todays saturday again. (: I like saturdays! it just seems to be what i look forward to every week. that, and friday, and sunday. or sometimes thursdays. haha. tuesdays are fine i suppose. if theres no test on that day/the day after. especially the day after! haha. so basically i dont like mondays. haha. it just makes sat seem so far away!


hm. tamago and i were being like so anti social today! we sort of hid in a corner and gossiped. haha. then halfway belle joy came running to us. apprantly arie stepped on a kitten! haha we all ran to look. eh the kitten was sooo cute! but it was in pain. and its nose was bleeding. some person brought it to the vet. it hope it turns out fine! its just too cute to die like that.


worship today was good! haha. he played the guiter. and I stood right in front of him. hahaha. he just looks so cool! so when worship started i was staring at the screen, like its some picture of my tommy and i'll never get to see it again or sth, so that i could focus! haha. i mean who starts at the screen the whole time. i usually look down, or straight, or up. haha. but then i just couldnt let myself look right. and it worked! with just a few minor distractions, i managed to worship God. i hope he enjoyed it. i wasnt good, but i shall continue trying! (:


haha. today at the toilet ruth made me excited. it lasted for two seconds. then i realised she was bluffing. :/ ruth made me cookies! haha. i havent eaten it but im sure its deeeelicious! haha. i love ruth's cookies! [but i love ruth more. hahaha. <3]>

the sermon was really good. what jennifer preached applied to me directly. especially since i prayed about worship. for Him tot each me how to really worship. and not just stand there and sing. i think i learnt quite alot. haha. youth services becoming better and better. in terms of what i learn. haha. for some reason i seemed to feel God prescence.just there, all over. (:
haha jeffiners not bad! i mean as a preacher. apprantly its her first time, but shes quite funny. and somehow, just manages to make me listen. haha. teachers should learn from her. (:

today is was a veryvery bad day. well it totally sucked. then i decided to look at it from a different perspective, and it wasnt so bad after all! thats right! i stopped looking at the hole and saw the yummilicious, chocolate-coated doughnut! (:


thats about all that happened today. i wanted to say im getting soo sick of pickle ball. then i realised we're not playing it again! and the best thing is we're going to the weights room! the nice new shiny big weights room! hahaha. (:
actually i havent seen the new wights room yet. and i doubt its gonna be nice, new or shiny. but still, its gonna be fun fighting for a machine. haha. and we get to wear pe everyday of next week! so as much as i hate the uniform, it means i get to run everyday! or actually, choose the days i wanna run! (:


i think im never gonna make it in drama. [not that i want to.] i not only cant act, im unable to even display my own feelings to others! gr.

my quiet time thing today said that i should never ever "give in to consequences". that includes me accepting all my bad results! i relised thats probably why i havent been doing well all my life. its just that i suck and wont do well so theres no point studying attitude. either that or it will be i'll study and do my best but i know im not gonna do well. and thats bad! i have been accepting all my bad results and said its really good for what i am now. but it isnt! becuase when jesus died and rose again, he overcame death, and satan. and that inculdes failure. which brings me back to the verse everyones so familar with.

i can do all things through christ who gives me strength.

i mean. ive been knowing it forever, but it never occured to me to think of it this way. so now i believe in God. that He can do all things for me. and im gonna go and study physics [although i havent really started. and dont understand. hurhurhur] i know im gonna do well. simply becuase. (: Praise Him! (:

i think im beginning to get stressed up. all the work piling and the lack of time. then theres the end of years next month when i never understood my work. gr. i need proper planning. of time i mean. and i should be studying for ss. not wasting my comp in front of the comp writing a blog no one reads. oh wells.


went for BSF today. erm yay! hahaha. its the firstfirst time i did my work properly [ie. focus.], prayed, and did it in parts! hahaha. so as you can see my answers were not bad, since i prayed for wirsdom and to be taught. well they wernt good, but they were correct! it felt so nice to be called so many times and have all the answers and see that mrs tan person nodding her head. hahaha. i think i suck.


ohoh. and God answers prayers. (:


hm. i swear j*** hates me. haha. theres no way you can google that. and i think squash is getting funner. played doubles with vanassa and min kiong [and natalie] today. and we won we won! 2/3! hahaha. the last part just sucked. we had like. 5 points. :/


i had a boootiful dream last night. i dreamt of you. i was so happy but it made me all sad becuase i knew that it would never be true, and that i would wake up and find everything all gone. and i did. oh well. at least i was distracted by some other weird dream. it was like. my dad opened up me knee. and i could see the inside. and it was like. muscle. fat. bone. you could see how much of it was there. and it was scary cos someone wanted to cut it off or sth. hahaha. it was weird opening it. like my knee was some kinda ziploc bag. and it didnt hurt. (:

random.

well. you probably dont know this. but my titles random. so this post is only here becuase im rotting away becuase i cant do my maths. so. hm.















thats right! drool! it looks so gorgeous doesnt it! all the cheese, and the lovely tomato sauce!?
















haha. tough.






it was really good though. okok. enough of food. it'll prabably make you hungru and have supper and make you fat. :/







oh but this is for charissa. (:


















hahaha. (: okok fine. but dont you think im a better photographer? (: kidding.
oh i have to show you my boootiful bag. i mean. its obviously nicer than belle joy's. (:

so nice right!? (:

oh i wanted to post pictures of my new doderant. but its not appearing. well i sound sick. but its really pretty! and it smells good too! hahaha. (:

intented to spend the entire afternoon today mugging up ss. but i just wasnt in the right mood. gr. ended up slacking around and just reading through. hope i'll remember something. oh. but then hope is a faithy word. so since i hope theres hope? hahaha. am i even making sense? well. i kinda am. to myself. (: trusting the Lord right? after all i prayed. and i tried.


played badminton with my sister. i trashed her i sucked! so now i can played neither squash, badminton, or tennis [i never could] .hahaha. heck. or pickle ball! what a loser. (:


i dont dare to weight myself anymore! im afriad the weighing scales will just explode. and the triple chocolate muffins are sooooooooo nice! hahahaha. random. (:

today was rather exciting. not excitingexciting, but exciting, i wasnt at home exciting. hahaha. thats how sad my life is.


went to help out in open house. it was boring la. and freaking hot. cos they turned of all the fans. and it made me all sweaty and stinkeyy. gross. oh but i did get to try playing handbells. hahaha. its weird. :/


then i went home and slept and went to orchard to meet my cell! (: i cant believe belle joy invited evan and evans friends to a movie and didnt invite me! belle joy im freaking hurt k!i might as well go waste away in the toilet bowl.

so anyway. we met a charles and keith. where i bought my new bag! haha. its super super nice!! and i love it! its so much nicer than belle joy's if you ask me. hahaha. and unlike what people have been saying about singaporean girls nowadays, this bag is neither mini, bimbotic, or fake von dutch/roxy/whatever brands the whole worlds using. and it is freaking nice!! hahaha. i love it. its so pretty and reminds me of my skirt to a tiny extent. haha. (: after eons of searching i finally got myself a bag. (: erm. c) [oh thats a nose].


im naggy. hm. then we went for lunch at the pasta resturant. or whatever its called. i had a chicken lagsana and is was goooood.


went for service and i was trying so hard to focus during worship! i mean i realised ive been practically wasting my entire life away thinking im alright when actually i suck. gr. at least it was a little better today! yep. went up for prayer and i believe God's gonna change me! no more irreverance. i might just kill myself even if God doesnt kill me. hahaha.


i meter! (:

you know, i think i'll never get used to tuition no matter how many times i go. every friday im like. oh yea. theres tuition today! damn. then i'll have to rush home and do my homework [usually incomplete] and kill all the other plans i have and rush for tuition! then during tuition i'll be really bored and sleepy and stone at the teacher and probably piss her off. hee. maybe she'll just think im quiet and shy. hahahaha.


i cant believe you just budged into my life and ruined everything for me. im counting down to when you dissapear, and i hope its gonna be soon! you annoy me. and you suck. and i suck for being a bitch. gr.

oh its the third post! (:

you know, after making my own blogskins [even though i cheat], I feel as if im never able to use a downloaded one again. it just feels too.. commen and, cheaterish. (:

i think it sucks that i look terrible in practically every single class photo! i mean thats the only thing people have to remember me by! [unless we keep in contact. but.] am i just unlucky or what? [i pick what] gr.


oh yes. i got back my emaths test today. the one i didnt study for. amazingly, i passed! (: (:. yea baby'. i shall continue praying and study harder. haha. only theres no harder cos there wasnt anything to begin with. (:


hm. today squash sucked. or rather. i sucked. hahaha. i missed everything and couldnt hit properly and was uttering some nonsense shit and singing the only two words i knew of the willy wonka song. [willy wonka, willy wonka] then we wasted like. ten minutes sitting on the floor cos we both refused to pick the ball. until pei wen like. came in. hahaha. natalie owes me chocolate. i dont care. :/

it has been a wonderful long weekend!

save the horrible drilling that just threatens to kill.

