today was great ! haha save the chinese paper but that was not bad too. God's grace pulled me through ! (: so wait for me. im gonna announce my a1 next year ! (: [yes i say this by faith and not by sight]


ok after the exams was great ! [oh fine. i said that already] haha i went to have lunch and walk around [ahem not shop] orchard. then we left around 3plus and i went to 6 ave to meet my sister. haha we cabbed to holland v. and walked around for a while. then we passed this tenny nail palour thing[whatever you call it] and my sister decided she wanted to have a little look inside ! haha. in the end she decided to have a pedicure and i had a menicure. (:


it was reallyreally lovely. haha i falt like a freaking taitai. first you soak yr hand in this thing. which was pretty hot at first but it cooled down after a while. haha. then she started putting stuff on it and shaping it. skipskip. haha. then she did a nail spa ! or hand spa. whatever spa they called it. so put some scrub all the way down to my elbow and started massaging my hand. haha it felt really good. then later she did a mask and left me to decide on my nail colour -which i couldnt. and she helped me ! in the end i chose this smoky shade of pink. which looked reallyreally nice on her nail. but then the girl did a double coat and it turned out all pearly and barbie-ish [hence my nick] haha ohwells. i feel kinda cheated. maybe i should have chosen hawt pink. [i nearly did. until she took out the last colour] . haha basically the whole exprience rocked. im felt like a freaking taitai with one person doing each hand simultaneously. haha. oh man.


yes the whole thing cost a whole lot. paid, lovingly by my darling sister. <3>

then my jiejie brought me to have talltall panackes. with banansas. and they were rad.

strange thoughts are going through my head. im confused. and i dont know what to do. i wish it just wouldnt happen again and again. and dont want to go back to my old self the moment saturday is gone, or when service is over. man this sucks. i hate being me.


worship today was really good. it was one of the rare times i managed to put everything aside and worship God for nearly the whole time. especially since i ahem got what i want. haha seriously. it was a surprise when i walked in. i went ooh ! hahaha. but i was with adeline so i couldnt do anything.


went up for prayer again. to dedicate my singlehood to God ! haha. it was about promising God to not get a boyfriend until the age of whatever, and dedicate the time to him. personally i dont find the keeping single part a proble. but i reallyreally wanted to use this time to get closer to him. oh wells. the korean person prayed for me and she didnt touch on it at all. she said i had a longing deep down in my heart and prayed about it. then she told me God loves me and accepts me no matter what i am like. and she prayed stuff i couldnt really hear. but it was reallyreally sweet. haha. i was pretty touched. i mean you probablly dont know why but it has nothing to do with you so, heck.


today adeline told me she has never seen me sad/angry/annoyed and it seems like im always happy. she said i never show my innermost feelings. haha. that seemed realy weird. its like. how dicky is always potratyed in shows. and how ive always wanted to be like. whee.

this is getting freakily freaky. i think theres something going on that i dont dare imagine. i just hope its all not true.
but yet. it seems to be staring at me in the face.

went to shatec. haha man ! it was so funny ! ok first we started learning social graces. well the guy was pretty funny but basically there was nothing much to learn. and he talked alot and alot. and i got bored. more of bored of sitting there for so long, rather than listening to him. haha.the chair wernt exactly comfortable.


so then we finally went down to have our five course meal ! i later found out [to my dissapointment] that it was actually a four course meal only. some strange people counted either the tea/coffee or bread as one meal. who would do that ?


jing xuan kaeting tingwei and me sat together. haha. during the meal we were trying out bestest to eat the right way ! hahaha. it was funny becuase he didnt really go through. so all of us were discussing how to do it amd deciding on the best way. haha. and jingxuan cant drink soup without slurping ! so then we had the maincourse and dessert [strawberry sth] and tea/coffee ! hahaha. kae ting jing xuan and I put so much sugar and milk into our tea and coffee ! haha. we took the milk from the other tables. then when the waitress came to collect it she was giving us strange looks. and kaeting went "jing xuan ah ! next time dont drink so much milk !" hahaha.


so as you can see all of us got real high due to the caffine and sugar ! haha . it was soo funny. on the bus trip back we rolled up are notes are started fighting. haha. the aim was to hit each other on the head. and kae ting and jingxuan formed and alli ! man ! talk about unfair. they would fightfight untill they lose [heehee] and then switch places. then later they combined their paper to make a super hard roll ! man it totally crushed mine la. and zoe was the repair station because she could roll the papers nice and hard ! so later we started doing all the slow motion crap. starwars style.


