanna skip the first para
nothing much in sch today. but i think i'm becoming just plain mean. to a certain person in my class. its just so wrong i don't know. it just comes naturally. and i feel bad after that. i have no idea whats making me do this. a short temper? or selfishnees? bitterness and unforgiveness? lack of compassion and love [duh] or issit just me being mean us usual. oh well. maybe I just gotta start trying/


graph and skittles dont go well together. its defying nature!

was reading this book which was talking bout death. it makes me wonder, do we take things for granted? such as... the existence of out own parents and loved ones? like if they go overseas for a short period of time, you don't missed thme that much, for though they are gone, you know so well they will come back. but yet... what if they don't? ..what if.. something happens and... well. what will happen to us then? not just like.. what will we live on and who will take care of us but. emotionally? who, or what will patch up that hole in out heart? ..how will we even overcome it? ..how badly will we miss them/ oh well. i guess thats where QT comes in. haha. i dunno la. i'm feeling weird. that book throws so many philosohpys at you.

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nothing much today. maths is boring. bahh.

had PE today. captains ball. (: i feel like i've improve. whee. i like improving. now all that has to happen is for my eng. chi.. science and hist to improve. then i'll be the happiest girl in the world. oh and math too. and geog and lit. yep .i don't ask for much. (:

thenthere was this 88.3 poeple. pretty much a waste of my time la. they said that they bring singers to other schs.. but wad bout ours? some schedule problems. like... whatever.. but like.. imagine if they brought Dicky? ..and there i would be sitting... watching him... listening to him sing.. like.. ohoh!! *melts*

a bad start.

a warning on the start of a new day on the start of the new week on the start of the new term. bahh.

oh well. nothing much to blog about. ..but the exam stress is coming onto my. radiating from the surroundings and pressing me down. oh well. i need stress

offically 18 more days to the exam. i need to start studying. but... how?

was reading evan's blog. and arggh. even he is beginning to mug. and really mug like mad. but yet I. oh well. self-discipline. bahh.

na jia yun. the colum is widened. its fat and weird. go tag.

1st anneversary.

Happy birthday! + one week!

ok. quite hard to believe that i actually managed to keep my blog for such a long time. ..unlike a limp attempts to start a diary, this blog has actually followed me for over a year! reading my own blog, its strange to see how much i have changed and... maybe even matured during this year.

this blog keeps memories that have came upon as i walked through the path of life. some, beautiful and some ugly. however, these are the things that keep me going in life.

i wanna thank all those people who have helped me keep this blog going.

my ardent readers [none]
the taggers
and most importently: ME *ego*

hee. anw. i love you my darling blog!

an unexpected visit.

certain thoughts come to you. when you least expect it. and... its something that you don't want to think about. although it might bring a smile to your face. but yet... i don't know. its weird. i'm weird today. oh well... ...

[my title has two meanings!]

had a little chat with gloria today! ...haven't had a proper talk with her in ages. and so much has changed since then.. ... oh well. anw. she got baptised! today! oh well. but this gloria ah... goes to church to look at boys... and expects me to do the same... :P

byebye holidays. hello sc. oh well. it can't be that depressing. after all. sc rocks... oh well. ...hello sc. its the last day of the hols! today was dedicated to slacking. aha. had a nice looong sleep in the afternoonm *smiles contentedly* then slacked somemore. oh well. (:

an unexpected visit to church yay. belle joy called me at 6.20 to go. ...it started at 6.30 but heck. ...oh. and i wasn't supposed to be there! bahh, oh well. so halfway through the thingy i got an sms. ..didn't read it until we were downstairs eating. turns out to be from jonlo. "yr head is blocking me" someone shorter than me ... shorter than me. *grins proudly*

sep. 11

oh yay. church was damn fun!! :D haha.