Disorder Rating

Paranoid: Moderate

Schizoid: Low

Schizotypal: Moderate

Antisocial: Low

Borderline: Low

Histrionic: High

Narcissistic: Moderate

Avoidant: Low

Dependent: Low

Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mvURL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

today is a bad day. its a freaking bad day. unless of course you look at it on the bright side, and then maybe it cant be that bad becuase after all school was fine and i caught charlie and the chocolate factory which was pretty good! oh wells. i think i have to go shopping in the near future. at least to get that green shirt.


i feel in love with this skirt at forever 21 today. it was so nice! and it wasnt even short! hm. it was knee length [though of course in my case it was slightly below the knee]. and it was white and a-line. [and i keep typing alone, so i bet its owner sucks] it was so pretty! there were like multi coloured stiches. like. one lie of red, then yellow, then blue, then green. then a space, and repeat. butit cost a freaking 50bucks! so obviously i didnt buy it. so then i walked around for a while and realised i loved it soso much, i just had to go back! so barely 10mins later i went back, determined to empty my bank account for that skirt. but then, then! it was already gone! i cant believe this! it sucks.

hm. school was fine. waited forever for the concert to start. haha. it turned out pretty short! (: haha the dance and choir were good. shant say more. went shopping with zoe after that. [which sucked] lol. it made me feel as though i was the only one shopping! gr. i felt so bad. but oh wells. when im shopping and i feel bad, nth much comes out of it.


so then it was the movie. haha it was goood! jonny depp was so wonderful/ and willy wonka was so funny! haha. and childish. and the ompa loompa's dances were.. funny too! haha. basically the movie was super funny! haha. especially when charlie got the golden ticket. haha. someone in the cinema screamed. then we all cheered. lol. so lame there. but there was this group of freaking annoying boys who came in half way. probably without tickets and they stood right in the middle and blocked everyone. gr. haha. i feel like watching the movie again. even though it wasnt oh-so-wonderful. it was so funny! (:


then we went to toast and had a muffin and some chocolate tart. so i cut a peice of the chocolate tart of, only to find a strand of hair embeded in the chocolate. pretty commen for me. but its gross! so we had it changed and everyone got a bite out of it except me! so right after it was changed, we found a strand of hair on the muffin. gr. it was so stupid! so then i had a peice of the muffin, and bit of the tart, and just had another bite of muffin, when i freaking bit my tongue! ew there was so much blood i thought i was gonna die. talk about a bad day. [of course theres more but im not gonna bore you with my erm. crapshit.]


hm. i cAnt remember. so.. the end. (:

ok. im gonna try do a photoblog. dont blame me if the pictures dont turn out!


hm. went to sell flags again. gr. this time i went with ting wei and didnt let that stupid tamago and jasmin seperate us. so first we went to bishan. that placed sucked. it was super ulu and the poeple there were dao and blacked face and refused to donate to us. totally ignored us. except for three kind boys who donated. get that. only three. and it was the girl we approached. only she didnt wanna donate and the guys pitied us or something. so we went to ang mo kio, realising it is the best and friendliest place! haha. funny thing was that tamago, jasmin and lois didnt the exact same thing! haha. so we stood at the same bus stop and this time, i didnt have to run after people begging for donations. i just stodd there and asked occasionally and people come donate to me! ting wei.

we even left our marks! (:

so then we went to KFC [yes. even though i promised to boycott it i gave in. i never really liked chickens anyway] i think i wasted my money la. i ate the variety value meal or whatever its called. so they gave me a shooms burger, i peice chicken, drink, the cos-law[however you spell it] and mash potato. so i ate the burger, and drank the drink. then i had like half of the chicken and i was just too full to continue . so i left my chicken there [tamago and jasmin later came and finished it] and kept my cos-law and mash potato for later!

so i left it in my bag. and half an hour later i started smelling this smelly smell. i thought it was just me or something. and left it alone. but it was only when i went to the toilet, i realised the freaking cos-law broke and ozzed all over my bag. [no picture. i was too traumatised]. so i threw everything away. into the rubbishbin! grr.


so finally to the highlight of my day! yes! i went to shape my eyebrows! haha. went to zoe at the weird smelling place. [the room was quite nice la. minty. but not the outside.] so i was clever enough to make zoe go first. and meanwhile, i slacked!

before and after shots.

me

zoe.

wah. it was freaking pain la. then the woman was like. pay money come here and suffer ah. hahhahaha. but no pain, no gain la! whatever man..


ok. now for after!

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me

zoe


wah lao. look la. my eyebrows came with a price.

-this tissue contains my tears.
and now im damn depressed cos everyone says it sucks and looks cheapskate. i might as well go and die. i feel so freaking cheated.


yea the pictures suck. who can help me resize it?

now lets all pretend im anorexic, and my day ends at 2pm. [ie. a typical day is only 14 hours long]

calorie intake: 200 [?]
weight: shut up la!


this morning i rewarded myself for being able to get out of bed. i drank some birds nest. yes, its probably good for me, but with each mouthful i couldnt help but think of all its hidden calories, the rock suger that they cunningly mixed into in. i went to school and ran. ten rounds. it made me feel really lousy. theres no way ten rounds is going to help me lose any weight. i've gotta run more, work harder, to be perfect.
i didnt eat during break again. distracted myself by doing maths questions. then it was pe. i ran around as much as i could, hitting all the balls. losing calories. recess was a torture, sitting at the same table as my friends, who were enjoying steaming bowls of meepok. just looking at it brought tears into my eyes. those were the days. but still, i managed to pull through. and i knew, the sacrifice is worth it.
2pm. i waited eons for miss sie to turn up. and she finally did. i made another day without eating. save the birds nest, that hm i cant think of a word birds nest.


hahaha. oh yeaa right. then it goes on to afternoon. where i stuff myself1 haha. if only days really end at 2pm. haha. of course im not anorexic! evyerything is purely fictional. well, nearly!

yesterday i realised to my utmost horror, that while the december holidays are gradually nearing [91 days], the end of years are next month! thats 6 more weeks! i cant believe time has just flew by like that. i mean ive barely even recovered from my december hols, needless to say, the junes ones. and then wham! the exams just come smack you on the face. gr. i need to start studying. i need to.


went for physics remedial today. haha. it was good! i now have a whole new insight to physics! yes! i believe this is going to do me good! and sacrificing squash once a week is certainly worth it! (: hahaha. I learnt and refreshed so many things, such as jia yun's apple theory! (: hahaha. i dont wanna go when mr tang teaches.


.

i get constipated after 11 every night. :/


lalala. im emtpy. today is fat day. and im freaking proud of my SS marks. higest ive ever gotten in my entire life! inclusive or history. [but not lit] hahaha. before i got it back i was freaking out. i expected 15 or something. but i was like. nononono. im not scared. i did super well. i have faith in God. and i did! haha. God never fails you when you believe in him. (: i mean. fine it wasnt superbly well. but its was not bad! 20/25. hahahaha. (: <>

i think im getting sick of the school comp. theres nearly nothing to do there. :/

yes its good news! hahaha. oh goodness i just killed yinli. :/ and the sectwos shall be eternally stuck in level4! (:


haha. went for BSF today [bee.ass.eff.] without my sister. yea. she left me like all alone with no friends. and half the class evaporated. now its only me, kinberly and yihui left. and the guys. like only three guys too. haha. hope mpre turn up next week. haha. especially cheryl.
hm. but one thing wonderful about bsg is that theres no homoletics! well. for the time being. hahaha. today we had some quiz thing and my group had one freaking point! hahaha. as compared to twenty eight which ike's group had. haha. it was unfair cos we had the old testement and both samuel and I didnt know a thing. in the end i gave up and sat there and watched him. and the teacher came to help. haha.


i think i might be changing my blog. as in. the style. [not nessecarily sucessful] but then i'll have to pick a good date. in sync with. hm. i wonder what?

hello. at the com lab now. using the new macs! hahaha. its pretty cool. a gazillion times faster than all the other old school comps. but of course no where near the speed of my house comp! hahaha. kidding.


hm. missed like half of my julian cheung show yest. but thats cos i was busy looking at pretty girls. from america's next top model! haha. only one or two are pretty. but i love their figures! all the bones sticking out. so nice! hahaha. i sound sick.

hm. you know i was thinking about it the other day. and i realised that everyone knows i dont like plums! as in the taste. but everyone knows except the plum itself. it thinks i love it. [i cant decided on he or she cos its purple] and thats becuase i eat it when im desperate and also becuase i love sour plums or whatever its called. [suan mei]. hahaha. stupid plums. i hope my dad stops buying them. :/