me: lishan, did you see my wallet ?
lishan :yes. ive seen yr wallet.
me : [huh] -pauses- ohh. she took it. *turns around*

hahaha. i rawk.


then we went to kap and i was still hgh and didnt feel like studying ! hahaha. basically i was annoying ting wei ! (:

today i was so damn sleepy. hahaha. i slept in the afternoon planning to get up at 6 to study. but then when the alarm rang i was too sleepy to do anything. I was thinking "so noisy" and i got up and turned the alarm of and went back to sleep without knowing what was going on ! it was only after i woke up at 7plus when i realised i slept for so damn long. the worst thing is that i havent studied and i dont intend to. arggh ! chinese ? howhow?


visit to the parliment house today. i nearly feel asleep. hurhur.

sheet. i wish the chinese Os would just never come. i really feel like skipping the whole paper and retaking it next year. i know i will do a whole load better and i wont need to study anyway. why must i be stuck in this ? gr.


today was really a non study day. i barely did anything [despite staying at home] and basically made multiple trips to the kitchen. being a sunday, theres loads og food and i ate alot and alot. sigh. why must i be forced to freaking learn chinese ? its basically a really nice language and everything, dont misunderstand, but when it comes to learning the words i just wish i never lived in Singapore. bahh.


oh a happier note, i have found another song i like alot. actually there are quite a few. but the bestest of the lot, which i have actually been liking for some time already, would be the song that i sing. yes ive been trying to find out who sang that song for quite some time. till i finally resorted to going back to the coos site. [its really useful !] and surprise surprise ! its by sonic edge ! hahaha. im soo getting the new album when its out ! provided the songs in it, and im feeling rich (:

yay i went to church today. during cell charisia was eating and eating non stop ! haha. i was trying not to stare at her but everytime i looked she was either eating or taking a pig from the packet. hahaha. it was only after she finished eating when you checked the packet. it was about 25calories per pig and she was. unhappy. hahahaha.


pastor glenn preached today. haha. hes actions were so funny ! belle joy and i were laughing. hahaha.


hm worship today was good. especially the lastlast part. after joshua started talking about being empty i feel so.. well. empty. duh. i realised i sort of got used to it like he said. i felt like everything inside of me had wasted away into a hollow, but yet ive never realised. when we started singing the song i felt so.. weird ! i cant describe it. but anyway. i hope that church will stop being a sat. affair. i hate feeling so sinful or whatever and promising to change and feeling God near me. and forrgetting it all the moment i get up the next day. or worse, once i get home. oh sigh.


my dads being suprisingly agreeable to everything. which even incules staying over at the chalet ! never in my life has he agreed to anything of that sort. i was kinda testing my luck when i asked. man he agreed ! im so freaking happy. praise the Lord ! (:


i saw you today. i never ever realised i even knew how you look like. but. oh well.

hm we had the personal grooming yest. haha. it wa so much less interesting than i expected ! haha the woman was soo naggy. and she wasnt even howeveryouspellit ong. haha i walked in expecting her la. then i was wondering how come she looked so young. wah ! still thought she managed to maintain herself so well !


so anyway. she was naggy and i was bored. however, if you manage to keeo awake, and sift through all the repititions and weird stuff. she can actually say some proper stuff. ok so maybe my time wasnt wasted. hee. you know she actually speaks really weirdly ? i got a shock during the break. hahaha.

had the career quest workshop today. yes i knew it was gonna be fun ! yes the guy was quite funny. told us some freaking lame joke about the three ants -part two ! haha. it isnt all that funny but i found it pretty hilarious and laughed like crazy. hee.


hm im missing Dicky now. it sucks that all of my friends with scv dont own a vcr. either that or they dont have channel 61. bahhh. pissed !


so anyway. yes the thing was fun. Im and "i" we're all "i"s except for ting wei. who is a "c" haha. it was prety amusing when he told us "i"s like to sit together. and they go yakyakyak during lessons. [ie. me, zoe, kae ting jing xuan] and when he gave us a break we all went to a corner to talk and we realised the entire group was "i"s ! all but ting wei but it makes sense cos shes a "c". haha. im pretty obsessed with the whole "disc" business now so i'll probably be pretty weird for the next few days. hahaha.


my "d" is -10. ting wei's is -11 jia yun is -13. haha. it was soo funny. she was trying to act domineering the whole day it was sooo funny cos she simply sucked at it ! (:


tomorrows the personal grooming thing. man ! im so excited ! it sounds so damn fun. only of course my heels just died which leaves me with the difficult to walk in one and everyones just gonna burst out laughing when i fall and die. bahh.

