shopping today was REALLY badd. pray for my chem test.

name five of life's simplest pleasures that you like most ,and name five other people to do the same.try to be creative and not to use what has been written:

1. i love making instant noodles. it makes me really happy to know i will be able to survive if somehow i get stranded on some desert island, even though coconuts never crack no matter how hard i try to smash them.
2. ok no one knows this but when im reallyreally stressed i listen to my bird tape. its extremely therapeutic. i especially live the tweeting sound the redheaded bluffin makes ! sigh singapore has too little birds.
3. sweeping the dirt from the road into my gate. GOODLUCKGOODLUCK. for some reason it also annoys my maid alot. shes really funny when shes angry.
4. counting the amount of rice i can hold in my hands to see if it grew bigger. i wish i had longer fingers !
5. when im in the right mood, i like the squint really hard. if i look hard enough, and the rooms really bright, i can almost see oxcygen's protons !!!

jayla. shes probably zoe's COOLEST friend ! [i dont know her but i saw her on zoe's links]. oh besides me of course ! i must be just about the only person in the world who can see protons !!

today church was awesome ! haha i could reallyreally feel God's prescence ! especially when we were singing "i will worship you" [those exact words] i dont know. i just felt.. strange. i cant remember how now. but it was cool ! ((:


oh and today when i was prayed for i felt kinda shakey. not like. jelly wobble but just shaking a little here and there. haha. is it just me being strange, or was God really working ? :/


ANDAND. today i had the best hei ever ! heck with the fish and the vegetables. it was nearly all cripsly thing ! ((:

i think i got stretch marks. either that or a wrinkle from being too fat. from i now i promise to only sit straight. so the wrinkle will never get any deeper, and hopefully dissapear !


i was so annoyed just now but we shall not talk about it. and i hate tuition becuase it ends so late. she just keeps be back until i finish my work. i'd much rather do it at home even though i keep forgetting to do it i get much more time to think even when i rush at the last minute ! andand she thinks she being so nice but i dont want to stay there alright ! >(


ok. that was about the worse parts of my day. i love today becuase its friday ! and i didnt realise it was friday ! so after emaths mrs tan[who im liking more now (:] was like, "ok, those who have questions stay back. otherwise you can go" so it was the lessons right after recess and i was like go? isnt there like one more lessons or something ? and then i realised it was friday !! ((:


i change to tagboard ! even though its ugly and has no archives. but SOMEONE promised to tag my board regularly if i change ! and apprantly i'll get more tags. so. HINTHINT.

today i got freaking booked. uh! so pissed ! i waited for the bus for fifteen minutes. i mean hello ! its four buses it shouldnt take fifteen minutes for them to come ! so anyway. not i have three points and its only febuary and its just another 3 points to a beta. i want to get into a jc alright ! >(


ok on a happier note, today we wore our own clothes to school ! i was so very sian i just wore some random thing which i think everyone saw me in a gazillion times. but that doesnt becuase. its not like i have a revolving wadrobe bursting with clothes anyway.


so we took very little photos but anyway they are all here [click].


after that we went to have lunch ! [mostly to accompany jia yun before ballet] so we tried out the Mad jack place and seriously dont go there. its not actually expensive but if you think about it its not really worth the money. somehow it gave me the impression that they just took forzen whatever from the fridge and fried it. and it wasnt even say fried or whatever very well becuase my chicken patty in the burger was out of shape ! and they took like so super long i dont know what to say. ah well. it looked really good when i drive pass it everyday.

i wish i were thin .


frownfrownpoutpout.


random. hahaha. i spent the entire day today more or less stoning at home. haha. fine i wasnt stoning i was reading. oh wow. haha. memoirs or a geisha. actually i didnt want to re-read the book becuase it was so dusty. but then last night i got freaking bitten by mosquitoes so i couldnt sleep [it was just more itchy than usual ! and there were so many small bites instead of a few big bites so its harder to scratch. but anyway.] and my dad's room was locked so i couldnt go enjoy the aircon. hahaha. so anyway. in desperation i decided to turn on the lights and make full use of the time. only i had nothing to make use of my time with and i couldnt find a nice book to read. haha the nicest happened to be that. ah well.


ok that so wasnt my point. i havent touched any homework and in fact i have no idea if i have any ! the worst thing is that i left everything in school becuae i went shopping on friday and didnt want a heavy bag. MEHH. howhow.


and i still dont know what to wear.


got this from nat's xanga.


Friendster was real

Everyone would have over 500 friends and clone themselves into 3 (therefore, they have 3 friendster accounts)

Everyone wouldn't know half of their friends

Conversations would sound like this "How are you?" Sent. "Good, how are you?" Replied.

During a long conversation you'd have to say "Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: all right, well call me later."

Everyone who doesn't like their face--it will be replaced by a tilted smiley face. (If you don't get this, think: people who don't upload any pics at all on the friendster)

People's faces would be anime pictures intead of real human faces with a nose, a pair of eyes etc

Everyone would live anywhere they liked.

Everyone's hobby would be "Dunn0x lehhs.. heHex~"

Everyone's favourite books would be "DuNcH rEad B0oks.. ii n0tx a nErd nia~!!!!!!!!!!!"