I love God! hes sososososo amazing! today He showed me another miracle! okok. heres what happened.

i need to study for geog but have no time. but decided to do my fasting thing anyway. etc.etc. so then i realised i need to look for my chinese oral thing! becuase

1. i might get one more mark which gives me a higher chance of passing
2. if i have sth missing from my file she will "kuo hen duo hen duo fen" which basically means i cant pass!

so i freaked out cos i have alot to do. but basically that worksheet is like. no where! so i prayed reallyreallyreally hard. and tried my best to remove all doubts. and then when i was doing my fasting thing, there was just this voice in my head, telling me to go look in the chinese folder of my file. but when i was done and went to look i didnt bother cos i practically emptied my entire file looking for it. so i dug out all my old worksheets and looked through the entire stack. but it wasnt there! and i just kept hearing the voice telling me to go look in my file. so i said one last prayer and took out my file. and when i did, i suddenly remembered when i was looking all over for my maths worksheet, and found it in my file the second time i looked. so i flipped to the chinese folder and was about to empty it when there it was! right on top of everything! ahhh!!!!! Praise the Lord!! ilovehimilovehimilovehimilovehim. <3.>

pasar panjang cadbury song.

wouldnt it be nice to have a rip rap [breakwater]

mounds of soil [enclosed] in a geo synthetic [filter] cloth

to prevent the escape of the sand

and three layer of compacted rock

increasing in size from the inner most layer

absorbing energy and reducing erosion!

wouldnt it be nice!

oh wells. sonic fest is all over now. and im still alive. so maybe missing it isnt so bad after all. hm. but i really really wish i went. and evan got planet shakers and sonic flood's autographs! and he was supposed to get youknowwhos autograph for me but i guess he didnt see him. butbut. ruth says shes gonna try get it for me next week! actually tamago also said she'll help me get it come with me to get it so maybe i'll end up with like a gazillion. hahaha yeaa right. hm. maybe im treating him more like some star than a person. i realised ive been doing it for * last time. that made me feel really really bad.


you know. i never though this was possible but i think i kinda miss chua poh leng. like. oh my goodness! i wish she would come back soon soon. even meybe next year. but i guess she probably wont. i would have prayed and waited for a miracle. but then that would have been really really selfish.


church was not bad. the sermon was good although i didnt really understand it. (: the place was really empty without all the youths! oh well. i thought no one would be there but then i was wrong. haha. im not the only one! (:

today im happy. im happy because i grew! yes. i was so happy that when mrs deslver told me my height i didnt even say thank you. i screamed and jumped [yes. jumped!] away and announced my new height to the whole world. (: so now when someone asks me my height, i can proudly say 157. instead of the old, pathetic 156.5. although to think about, 157 isnt really something i can be proud of. oh wells. i believe that this is just the start of my growing process. i shall continue praying and trying out whatever might help in the increase of my height. and hopefully, this shall, in time, lead to my very-delayed growth spurt. hurhurhur.
note to my body: if you continue growing[please do], please only grow at the legs. prefebly slightly over 10cm. the body can grow maybe three. or maybe 12:1? then my legs shall me nice and long and beautiful and in propotionate to my body. (:


oh yes. of course taking height and weight isnt always wonderful. becuase i freaking grew fatter! yes! i put on 0.1kg! ahhh!! like how horrible is that. or maybe i can just bluff myself and say its the bones. although i think its more of bluffing myself im the weight they showed becyase it was with an empty stomach. bahh.


ok. so after the long crapshit about my height and weight, i am proud to say that my hair can be tied! yes! i shall soon be able to hide all the horrible split-end like [note the word like] stuff aticking out all over the place like some peice of shit. however, the ponytail is still beyond short and i shall have to wait a month or two before i can wear ot out of my house. so meanwhile, just bear with the grossness !! ):

yes i did it! freaking happy! (: who remembers the last last time i went jogging with my sister? yea. i gave in and started walking around princess of wales [?] road, and walked all the way home. but not today! hahaha. i think my stamina improved! i only walked for like. 20m. before nanyang. and then i ran home again! SuMIn is really proud of herself!


andand. praise the Lord! this is a summary of what He has been doing for me and maybe it will hit you and you will be astonded. ok. how sucky i am at my studies needs no explanation. and the results will say the rest! emaths: 15/25 amaths: 19/30 chem: 20/40 [freaking passed!!!!!!] physics: 23/35. and that might not seem good to you but think of my standard la. and how difficult the tests were. (:
oh. and the freaking thing is i got 30plus for my physc CA2. butbutbut! my mum didnt scold me! i was expecting murder or something. but she just said aiyoh! and ok. and then she even said. nevermind. i wont be on yuor report book what! and when i said i would she said. oh. is it? ohohoh i lovee her! (: [and God]


miss sie's leaving again. thats pretty sad although she hates me. :/ i mean. whats wrong with taking a little longer to find my worksheet? ok fine. it should be like. there. and everyones is. but itsnot my fauly im disorganised/not a good finder. and i dont believe i didnt even make a little progress this term. becuase i know i tried.

im freaking fat! ahhhh! i realised ive been stuffing myself like a freaking fat bitch for the past week. and now its time to stop. only of course its never so easy. gr. our body should be made so that it loses all its fat once you run 1k. then everyone will be all nice and skinny and booootiful! speaking of which. hahaha. long or short?


hahahaha. i just talked to gloria. she thinks im wonderful cos i remembered when she came back. actually i thought she came back like. a few weeks ago. hahaha. she thinks im super tyco. eh thats called smart la!


i think im hooked onto the julian cheung show!! i find myself thinking of it all day. and its one of the few things that make me look forward to weekdays! i mean its just too too nice. i want to vcds.


loving my cadbury ringtone! (:

i have a sudden urge to leave my hair long. i dont know why but i just wanna try it out! past experience tells me that its a bad choice and i'll look terrible. but i mean after learning how to take proper care of my hair, and looking all different from last time, this might just turn out fine! moreover, if it doesnt turn out i'll just go for a good haircut and the hairdresser will be able to anything he/she wants with my hair. there be no restrictions! so what do you think?
[ps. if your reading this will you just please tag an answer cos its gonna be super embarassing if no one does and i'll just have a impersonate someone and pretend]


today was pretty boring. oh i had two ice creams! ben and jerry and potong! red bean. hahaha. i wanna learn body combat. jia yun join me!

You have my heart
And I am yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and power


And everything You hold in your hand
still you make time for me
I cant understand
Praise you god of earth and sky how beautiful is
Your unfailing love unfailing love
unfailing love
and you never change god you remain the holy one and my unfailing love
unfailing love


You are my rock the one I hold on to
You are my song and I sing for you


And everything You hold in your hand
Still you make time for me,
I cant understand Praise you,
God of earth and sky How beautiful is Your unfailing love
(unfailing, love unfailing love)
And you never change,
GodYou remain the Holy One and my unfailing love
(unfailing love)


(unfailing, love unfailing love)

this songs so beautiful! (: I love it. <3>

lalala. i went to a durian party! some durian by the park. :/ the durian was gooood. but the satay was better! i think i ate like a gazillion. fat hope. probably only 7. but it rawked. seriously. we went to ask for the contact. 40cents a stick!


then i went to church myself so i wouldnt be late. belle joy is freaking deaf. [oh happy belated birthday] i called and called her from across the street and was waving like crazy and she didnt even hear/see! and then she kept asking how her hair was. hahaha. belle joy i think you're becoming worse than me! like. seriously! at least im only showing off my tan! hahaha. kidding. but i have no idea what to get you!


hm. tamago. we shall go get autographs next week ok! hahaha. then maybe you shall see the contacts and agree that my taste is wonderful although i dont only go for outward beauty cos im nice and clever and wonderful. hahaha. so there!


oh yes. city bank didnt invite edison chen. or any of my boyfriends. i was counting on that. and then i'll take a picture with them and jingxuan can stop trying to steal them from me becuase their so obviously mine and guys are not your boyfriends simply becuase you say so! i mean they really have to be your boyfriend before you say they are your boyfriend. understand?


if i ever own a beetle i'll paint the top red with a black stripe in the middle. then i'll paint the fton black with a red stripe. then i sides will be green with three broken black stripes on each side. then i'll add black spots on top. so when i offer to drive someone and they say ewwwww SuMIn you own a beetle! i'll say no way!! thats a ladybug! cant you see? (:

its amazing. how i am awed by God again and again as i know more about Him each day. He amazes me. the way He answers my prayer so well. i never realised iti love Him. Hes just so wonderful. (:


im going for a durian partee!! and theres gonna be Macdonalds. im gonna get all fat! (:

i hope that comes out.