You Are . thats my favourite song ! i love it alot. alotalotalot. haha. i think its top on my list now. from the intro rightt to the blank part at the back ! (: man i love it !
hahaha. belle joy YOU RAWK ! thanks so much for lending me the cd !


today we had three lecture running./ [you know i think i kinda like the ./ look. heh.] ok fine. we had thing teeny break for recess and we finished watching twister. but still.

happy birthday !

heehee. you know who you are. hm. i think that guiter looks kinda interesting. of course nothings gonna beat a red guiter ! or red shoes, or red pants or red anything ! (: yea baby' red rocks ! [whoa. aliteration !]

hm. that kinda made me think of getting back my lit paper. when miss soh and miss neo whatever her name is made us go through the poem. man ! i didnt understand a single word ! haha fine i did. but i didnt freaking get what the poem was all about. when they said white soft grss i thought it was becuase of pollution or something. so the grass lost its colour and was dying. but then i knew that peppermint wind meant something good. cos i imagined myself opening my mouth whenever i felt a breeze and tasting peppermint. heehee. bah i feel so stupid. :/

ok yes i was digressing. today im in an extremly good mood. because aside from it being an extremely good good day right from the start, belle joy lent me her sonic edge cd: grateful !! wowee. let me tell you who are involved in making the cd. jon chan, david, glenn, jon hems, milton, johnC, john H and jennifer heng. yes. thats a fullstop. thats all ! oh sheesh ! i was trying to think of various reasons why so little people were involved. but oh wells. i guess there should be more poeple in the new album. which is coming out this december ! [according to pastor glenn]

went to st james again. haha i feel so stupid everytime i so back the introduce us me again. haha. only this time belle joy got introduced too ! hahaha. sheesh ! erm yes. worship was so funny ! ivan led. hm. we started singing better than life. and he sang it really weirdly ! the front part was like sososo fast. i could barely keep up ! [he later called it a rap] then when it got to the middle everyone started jumping. ivan too ! then he got all breathless and couldnt sing properly ! hahaha ! i was trying so hard not to laugh ! basically it was weird. i seemed to be getting weird glances from. familar-looking people. but maybe that was just me. :/

went shopping with belle joy today. haha it was so funny ! she got stuck in the mrt station !! then she kept tapping her card and couldnt get out. and it was like. this little confined space. haha so she up up and down and up and down and she was still stuck ! so anyway. in the end i told her to go look for the person and she got out ! hahaha. i was trying so hard not to laugh !


so then we shopped and walked around for eons. haha. bought earrings. yes. and jing xuan's birthday present ! man ! im so efficient! haha. we have matching earrings ! only the whole plan to go round showing it off was ruined. nevermind ! we'll wear matching earrings next week ! haha.


so we went to church and i was craving banana balls like crazy. but when i went to the hawker center [about half an hour after reaching church], i found that the you tiao stall was closed ! sheesh ! this is the first time, in all my 5 years of being in coos, i see the you tiao stall closed ! and it just has to be when im craving banana balls !


ok later we met for cell and had service and i went home and had some delicious chicken rice !
yes im just not in the mood to blog.


me: i think *** likes ***
belle joy: oh man ! you have a rival !
me: er..
belle joy: dont worry SuMIn ! i'll support you !!!!!
charisia: whatthehell. [or sth to that effect. i cant remember]
belle joy: what ! i support SuMIn ! dont you support her !?

:/

man i need new shoes !

yest while i was blogging halfway the connection dissapeared. actually i finished blogging already. waste my efforts


heres something wonderful you might wanna know: im not getting retained ! yes its confirmed. i passed english, chinese, emaths, amaths, physics and chem ! heard that ! can you see the miracle ? I am soo amazed by God's grace ! It actually managed to pull me through. -those i thought i would fail, i passed, those i thought i can pass just barely, i got a 60-70. those i thought i would get above 70.. well. actually there wasnt any.