ok. there was this weird pastor person. er... still dunno who. so anyway. i wasn't really listening and decided i should 'cos it sounded good from half of my ear so.. yeah! then at the very end, there was this healing thingy. and omg! it was soo cool! like to watch to people get healed instantly? its like... how amazing God's power is? and like.. so... whoa. could feel the holy spirit's presence in the room. (:

went to have dinner with belle belle j. shared a $4 plate of hokkien mee with her and she ate like.. 2 mouths and gave me the rest? ..didn't finish it though.. we were late. ): aha. -gluttons- so.. yeah. turns out we were sitting with bele joy's mission trip group. oh yay. so cool. haha/ worship was cool. din really get to jump though. we were extra. *looks at belle belle j.*

yep. so it was cool. i wanna go to cambodia. bahh.

hee. belle belle j.

bahh. currently fuming with my internet connection. it has a problem la. first my msn.. which isn't even really msn, gets dc at least once everyday. and it took forever for me just to get to this page. bahh. call windows slow. anw. get over it. i'm happieeee

went to supper at.. somewhere. saw charmaine oh and nick oh. aha. queenstown char kuey tiao is always the bestest!

-convo in the toplet a few days ago-

me: whats treason?
sister: i dunno
me: oh. *turns to oldest sister* whats treason?
sister: three reasons?
older sister: WHAT!? who are you? CHANDLER?

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pancakes for breakfast. perfect fluffy airy ones, cooked for just the right amount of time, that melt in your mouth. (: aha. I like pancakes. (:

went out for dinner too! this seafood place in eastcoast... red sth. it was good mmmmmmh! i love it! aha.
chilli crab!!
fried mantou
scallop
fried toufu
mee goreng
baby sotong
fried you tiao
then ice cream for dessert. (: oh yay. happy and contented. the food was good. did i mention? oh yayee.

happiness is here to stay

today is a happie day!! lala~

went to little india with my family. went around looking at Ponjavis and other..well.. stuffs. i wants a sari. aha. yep. went to shing shong ..however you spell it.. and oh yay! happiness. lala. (:

bought lots and lots of stuff. (: that delicious cowhead cheese biscuit and wangwan, and..well. more buiscuits; the sugared one we all loved in kindergarden, chocolate chip cookie ones, wafer... ...
oh someone! tell me the meaning of happinesss!! (:

then i came home, and had sushi for dinner. (:

watched amazing race. aha. that cute guy... brandon? haha. oh. and the "pray out loud" part was so superr cool!

studying? bahh.

ex-pupils day

this day was nice the way it was. (:

was woken up early in the morning. ): was so super groggy and blur, "what day issit today? sunday? monday?"
ended up going to "ding tai feng" with my grandparents. tv and studying gone. bahh.

ended up being late in meeting my nanyang friends. got driven rightt to nanyang. i reached the place ealier than them. :P saw them walking in waving vigouressly at me. oh my darling friends. (: apprantly only yao ying went. wasted trip oh well. with the persuation of many, i went against my principles and "celebrated" ex-pupils' day. oh yay. and thank you yao ying for yr present. (:

din do much desides walk round the sch. in a certain point of time, me ended up in this room in the library watching under one roof. oh well.

walked home with yao ying and ying juang. was planning to come to my house to chat, but i deserted them when they went to look at the old primary sch. bahh. wanted to go. but well.. i wasn't supposed to be in nanyang at all. :X

memories... aha. peeping out of the class window into the "nice house" aha. remember the two little boys i used to look at. they were soo cutee!! used to sit at their table doing homework and.. well... get scolded by their father. aha. thats what yao ying says. hmm... wonder what has happened to the cute little boys...

-i miss pestering zhu chuan to draw Dicky for me, i miss sitting next to yao ying and copying ting xie from her. i miss sitting behind justin and having him talk all that crap. i miss sitting next to xin ying and day dreaming. i miss chasing shi min round the canteen for insulting dicky. i miss standing and eating for recess 'cos the tables were dirty. i miss fighting for the only clean table with the boys. i miss having the entire class look at me and kick me chair everytime he lao shi mentions liking a star. i miss rushing into the sch hall while the bell is rining and squishing into the row with all the other late comers. but yet... it will never feel that same again...

out.