I ran today! on the school track! after like a gazillion years. im gonna start getting fit again i tell you. and getting sicks not going to stop me! haha i ran like 12 pathetic rounds. i was planning fifteen. but then i decided to just not kill myself. haha. i mean i just had my breakfast! haha. it was pretty fun though! especially when you know its the only thing that will warm you up when you're freezing. although you only begin pespiraring[whatthhell] after the fifth round. ok. let me describe it in detail.
the first round i was wishing and wishing in my head that tara would go away. hahaha. im sorry. but she appeared out of no where!
i spent the next three or so rounds praying. or talking to God. however you put it. but it wasnt really sucessful becuase i was planning to do it the entire time! haha. it was not bad. although i didnt really listen out.
the rest of the rounds i was singing in my head. it was goood. haha. i even clapped when it was time to! oh. except the 7th and 8th round. where i was going seven..seven...seven.. and eight...eight..eight... respectively. (: then at the last 50m of my 9/10th round felicia came and join me! and we jogged and jogged until denise joined us. but she only jogged 3/4s cos she only "wanted to get rid of her cramps. " hahaha. tothink about it felicia was pretty nice cos she had to jog slowly with me. i think she thought i was doing my actual 2.4 heh.


i love do it! and my happiness is all red and pwetty now!

watching the nike ad while running can be very motivating! (:


om the com lab now. and im freaking bored cos this thing doesnt have msn. and im all alone with keating becuase we're the only stupid people in the group! everyone elses gone to hip. or whatever its called.



yawnnnnnnn.

give me back my happiness!

my calves just experienced a slight burning sensation. it feels kinda nice. but its really weird! i hope it just means its burning fat or something. hurhurhur.


you know. what saddens me most when i try to tell others about christ is not when i get rejected. or, as in a certain someone's case. suddenly appear in a world where eating noodles requires full concentration. but its when they dont understand whats gonna happen to them muchmuch later, and dont wanna find out becuase they dont care! maybe its just me being my lousy self, or maybe its becuase i didnt pray hard enough. but something tells me i should just rejoice in the Lord because the seeds of salvation was sowed. (:


oh wells. i was craving tang yuans real bad today. all thanks to zoe's open sesame joke. well. whats good is that i actually got to eat it! i ate four! (: (: hahaha. the moment i got home i called my mum to buy some for me. although by the time i ate it the craving kinda subsided. but still! i love black sesame tang yuangs! maybe some day i shall just try the paste thing. just heard of it today! (:

my happiness broke. into five peices. gr. am I sway or what. i was its virgin wear. and i barely wore it for in hour! then plonk. and it was in two peices. then an hour or so later. zoe looked at it [after trying to fix it] and then plonk plonk plonk there was five peices. now i give up on any hope of its ressurection.
but it was pretty funny though. it was before flagraising after i was showing it off to everyone. [zoe had some hillsongs united band but of course mine got the attention(: ] and then jing xuan asked to look at it. and just as i just trying to take it off she said "hey its not very nice you know."
and i said" but i will be after im dont with it!" and just when i said that sentence i was about to "peel" of the strap and the whole thing crumbled.
and jing xuan was like. "hahaha. when you're done with it."
oh wells.


so then today i wasnt really concentrating on anything becuase i was budy thinking of my happiness. i mean its gone like that! and its barely lasted a day! lucky my swatch watch has lasted and given me my happiness when i needed it or i would have lost total hope. :/

oh guess what? they showed remember the titans last night! around ten or eleven. hahaha it was really a pleasent surprise! cos my dad was watching tian long ba bu and he switched channels. for some reason i turned my head around and decided I watched it before somewhere. so i asked my dad what show it was and he said he didnt know. but then just at that moment the title flashes across the screen --remember the titans!


hehe. i watched it just for memories sake. honestly i have no idea why all of us were so obsessed over sunshine. i mean it was such a small role! hahaha. i still remember gloria found sunshine goodlooking! (:


finally went for the paranakan buffet again! [everbody say yay] but then i realised it isnt that nice after all. oh wells. didnt really eat much again. which was . hm. quite sad. but then i didnt find the food that good after all1 oh but i had 6 durian puffs [or was it five] it was rad. i loved it! hahaha. cant wait for next week! (:


oh. and we discovered all our birthdays are clumped together. which isnt good becuase you eat all the buffets and nice stuff at one go! so we decided that everyone should pick one month and we can have sth nice once a month! so thats 10/12! and if you include erm. holiday specials its gonna be sth nice each month. so much less fattenting huh. [i'll take october!]


wanted to go watch baybeats today. since my sister wanted to go for the pushcart earrings anyway. but then we shopped and shopped and before we knew it it was time to go home! oh wells.


i've gotta start losing weight. reading about an anorexic girl somehow makes me feel so much fatter.

sometimes it makes me wonder. am i ever gonna meet such wonderful people? but then i must remember, im not everyone in the whole world. im not making sense.


went to cell today. had to miss youth service! grr. i hate missing youth service! and when i heard im missing next weeks and that the week after next is healing service i started to get all depressed. i mean thats three freaking weeks! but ive got it all cleared up so im going next week. yay. (: and if you are saying now that i dont care about church and the only reason im going is because he is there[especially you tingwei!], im telling you that you are wrong! becuase hes probably somewhere else practising for sonic fest and knowing that. i still reallyrealy wanna go for youth service. not everything about church is about him. theres worshipping and the sermons and of course Gods prescense. so stop saying i go to church for him alright!

in cell today we started talking about the rapture. and death. and the 2nd coming of christ. gr. it sounds all so close now and that scares me. i mean thinking of the possibitly that i'll be left behind freaks me out. what if im not strong enough? what if one wrong decision makes me betray christ? i dont want to. but yet. will I love God even when im tortured? will i still be able to praise HIm and love Him and trust in Him? gr. i'll never know until im tested. so i guess i'll just have to wait. and hope it never comes.



hm. i dont like the way i write. haha. blogs are no fun. becuase i wanna say something but yet i cant becuse if i do, everyone will know by monday and i cant show it off! gr. so yea.


went to wake me up music today to look for pastor glenn. the sonicedge tee shirts are for sale! oh goodness i never knew that! i shall buy it sometime. (: hahaha. and apprantly the sonic edge guy does know that there was such thing as the sonic edge limited edition watch becuase he gave me this strange look and said theres no such thing. later when pastor glenn came out and asked why we looked so scared. i mean obviously we would! he bounced out of no where and suddenly said "hello!" hahaha. it was so stupid. cos he gave me the watch and was like. "isnt it so cool?" and i was like "yea" [haha. note the size represents loudness and enthuism] and then he was like "come on! dont you think its cool? say its cool!" so i was like "yea it cool." hahaha. well it wasnt really my fault. [besides kinda doing it on purpose. :P] and it also wasnt my fault that halfway when he was talking i stopped looking at him. i was distracted by an umbrella. winkwink.

happy birthday!

yay. my er jie is 18 today. (: now she can buy wine and buy beer and learn to drive and erm. donate blood without parental consent. (: hapy birthday erjie!!!!!!!!! (: (:


ok. today was fine. hm. i was pretty tired cos i couldnt sleep last night. :/ but i played squash. and ive mastered my backhand! oh. and you know what ive just learnt in squash like today and on tuesday?

• ive been holding my racquet wrongly
• ive been hitting with my wrist, instead of with my shoulder.
• i dont swing my hand
• i dont lift up my hand early enough
• what else.

oh wells. thats pretty sad right. i mean ive been playing squash for three years already! oh wells.

hahaha. yest shun yee and I were being damn lame during physics. apprantly she wasnt in the mood to do experients. and she got damn high. she her highness made me lame with her! hahaha. like. in the end we did the experiment together. like. its suposed to be individual. hahaha. but we got the wrong answer anyway. so we just changed it! :/ haha. then she started talking about spiderman and batman and she started asking why theres a spiderman and batman but no cockroach man. so we started planning out cockroach man! ie. its enemy and its powers hahaha. okok. i shall come up with a story now. (:

cockroachman flattened his body as best as he could, circling the erm. badguy villian. all ready to attack. this was the moment! he swopped down at the villian's face, delibretly brushing his wings against it. a large claw-like thing attemped to squash him, but cockroach man escaped! he swooped down and saved the victems, who were then frozen from fear. he brought them to safty, but that as not all! out of nowhere, cockroachman's worst enemy appeared-- Mr BAYGON!! cockroachman shrivelled in fear, its legs kicking the air. but not for long! before mr baygone managed to spray him with his smelly salivia, cockroach man flew back into the air, and streched out his hands[ this is his weapon la. like spider man got spiderweb] a brown mess appeared from the centre on his plam, getting larger and larger, until it finally attached to the wall. it was a cockroach nest!! billions of nymphs crawled out of the nest, covering nearly every area of the ground. but this did not scare mr baygon! he simply hissed at them, his smelly salivia spraying the roaches. causes them to writhe and pain, and gradually, die. alas! cockroachman had been hit by the salivia too! there, he lay on the ground, tears forming in his eyes as he realised he would no longer be able to help cockroachkind. ..though they wernt at all kind. his legs gave a finaly kick, before he lay still on the cool ceremic tile, dead. who ask him to be so kaypoh. try to listen to what mr baygon was hissing?