all glory to God. as long as you ask him and believe ! yr little mustard seed-like faith can move mountains !
to think about it. that was both in my quiet time and taught in church on sat ! looks like i didnt see God's message when it came. :/


i got in i got in ! oh yes. i thought it was a bad thing when i found out. but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise ! hahaha. happy. (:

i went swimming today ! hahaha wow. after eons. i think the last time I went was. hm.. sec one ? finally learnt perfected my breaststroke !! hahaha. so happy ! (: it was so tiring at first. by the end of it i was pretty happy ! (:


me: just now while i was swimming i felt like a squid.
sister: HAHAHA. -long pause-


you mean you felt like you would taste really nice with sambal?

im a genius ! yesyes im so proud of myself ! i finally found out thats the difference between a bass guiter and a erm. normal guiter. haha i feel so freaking clever. zoe still say she wanna find out for me after soo many weeks she still doesnt know. actually its more like months. hahaha. so anyway. yes i rock. you'll never guess how i found out !


today i watched Dicky ! (: yay im so happy. he still rocks. haha. (:


i really dont wanna get my results back. gr.

I finally went shopping today ! after like a gazillion weeks. oh im so happy. haha. (: i miss going to carrefour on sundays with my parents and sister. althouth i hate it like crazy [its so freaking crowded and everyone pushes their trollys into you. and sometimes i have to push the trolly its is so hard cos its so crowded and then i push it into people. gr.] but it really sucks staying at home to study. hahaha.


today zoe called me and told me something exciting. actually messaged me and tol me to call her becuase she had something to tell me. I SWEAR. i guessed exactly what she was going to say. seriously. i was like. i bet shes gonna tell me blablablabla. and then i thought to myself, how can it be?thats impossible. but the i kept thinking it and i called her and it was true ! doesnt this sound exactly like yesterday ? its getting freaky i tell you. :/

I LOVE YOU TOO RUTH ! haha. and ting wei and jia yun too. cos they were so nice. [they tagged]haha. i promised belle joy i'll blog about her. so. belle joy ! you suck ! you suck so much you make a whirlpool ! kidding i dont make crude remarks like that. cos im the model student !


yesyes. belle joys really weird. i have to be weird like her or i'll feel weird. hahaha. i was really retarded today. i think the phrase me dad said most to me was "whats wrong with you today ?" haha. i felt so freaking stupid. its the exams I tell you. post exams stress. hurhur.


went to church today. sonic edge led worship ! now thats really weird becuase yest [or was it the day before] i was thinking to myself: i think sonic edges gonna lead worship tomorrow. and i just kept having that thought although the chances were so slim and i just didnt understand why. so today i walked into church and saw this black mess on the stage. and i was right ! sonic edge was leading ! haha. they didnt sing the nice song today. ): i and think its ending soon. im picking a nice date for it. [next sun] dont you think i just choose to do mean things like that. first my blog now this.


yr solo today was weird. but i kinda made me happy . (:

distractions gr. i think its me whose distracting myself.

hello. ive been on a mini haitus. thats putting it nicely - my blog has been dead for about two weeks. yes. thats so amazing. its actually becuase i forgot to use the computer ! thats just so unbelievable. but its true ! well. not entirely since i did come online a couple of times. only i didnt blog. so it would seem i didnt. (:


so anyway. my exams ended today ! haha yes im so freaking happy. it took prety long for it to actually sink in. i dont really wanna talk about it since it sucked. like. the day before my amaths paper [more like night actually] i started freaking out ! ohmygoodness it was hell i tell you. i was doing my tys but it seemed more like it was skipping every question cos i didnt know how to do it. then five minutes before i went to sleep i realised i didnt know how to do straight line graphs [although it was stupid. cos that was easy] . basically it sucked like crazy. i thought i was gonna get 20/100 or something. so i started praying like mad. and trying my bestest to trust God. ohmygoodness i tell you. after i handed in my paper i was so thankful and so relieved i wanted to cry. oh wells. (: this is just an encouragement to all those still having yr exams out there. it might seem like hell. but once you pray and leave everything in God's hands, everything will turn out fine ! faith is not about what you can see, but knowing what God can do ! (:


went out with ting wei and jia yun today. we wached a movie ate nice food and shopped ! yes the movie was weird. erm. everlasting regret. honestly i had no idea what was going on. im mean i knew what was happening, but i just coudnt see the point ! i mean theres got to be something behind just that life story.


so heres the highligh of my day :fried mars bars. oh goodness it tastes so good. i just cant describe it. but seriously. ahhhh !!!