oh yay. went out today. with jia yun and ting wei. jing xuan din wanna lug her tennis racket and water bottle along. she rather watch wan quan yu le at home. how mean (:

ended up not buying anything ): though i saw a pretty nice wallet at heeren... bahh. i need a wallet and a bag. ):
and clothes.
oh well....

sunday.

yay. today is a good day. (: leaves me with a sense of satisafaction and acheivement, and to a small extent... contented. aha (: oh how rarely i say this. ...it should happen more..

hmm... went to suntect with my family today. which isn't exactly the best thing when yr going to the exact place with your frens the exact following day. and then go you walk through the entire place with yr sister while yr parenst shop in carrefour. but oh well. had nice beef noodles. yayee!! then egg tart. nice too. i shall go eat an egg tart tomorrow. (:

ran 2.4 today. 15.10 oh yay. i was dying but its never as bad as when you run on a track. and least you don't stop to walk. ok hmm.... improved by 1 min 40secs. yay. my pathetic personal best. but you can't expect much when yr me and you have ran 2.4 3rice in y entire life. ok bahh. why am i explaining myself. this is my blog. mine. go ahead and laugh at me and get away from here. bahh.

thats all i think. and hmm... i don't like my face. bahh.

sat.

bahh. i need to study! badly.

oh well. took a cab to church. bahh. the sun was scorching on our beated backs, and we melted under the sweltering heat, resulting in beads, of what they call sweat, rolling down out foreheads, arms, and everypart of out body, collecting as a pool even as we walked towards our destination. ok fine. i can't write for nuts. ..and the cab came to my doorstep. but still! it was hot.

church... the songs were nice. (: happy. and the new sound system. nice too! it makes the music louder which makes me happy. aha.

just watched veggietales!! its soo cutee!! aha. more!1 more!!

(:

byebye sc hello holidays! well.. for now.

oh well. i think that describes my day. soon, i'll be in my sister's room watching spiderman2. a little late but... oh well. you know what spiderman always makes me think of? ...aha. ;)

[edit]

goal for the month: study and be nice to jing xuan.

oh yes. maths test. it was pretty much fine la... although i might have gotten the entire first page wrong but... arggh. oh well. can't help that.

do you know the muffin man?

2nd sep

returning to sch. arggh. unwilling oh well. at least there are elements to look forward to in sch. (:

had sewing today. i very proudly announce that i have complete my handfone/wallet pouch. oh yesyesyes!! so happy! and its...well. presentable. oh well. hope my new wallet can fit in. ...i'm not sure... dun know how it looks like yet. haven't bothered to choose. aha. :P yep. tingwei so nice. lol. and that dong bahh. shan't talk about her here.

returned of mice and men. arggh. my $15.59!!! *ouch* i was like.. showing miss goh and complaining to her.. and she was like.. lol. count how much each page cost. expensive k!! oh well. had the book test and i passed. eight hah! not bad... its my highest ever. but oh well... $15.59. bahh.

thats about all i think. oh yes. i'm a glutton spent like... five bucks on food today?

• $2.80 on the meal
• $1 on the drink
• $0.80 on chips
• *0.70 on peel fresh
• 1.20 on the flower

so yeah.. tt adds up to er.. $6.50 which means i'm broke. bahh.

sc.

I love Sc!!!!

-just a random thought (:

happi teachers day!

happy teachers' day!!

haha. that was for my mum and sis. darlings (:

ok. thank you tingwei and jia yun and daddie! make me feel so loved.. aww... haha.

watched frens till two+ last night. contented. then i woke up at... one+ so.. yeah. nearly 12 hours of sleep. woot! :D

finished mice and men and the.. moving castle. mice and men was...i dunno... weird. it was pretty sad la. but.. well. was expecting more. the moving castle was so.. abrupt! the book was so thick and i wanted a much much better ending. oh well... i'll just stick to the book and leave the rest to my own imagination. which, as i say, will make me feel much better. bahh. diana wynne jones hardly has good endings. ):

ok whoa. i'm talking about books! so while we're at it. i wanna write a story. aha. about tine travelling. oh well. maybe after i set up all the rules and facts, complete my plot, and manage to get myself to study. bahh. i need to start.