ok la. that was a peice of shit. i think so too.

hello! hahaha. i cant believe it! i think im getting quite sick of the internet! hahaha. like real. but i think im now able to live my day without relly thinking of it. unlike last time where i use to spend like. 2 hours on it. haha. thats good. (: credits to julian cheung [and guo ke yin maybe] for being so goodlooking! (:


ohohoh. and praise the Lord! yesyes! again! isnt that He just sososo wonderful!? yay. i mean my maths was like kana sai. and i didnt like. understand my sister thought i was hopeless already. [but she still tried patiently. (: ] butbut i managed to do it! as in. attmept all the questions properly. not like what happens narmally on a maths[this kinda thing only happens for maths tests. and maybe chinese] test. and i did a question in one minute! that was amazing cos i skipped it since i didnt know how to do it. (: but yet! one minute! praise the Lord! ..i happly await my results. unlike emaths :/


you know. i have no idea why im sharing testimonies on my blog. since no ones reading it. oh wells.

wow chem was a killer. so was chinese oral. but once again, im putting everything in God's hands. i mean i have seen how he worked already how watching 5 mins of news on a month or so can actually apply to what they asked during oral. i mean.. coincidence? ..i think not! (: soso yep. i think i got an assurance from Him. but...im not sure. :/


oh after like how long i finally realised which guys are out! [as in. which face matches the name] gr. derrick! i mean hes like the bestlooking of the lot and his voice is not that bad anyway. how can he be voted out!? oh wells.


i think julian cheung is goodlooking. hahaha. its like im looking forward to 11 everyday for my show. thats like. not good. ..emaths. how!?

my lifes like a peice of shit-- all brown and long. no actually its becuase it sucks. [no im not gonna say then it should be a straw].


gr. im not happy im not happy im not happy! seriously. i could have killed myself. but then i realised i would die. so i decided it wasnt a good idea. [:/] oh wells. and its not only dying. it hurts. and i dont wanna suffer pain in any way. and it might leave a scar. and i'll die with a scar. or if i drink detergent it might stain my throat or intestine or whatever and then it wont look pretty. and then when i get cremated i'll be polluting the enviroment. and thats cos good becuase the polar ice caps might melt and some countries might be submerged under water. and then i would need a coffin and the trees will get cut down. but then. all these dont matter. what matters most is that you all will miss me. and you will cry. (:



ok. so anyway. church was nice as usual. haha. being an usher is so freaky! i mean althought i didnt really do anything. but still. haha. ohohoh he was there. (: and sonic edge lead worship!! yayyayyay. i like it. (:


sigh. my sisterS know now. :/
i AM a potential mugger! (:
even belle joy agrees.

i wanna go for sonic fest. i want i want i really do!


haha my brad pitt is so irrestable. haha. teachers always stop and look at it whenever they walk past. its happened twice already! both of them find him appealing in some way or other. (:


hm. today miss chua showed us this video about a girl who got disfigured in a car accident. only it was muchmuch worse. she wasnt just disfigured. her face melted and she had to go for 50operations just to stay alive. i dont know. but watching the vidoe really touched me. im not going into the whole thing about how we all complian about ourlooks blabla but shes just so happy. it sounds so cliche. but thats kinda how i feel. shes just so strong and.. wonderful. but what touched me most was how she forgived the guy so realidy, especially when she hugged his mother. i mean. im always talking about wanting to be more christ-like. but yet. compared to her im just a peice of shit. and shes only human! even though her face melted in the fire and she was totally disfigured. i think shes beautiful. more beautiful than anyone i've seen.


ok. that was still cliche.


one last thing. i can catch squash balls!

i wonder what will happen if i find out my teacher had spilled half a bottle of water on my essay. fortunately, students now are all smart enough to use waterproof pens for exams. but then, sometimes the teachers arent! (:


its all about priorities.

today i went out with my mum and my sisters and my brother. (: wow. thats practically a family outing! if only my dad went too. oh well. we had jap buffet. (: im beginning to think buffets are a waste of money because i get full so quickly. but at least i know when to start on the dessert! (:


so yea. the tempura was nice. i had two! (: come to think of it, two isnt enough. oh wells. what else did i eat. hm. nothing really memorable. oh the chocolate thing. and some pudding. oh goodness. they were good! especially the weird pudding thing. cant remember what it is. but it was sour. (: and the candyfloss machine was closed! for dinner only. grr. i really wanted that.


bought a black polotee. despite adeline asking why im always in black. [i only wore black twice!] i think blacks my colour. (: im gonna get a pair of black heels. then i think im done with black. hahaha yea rightt. but then again, i might be. cos well, im me!


i dont wanna go to school tomorrow! whines.

veryvery high heels. (: [not the ugly one though. this is quite nice. (:]

went out with my family today. apprantly for claypot laksa but it was sold out! yea the one at KPTkopitiam hahaha. i had hokkien mee. it was not bad. but i think queenstowns one is nicer. yes. buy from them. the uncle is nice and it tastes good too! and they also give you alot of prawn/sotong and only charge you 2.50 so its really a great alternative when the char kuey tiao queue is too long. (:


oh but before that we went shopping. and i tried on platforms! (: i nearly bought them but they were too ugly. haha. seriously i love the feeling heels give me. they make me feel so... tall! [aside from giving me nice calves] and yea. its just the feeling of being so high up and ..tall. it feels wonderful. seriously! i think when I grow up i'll be like those poeple who spend thousands on heels and get those super high ones. haha. its better than drinking or drugs or cutting yrself or whatever weird stuff people do. you get much higher that way! (: and really once you get used to it it fone to walk it. i wantwant uber high heels.


hm. thats about it for today i think. haha. my sister is so meeaaan. yes you erjie. you know why. and i had starwars mnms today! i lovelove it! (:

hm. you werent there today. again. oh well. it doesnt matter because I still enjoyed myself! but still. youknow. oh wellS.


yes i went to church today! and worship rocked! haha the band was so cool. [yea there was a new band] and the lead singer was not bad too! i mean his voice. only they sang songs i dont know. haha but still.


tamago had holy communion!! haha. i think im becoming more like belle joy. im actually looking forward to communion too! hahaha.


oh yes. i had cell today. adeline said im a model student! hahaha. then belle joy got all jealous and started saying she was a modelmodel student. haha. its ok belle joy! i know you live me! wah lao. im like trying to fit you into everything belle joy! you better appreciate. yea.


thats all i think. actually the funny-singer guy's voice is quite nice. and he plays the guiter. haha. unlike tamago's bassist. who has un ugly guiter. haha. its a weird shade of green! and a weird shape. unlike the lovely red one at the back!! (:


yea. im laming.

I heared everything you said about her. how do you think I feel now. when thats almost exactly how I feel about you. only half of thats never gonna happen to me. and now you are all happy doing youknowwhat and im watching by the side all alone. sigh. thats so stoopid.


ok. yes. actually that was pretty retarded. and i dont know whats happening in me now. its like. im all weird and i get irritated easily only this time i voice it all out. but me being me never voices it out fully and thats all weird! andand. i dont know la. i think im too lazy to spell out why im pissed or irritated or whatever. either that or i sort of dont wanna hurt the person feelings. but then it doesnt work that way becuase its worse when you dont say anything! grr. i dont know. im all weird. hopw it will end up in some positive change. (:


im all fat and i hate it! especially my stomach and thighs and butt. i aspire to do a hundred situps every morning only of course thats no possible because of school. and if i refuse to wake up earlier to do my QT obviously theres no way im gonna wake up at 5.30 for sit ups. i mean seriously! i barely sleep six hours [on normal to good nights] already!


this entry sounds pretty depressing. i think zoe hates me now cos im sort of making her do her maths quiz herself. hurhur. anywayS. i think Miss Sie is here to stay! (:

yes! gogogo! it rocks and its only $45 a ticket and planet shakers and sonic flood will be there and not no mention, youknowwho!

this is a conversation the primary four kids in my bus had. oh my goodness. you seriously wont believe it!

school bus. on the way to school.
stopped at a traffic light next to a public bus. [get that. public bus.]

one: oh look! itsn not fair! those people are also sitting school bud and they get to watch tv!
two: where?
one: look! theres a tv in the bus!
two: thats not school bus la!
one: [interrupting] it is! look! those girls are wearing our school uniform!
two: its not la! [thats when i thought she had a brain. but..] thats their private car..
one: private car!? how can that be? its so big!
two: nono! i know their dad! he owns a license to drive vans.

ohmygoodness!<br>

oh yes. i saw my new maths teacher today. yea. my first impression of her is not bad. i think shes pretty nice. ok. this is why i like my new amaths teacher[so far]:

• her voice is not bad. as in. pleasent
• she looks ok. as in. nicer the more you look.
• shes funny
• she talks alot/tells stories
• she wasted a whole lesson with us answering questions even though she knew we were wasting her time. (:
  

yay. so im pretty happy. and miss sies still teaching! though i think i might miss chua poh leng. which is like. so unexpected! haha.

oh yes. i made a new friend. [yesyes. primary one diary!!!!!!] natalie yeo. hahaha can you believe it? she has been in my class for half a year and todays the first time i held a proper conversation with her. and by that i mean actual talking. not just like. "hey, is chem in class or is it lecture" yea. haha./

i think today was pretty nice. (: recess too!

I think i have typed the words "pure narrative" and "recount narrative" a gazillion times. grr. english is killing me. and honestly i dont even think i did a good job. it isnt even like. passable. i dont know. i cant seem to be writing properly these days. gr.


went shopping with ting wei today. actually its more like we ate lunch, walked around and went home. oh well. actually i was quite happy she wanted to go home so early cos i wasnt really in a shopping mood. no faairrr. yea had lunch at pizza hut. cost me a freaking 10bucks! oh goodness we were soo stupid.


haha. it was pretty funny. cos there were like. lumps in the soup. so there was this big lump and ting wei thought it was chicken. and she bit into it la! haha. she reaction was super funny. so after that we were being very careful. like checking every spoon for lumps. then at the same time we fished out a lump and was then. is this a lump? [oh goodness. ting wei's was enormous! it was more of a glob] then we started poking it with our fork. haha. so lame.


yea. it feels like holiday again. going to school kills me i tell you.

stepped on the weighing machine after like. i dont know how long. [noe really long. but i havent dared to do so since i begin overeating.] horrors of horror! its got to be lying! but no. i weight myself twice! if you need a half an hour break say so. dont cheat me like that. gr. i actually reached a weight i never did before. thankfully the machine was just bluffing as usual.


oh i finally ran today! i thought it was gone forever. really slowly though. although i did increase the resistance halfway. haha. doing the 30min. target toner somehow motivated me. and of course the huge increase in weight la.


dont ever go out with ting wei i tell you. shes a cheater.

school today was fine i guess. not some stupid dark prisooooon. ok. i mean school never is. but still. oh but theres one good thing. i now have zero warnings! yes. as compared to the two-away-from-beta i had previously this rocks. i was praying real hard this morning to God to not let me get a beta. well i guess He answered! faithful as always. (:


of course. it means something else. something to do with hm. the new warning system. something to do with getting expelled by play truent once, say vulgeries twice, being late twice and wearing the wrong uni once. or something to that effect. well. all i can say is i have no comments. well. of course i do! but i must be careful with what i say. or i might get sued for slander. that three demerit points by the way.


yea. i have nothing much more to say. i dont wanna begin studying all over again. and maybe i should just take the fraeking tagboard off. its pointless.

gr. its today. like finally and im not happy. i dont wanna go back to school! well. i mean maybe there are stuff to look forward too. such as.. mee pok. and hor fan. (: but still. thats not worth it. andit makes me fatter.


hm. today was pretty good. we spend last night [and the car ride today] singing all the old songs. like the fann wong "lovelovelove" thing and the yiwen jiejie plant song. haha. strange that we actually remember although we dont really. and i think i miss dicky. haha. havent been listening to his songs for ages! even forgot some of the lyrics la.
after that we started fooling around with the cam. lol. it was funny.


woke up at like. 10sth. and went for timsum at chinatown! yea i had xiaolongbao and guo tie. it was good, (: only my mum bought me breakfast like just before we left so i was really full. ): oh and there was the pancake thing too. with dao sa inside. nice! (:


came home and we all slept. thats all i think. my mum cheats when i play snap with her. gr.

went to church today. (: but first we went to adeline's house for lunch! haha. yea i forgot to bring dessert. so super embarassing la! gr. so then we made our way to church and waited for eons until isaac finally came and we could have our farewell thing. haha it was so stupid. we played five people you meet in heaven. so it was like, you made isaac sit down, blindfolded him and read him as testimonial someone wrote for him, and he had to guess who the person was. if he didnt we would give him a clue by writing the first letter on his face with colgate. haha it was so stupid. cos the toothpaste was apprantly very hot. so in the end they ran out and we made up one! we being belle joy and me. so acutally i wanted to say "hi. i have nothing to say. bye" but then belle joy said. no la. we say "but you are a nice guy" as well. haha. so sad. he guessed me after like two letters and was like. who else will come up with something so crappy! uh! like go and die ok!


service. hm. he wasnt there. that was just sososososo sad! gr. and im hungry. i wanna eat. but im fat! sigh. unhappy. ):

today i watched ambush makeover for the very, very last time. that was really sad. becuase i never really appreciated it. i mean i watch it for maybe the first week then i couldnt be bothered to wake up in time for it. then i went to camp. then i woke up in time for it but couldnt be bothered to watch it. and now i realise its all gone! grr. i wish the holidays would just come back come back come back. ):


i have a break out. it sucks. i thought i already have so many pimples its not possible for me to ever get a break out. but then i did! it sucks la. i look like i have chicken pox. ):

oh i feel like i got cheated by msn. ): signed for this dunno what space thing so i would get a star next to my name. but when i go look, the star is gone!


watched mr and mrs smith. haha. brad pitts so hawt. then he was so nice he put down the gun first. haha. yea im crapping. im bored

i think i've just wasted my entire half a year in school. grr. doing the sillymaths online quiz has showed it. i think i might as well not go to school anymore. hur.


hee. im typing faster than my comp! meaning i type as few words and have to look up and wait for them to appear on the screen. hohohos. im so fast. :/


i dont know what else today. im eating like alot. and im lookinh forward to watch mr and mrs smith! oh yes. does anyone know if the 30min target toner gets rid of fat or just builds muscles? i dont wanna waste my time. hahaha


my impression of edison chen is like. gonegone. i mean. hearing about his attitude is pretty bad already. but his looks can cover that. but then. after what i heard about him last night. everythings suddenly all gone. oh wait. or was it lastlastnight...


my eyes are itchy. i wanna scraaaaaatch !!

boo. the holidays are ending. thats like. so fast! i havent even finished my homework yet! oh wells. at least theres next wednessday to look forward to. then.. well. i can just continue counting down the the december hols!


i think im sick of running. i dont know! the moods just not there anymore. and thats not good becuase when im not in the right mood i cant even run 200m. i mean i can la. i just. dont feel nice. gr. i need an alternative to exercise. im not going to get all gross and fat i tell you! [oh yes. i already am. gr.]

im eating sososo much and i havent exercised for so loong! gr. im turning freaking fat! fine. i am freaking fat. but im getting fatter! ah. the horror! my wonderful 1.5kglighter body is going to gain everything back before the holidays even end.


yes i know i sound like a bimbo. but how else am i gonna get my point across eh? so the point is. i dont wanna get any fatter! im fat enough! if you've any way of me getting thinner its really really welcome. but staying like that is not bad yes its not good to be as fat as i am. but its better than putting any more weight. ):

oh goodness im so full so full so full. seriously. i have never been so full in my entire life. either i ate like alot today, or my appitite shrunk. i hope its the latter. (: so anyway. im like soso full my stomach hurts. fine. i was. i went for a walk hoping to help speed up the process and well. reduce the agony. butbut. i couldnt even walk properly! imagine this. oh and my other leg is so small cos my legs were really far apart. haha. so anyway. i was litarally dying. after walking for 2o0[orso]m, i was like. okok. restrest. then i had to sit down and rest for a while. ahhh!! that sucked. so i rested twice. then my sister started singing. so i sang with her. and that really helped! yep. my new found remedy. (:


yea my cousins came today. although like 3/6 didnt come. haha. never mind. the nicest people were there. (: theres always next time. (: the food was nice. like popiah and kuey pitee and ham and whatever. (:


im really beginning to like green more and more. whats with green nowadays? no way im letting it take over red!


sigh. i think im the bitch. [refers to orange-banana story part one] and thats not good. i mean i know i once said i wanted to be one. and i aspire to be one. but this is all wrong! im not being the right type of bitch. gr.


oh yes. my brothers back. and so is the guiter! (:

happy fathers day!(:
a very last minute present from me and my sisters. ...but more from my sisters. :/


nice right!?

oh goodness! that someone did actually get a haircut! hahaha. thats so cool. that someone looks soso good with the new haircut. seriously. although more than half was sheared off. i nearly couldnt reconigse that person la! haha. actually quite alot of people cut their hair. i noticed. (:


worship today was great! i feel that the camp really brought me back to God. especially when i made the decision not to let anything or anyone distract me from God again. yep. the feeling of being with God was good. (: then there was one moment when i was afraid i wasnt doing enough to worship. as in. i wasnt really like. ininin it. pointing and everything. but then i think God told me that it was ok, as long as im focused on worshipping Him wholeheartedly, He sees it and understand. that was just so sweet. (:
watching tamago worship kinda touched me too. (: i mean just a few weeks ago she was telling me how she only liked one song, and that people raising up their hands to praise God freaks her out. but yet today. she too was worshipping God, and i think she was a little touched. later, she was even lifting her hands a little! God's works really amazes me. i mean i was worrying becuase i dont know how to really tell her about christianity, since i was the one who brought her to church. but yet. now i can just see God working in her! i just need to commit everything i have to Him, and know He'll take care of it. (:


sermon was not bad. haha. pastor glenn's movie was funny and his fathers damn cute! haha. belle joy and I were laughing and laughing although he was being serious. i mean we cant help it! hes just too funny!


haha. ruth and tab are so sweet! bought us souvenirs. haha tab gave me this purse. haha its damn cute. reddish pink! haha. and ruth bought us nice sour sweets. (: i love sour sweets. ruth give me somemore! kidding. but show me the packet so i can buy somemore. (:


ok. this is a contiunation on my story. part two la.
so one day, the banana was stolen from its home. and frozen in liquid nitogen so it was damn hard and had to to mashed with a hammer. then it was made into ice cream. that, of course, made it very sad until it realised it was actually ben and jerries chunky monkey. wow.
as for orange, well, it actually realised it was an apple, and was made into apple pie.

yes. red is a powerful colour. yes. it happened again. and yes. its starting. initially its a really good thing. but then.. maybe it isnt? ):

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.

thats one of the many things i've learnt in camp. to be a peace maker. but this verse just keeps coming mabk to me. to remind myself that what im doing is wrong. and thats just.. so wrong! I mean. its just so hard. i seriously have no idea what is wrong with me.
):

yay went out with gloria[and zoe] today. i miss her i miss her! haha. she still looks exactly the same la. except her hairs all poofy. thats right. tony and guy killed her too. haha.


shopping my great! i actually bought something. in fact, two things! yepyep. i think im beginning to get onto green. bought green shoes from pretty fit, and a green spag strap shirt from bods. yea i think im liking that place more and more. (: the heels were funkye. i was decided between green and white but chose green [although the white ones nicer] since i already have white heels and, well. my feet are too fair. (: [and obviously cos gloria and zoe kept saying take the green one] its a tad too big but who cares. maybe then jia yun wont say my shoes are for barbie dolls. (: yes la im just too lazy.
and my shirt is. gr. revealing! well. not revealing revealing but since its spag stap it shows all my fat! grr. but then again gloria and zoe kept telling me to buy it [its too big as well] so i got influencedand bought it. haha. my sisters think it sucks but i got it at 21.53 so im happy. (: and im wearing green to church tomorrow to match pastor glenn's movie. green grass. oh and did i tell you that i have a green balloon?(:


gloria says i look older and different and im thinner. i disagree with the last point. and to think about it carefully. looking older might not be a compliment since she used to call my ahmah. hmm...


ok i shall end with a story.
orange and banana used to be friends. one day. orange told banana who she liked. so banana did the same. banana did not tell anyone about it, although it wasnt a secret. but she secretly teased orange a little. however, orange blew up and called banana names and said she couldnt keep secrets and would never tell her anything again. banana felt really bad but soon, orange started insulting banana's crush openly and even said rude things to him. banana found out and was obvously pissed off only she didnt say anything.
two years passed and banana forgot all that happened. either that or she thought orange would have matured and change. so she told orange a secret but obviously she blabbered it out.


oh my goodness. what a bitch orange is! haha. im loyal to red forever. dont worry. (:

things i'll miss about radiate

dumping half my lunch/dinner into the bin

spending half the time staring at nothingness

youknowwho look alike. (:

wonderful worship sessions

fattening suppers

eating ice cream at 10.45

running around NUS at 1 in the morning

singing "this little light of mine" with dog shit in your mouth

11 poeple linking arms sliding down the snow city slope

bitching sharing our fears about youknowwho [another one]

thinking to myself that youknowwho might have touched everything

watching tiffany glue her shoes. again and agian and again.

imitating sonic edgers

mass chicken dances

etc.

my butt hurts from sitting. :/

radiate camp was so fun! if you ask me im actually pretty sad im back home. which is, well. pretty sad la. i think the highlight was pretty much the third day. which is also quite sad since it was the second last day. oh wells.

hannah abigal deborah tiffiny sumin eugenia peter ryan ariel samuel jit liang. lightening. (: erm. zz zzz zz. boom! haha. so lame. well my group its pretty much dead [so was i la] but still. it was fun being with them (: they are nice as individuals.

day1:
played games. erm. the silly chair thing, and the armour of God, and three legged soccer. oh my goodness that was so stupid. hannah and i partnered. and we had like. nearly no co ordination. especiall since we didnt bother about the "one two" thing. in the end we just hopped. haha. then it was super funny. we would stand there and slack and then the ball would come and we would be like. oh quickquick! hophophop! and human scrabble [28 words!] and mumbling rubbish cheers. haha. it was fun la. (: [actually i cant really remember]

sermon was good. learn about the beaattitudes. which i dont have. yep. have been praying. and i really hope this camp has change me. at least enough to be a salty salt [kiam kiam?] if not a 180degree one. whch i need. but still. i believe God is working in my life and i will get better. (: as long as it isnt some two day thing.

bathed in hot water. and there was roti prata and curry for supper. oh goodness talk about fats. obviously i skipped that.


day2:
wet games day. (: haha the games were fun la. we played dodgeball! yea thats the game i reallyreally wanted to play last year. not so much now, but it was pretty fun. only that stupid isaac yip caught all the balls. butbut. i hitted someone! with a waterbomb. haha. i knew aiming at nothing would work. then we played erm. captians ball with a buttered papaya. and egg. and.. whatever. and dog and bone with a tomato and cucumber. lol. it was soso lame. me and the other person were fighting over gald the squashed tomato [mainly trying to scrape it from the ground] then the other person scored with a teeny morsel! gr. (: then there was the umbrella game. where i forgot how to open the stupid thing. haha. so lame la.

worshiped rocked. yea. i finnaly worship God properly after like how long [blame him la] and yea. i could just feel the presence of Him. and the past where everyone was singing without music touched me. it just made me feel.. everyones love and awe and.. i dont know what. but it feel pretty... whoosh! haha.

had the evangelism workshop. haha. yea i all ready to preach the gospel! [i hope] debbie was so funny. and i now have a nice anklet which is too short [and now soggy and wet].

day3:
yes we went to snow city! my girls name was adrain or something. i dont know i just cant remember it. and it was freezing! haha. poor ariel was bullied by his boy. haha and samuel kept turning around to complain his boy was damn smelly. so he kept avoiding him. haha. so stupid la. my girl was pretty quiet. maybe she just didnt wanna talk to me. but im pretty bad at starting conversations. so. yea. didnt really share the gospel with her. but. just praying that she got impacted some way or other. (:

yea the place was freezing! i was dying inside. haha. but still it was fun! haha ariel was like bombing us with snow when we were still stoning from the cold. in the end we all turn ryan into a snowman. since he wasnt cold. then charissa came and put snow on my head! haha. she messed up my hair! lol. then suddenly deborah and tiffiny dissapeared[they were slacking in the warmth outside] so i went to slide with charrisa! (: made ice cream which tasted simply gross. but i saw liquid nitrogen! haha. so cool. then the guy poured all the leftover nitrogen on the carpet. i was like xi you ji! haha. and im sun wu kong's wife. (:

had the camp finale. haha. kiam teng was so funny! lol. anakin saltshaker. wah lao. and the yoda thingy. damn lame la. light saber also. ee lyn [or li] looked super funny as mrs smith1 haha. ours was super impromtu. but it was not bad la. we got 4th! (:

then was the night nite games. so stupid! at least we didnt lose. (: yea we were funny around nus and im sick of typing.

well. al in all. camp rocked! of have i said that already.

guess what guess what guess what!? Dicky newest show is out! i just found it today! xiao yu er yu hua wu que i was attracted the the poster outside the shop. haha. from a distance i was like. isnt that guy Dicky? ..how can? so i went to look. and it is! yep. it costs 60bucks and i want it veryveryvery much. so if any of you decides to be nice to me[its avalible at suntec] i promise i'll love you with all my heart and be nice to you forever.
before i saw the vcds i had was scolded by my parents for not studying. so i thought it was be a bad idea to tell my mum about Dicky Cheung just yet. but still. how will i be able to resist! now, shes agreed to get me the vcds if i collect 6 a1s [my idea of course] but still! its 6a1! how am i gonna get to. so... i'll be nice to you forever. (:


i bought nice pants today. from bods. haha. its nice and white and surprisingly doesnt make my legs look stumpish/make me look like a fisherman. oh yes. its three quarter pants. (: and then i found out that my dad is actually friends with the boss of the placE! i see something good turning out! hohoho.


camp tomorrow! .im quite scared actually. :/

woke up with this horrible crampish neck today. oh goodness it sucked. imagine your entire neck hurting whenever you turn it. even if it was just slightly. like when you sit down. and i never ever knew my neck had so many different muscles! I think its time for me to begin strengthening my neck. it has always been pretty lousy. like feeling weird when i do situps. yuck.


went to church. and i was practically walking round in circles. so in the end i decided to go to ntuc to look at food and tempt myself/stone/look for banana or jackfruit chips. of course in the end it was mainly to look for my banana and jackfruit chips but i found none. so sad. ): i really really wanted to eat jackfruit chips.


so later belle joy and tamago appeared. oh yes. i found out who is in my camp group. [yea. ): but. it was expected] ohmygoodness at first i thought isaac was in my group again. cos he was standing there. but it turns out it was ryan. again. and hannahs in my group too! only of course.. yea. both somemore. ):


worship was great! sonice edge lead. ah! guess where I stood! (: oh well. someone needs a haircut (: winkwink. yea. youknowwho was soso cool la! i was staring again. i think erm. yourthatwho saw. ahem. im damn off la. okok. then comes the best part. tamagos a christian!! yes! she accepted christ today! she even said the sinners prayer! im so happy for her! haha. hope she'll get to know God more and more and more and more and more. (: (: yay!!


i think my new skins gonna turn out weird. hur. I think once people start making their own skins they just never want to download from blogskins.com again. it just feels soo.. cheap.

today is slack day! and fat day2 too. but. slack day! (: i really stayed at home and did nothing. but try to shit. (:


hm. today a most embarassing thing happened but obviously im not going to tell you what. and im gonna practise my mastermind again and again till i become the mastermind champion!! hohohoho.


looking forward to tomorrow. next weeks gonna be an exciting one!

yay today i went to visit my tingting. (: but it was only when i went all the wayy to pasarris when my mum told me tingting was at childcare. ): eh i felt like i wasted my entire day! somemore i didnt even get to shop. gr.


went to cut my hair. (: yes that cheapo place again. eh i look like a balded rooster. but still. at least it was better than the stupid pervert bitch at tony and guy. avoid that place. so. yea. bald chicken.


and i ate a roti boy. (: it was reallyreally nice. especially the first bite but by the time i reached the end i was nearly puking. practically forcing that stupid peice of bread down my throat. hmph. next time i shall share. becuase sharing is good! (: (: and then my dayi gave me so much food. haha. and i ate chocolate and a cookie when i went home. which also means that today is fat day!! ..fat days are badd for you i tell you. ): this morning i was pretty happy when i got onto the weighing machine. but i think everything is all gone back.

woke up at 11 today! wow. i am breaking the cycle! though i very much doubt i'll be able to sleep early tonight. last night was pretty much a failure. sigh tamago.


had pizza prata for lunch! yea is was not bad. innovation. heh. (:

yay i finally ran something properly. (: properly being for more than 5mins and more than 2.5km. (: yay i did 4k today! in a pathetic 25mins. thats right! slowly does it. and we'll keep working until i get all fit and nice! (: motivated. (:



and i didnt get that horrible feeling of dissapointment when i decended from the cross trainer. (: even though i stopped becuase i wanted to, and not cos i couldnt. and not cos i wanted to thinking i couldnt. but becuase. i achieved my goal! i await the lovely feeling of running 5.2k in 30mins. butbut. after all that. its gonna be at resistance 5. not at 2 or 3. andand. my family members are going to stop mocking me!! hohohohohohoho.<br>

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im boredddd.
today i remembered to watch my mei ren yu. (: felicia chin is soso chio. only she keeps getting bullied. :(


you know some people love to rip stuff off other people's blog? only they try to make it sond like they said it and it sounds all wrong. what losers. haha. that was random. (: (:


i feel soso sian. gr. the internet has nothing to offer me now. and im getting so damn freaking fat. in fact. the stupid pok weighing machine found me soso fat it showed me three different weights before I could even get off it. what kinda pok machine is that? it cant even lie properly


lalala. i have no more dreams to tell you about. ): i have no idea what to write for my essays. THIS POST IS DAMN SHIT LA.








[brown for shit]

today is ba zang day. happy ba zang day!! let me tell you the story od the ba zang.


once upon a time, there used to be a very goodlooking guy. not that he was good looking, he was just cool. but still. that was enough. in the country coosease there wasnt many cute guys. in fact. cute guy were reallyreallyreally hard to find. therefore, alot of girls fell for this guy. [well shall just call him W]. W was known for his black baggy shirts and nice hair and educated look. also, he was a nice person and had manymany talents! as years passed, more and more gurls started liking him. however, W did not live up to their expectations! he started looking less scholarly and his hair got worse and worse. the girls were unhappy but decided to be loyal. however, one day, he even stopped wearing black! not only that, his shirt was tight like a ba zang. that was the last straw. the girls were greatly displeased and plotted to have their revenge. the next day, they went to look for him, and he was wearing a tight shirt again! in fact, it made him even more like a bazang since the shirt was green. the girls then ambushed him and threw him into the river to feed the fishes, in order to fufil his wishes.
the end.


i think im supposed to add the part where everyone makes bazang on that day to remember him. but then it wont make sense! hurhur.


anyway. i like bazang day. (: although i havent eaten a single bazang. :/


had a nice long walk today. and i had a nice good think. it was peaceful and i think i benifitted from it. (:

hello. i realised that my posts are getting shorter and shorter. not that its a bad thing, but today, i shall attempt to do one of my long draggy posts. to commerate.. well. i dont know what. (:


went to church. (: but before that i had to waste 40mins at the library. yep. i read an entire book! yay. how interesting. english books are so nice and easy to read. unlike chinese. [i still havent finished that by the way. but i did find out that the guy who is always with Dicky is called Jimmy. (:] went to church. and SuMIn is sad becuase she has very little friends. ): like. seriously littlelittle.


church was. well. besides church, a major decision. so you can say today i was pretty much focused. its mainly because of:

• no glasses
• ugly hair
• white shirt. [not black!]
• late
• etc.

so you see its many many reasons and i say it was a good decision. oh butbut. church camp? yea. ):

ok that was pretty much coded. becuase. well. i dont want to tell you! (:

thought sermon today was really motivational. about being an evangelise. and i realised how selfish i am. like seriously. and self centered. and i can never become a good evangelise. cos i dont have the heart. unless of course, God changes me! and im sure he will. (:

got prayed for. and i was telling myself i didnt want to get slain. becuase i wouldnt know what to do. so no matter what, dont fall. and i didnt. but i felt something pushing, though im not sure if it the was holy spirit or just that guys hand. (:

and im getting fatter and fatter. gr.

hm. last night i dreamt of church camp. it was pretty scary. we had to make a parachute out of plastic bags and jump down from the sixth floor. of course im not gonna jump down the sixth floor with a parachute i made! and on top of that i didnt even bring plastic bags! so i zaoed and went home. then i got all worried. becuase the camp was going to be boring and i missed the first day and therefore had no idea how to go back. hur. i hope someone nice it in my group. :/ excited! (:

you know what i realised today? the main charecter in my chinese book, the chinese book i have been forcing myself to read for the past three days, his name is dicky! uh! and hes smart and goodooking and popular and whatever. yay. (:


went to tanglin mall for fish and chips. (:

oh goodness. my mum like finally agreed to go out with me. like seriously la! going out with her has never been so difficult before. stupid new principal who made her so busy. i had to complain about how im stuck at home all day and that my friends get to at least go out with their mum. for a really really long time before she went "ok la. mon or wednessday."grr.


hm. i wish i were bulimic. then everything i eat would just dissapear. i know this is more of a choice than something yr born with. but still. i dont fancy sticking my finger in my throat, or my head over the toilet bowl. :/


cant wait to shopshopshop. (: i want the mango colourful thing. only it costs a $50. and theres no way im gonna pay $50 for something that looks pretty [i dont know what its for]. and i want the chanel charm bracelet. only of course its chanel nd costs a freaking 740bucks. like. seriously?

who saw the energiser advert? ohmygoodness! its like soo soo lame. i nearly died when i saw it la. thats like. saddddd.


tamago and jia yun came over to play badminton. unfortunately. my house isnt exactly made for people to play badminton. haha. but tamago was so funny! whenever she hears a dog bark shye will scream damn loudy. then the lady walking the dog had to keep shushing the dog, and even carry it! i was like laughing non stop la. so funny.


wouldnt it be nice?