Everyone's favourite movie would be "to0 mUcH tuu nAm3 siaX~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

If you were a fat person, people would only see you from the shoulders up.

People would be able to photoshop out pimples on their face.

Your attraction to someone would be based on their favorite clothing label, their favorite band, and a survey.

All males would drive impoted muscle cars.

All females would own thousands of branded LV bags.

Everyone one would be walking around with a full length mirror infront of them and camera in hand.

Girls would have faces with the following description: Eyes opened up big, cheeks sucked and lips puckered two feet off their faces.

The phrases "Yo," "your hawt," or "hit me back some time" in a testimonial would attract the opposite sex.

All you have to do to attract someone is to give them alot of testimonials.

There would be a lot of youthful looking 99 year olds.

Blogs would be required reading and any random thought in your head would be shared with everyone.

It wouldn't be odd to have Brad Pitt in your circle of friends.

Hello Kitty would be a real person.

When it was time for bed you would say you're "Undergoing Maintenance."

You would have to paint and decorate your room with a Friendster Profile Editor/CSS.

When someone said something funny, you'd actually roll around on the floor and laugh your fucking ass off.

"Friend Whoring" is equal to STD's.

"Fuckin Friendster!" is the only universally known term in any language to show anger.

At nights when you are asleep you would get people running in your room that you don't know saying. "It's 4 a.m., I can't sleep, someone talk to me." in a testimonial

Anytime you walk into someones house they have the same video or song playing all the time, non-stop for three months straight.

People would get their houses looks/decorations changed every week.

People would run up to you, tell you a random message, and you'd have 17 minutes and 13 seconds to pass it along before a ghost came to your house and raped your dog.

People would inexplicably be stuck in their homes for hours unable communicate with the out side world because some asshole put up a large white wall in front of every door and window with a note attached saying Sorry but an unexpected error has occurred

Taking 50 pics of yourself would be Photography

You Should Date A Japanese Guy!

You're an interesting blend of traditonal and modern And a Japanese guy is likely to be on your wavelength Maybe you'll show your love by dying your hair the same color Or get married in a traditional white kimono!

href="Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

yay !! jap ! jap !! ((:

went to my su gongs house today ! hahaha the yummy bagua place ! and nice jelly also. with all the friendly gugus. i think its one of my favourite houses. the bagua is so thick and soft and yummy. ((:


and i saw my hairy boy. hahaha sheesh ! hes so big now ! and hes not actually hairy anymore. bit hes so cute . and he looks jap ! hahaha. japs rock !


today was muchmuch nicer with my loong nap last night. hahahaha. (:

oh help. I just woke up and its 11.56pm.


this year i didnt enjoy chinese new year as much as i should have because i was SO sleepy ! haha. i just wanted to go back into the car and sleep. haha. the best place was my dayi's house which had AIRCON ! haha. and the food was great too ! u like the other houses which had limited variety. theres like this enormous ba bao he thingish full of suanmei ! although i only ate one kind. haha. its so nice and ive never seen it anywhere else ! some purple flower thing. and the boy was really cute ! haha.

emaths is so strange ! with all the shearing and stretching anf enlargement i feel like a computer. microsoft powerpoint to be exact.

went out with my primary school friends yesterday. oh man i miss them ! being with them and my sc friends are like so different. oh sheesh it was rad. we had long john's and we went to coffee bean. haha. of course in between we spent like forever deciding where to go. OH SHEESH SHI MIN IS LIKE SO TALL ?

and then weilin wanted to play a game where everytime we see someone we know we get the person to take a group photo for us. so anyway. hahaha.


we watched memoirs of a geisha ! haha it was pretty good. (: and the little girl was so pretty/cute ! she looked a little like gongli/zhang zi yi [ i cant remember who i thought of] and most importantly the show was JAP ! hahaha. yayness.

i finished my CMW essay. like finally. it was so stupid and retarded i cant believe i handed it in !!

and happy new year to you too !! (:

OH SHEESH ! i think i pms. anyway. im like SO annoyed now. bahh.


pray for my ss test !

ok apprantly zoe wants me to do this. hahaha.

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
other functions of the phone. if the.. [hahaha. thats my 6111 user guide thing]

2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
and ?

3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?
JIEKUAN ! hahaha. but on the comp it would be DICKY.

4. Without looking, guess what time it is:
11.30

5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
11.37. haha. man !

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my sister's tv.

7. When did you last step outside?
6.50. hahaha. BEE ASS EFF. ew the teacher was so naggy alright !

8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
haha.zoe's answers la.

9. What are you wearing?
some ugly racer back [which i ditched about two years ago but decided to wear under my jacket] and jeans. and my watch. and my hair. hyuk.

10. Did you dream last night?
yea i guess. i dont remember it though. once i dreamt that i went to cambodia and some prison warden sneaked me out of prison to see matai. haha. it was during war.

11. When did you last laugh?
hahahaha. when i saw koki's poopoo picture.

12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
blank.

13. Seen anything weird lately?
my phones acting strangly ! eh it better be ok. i dont want a cranky phone.

14. What do you think of this quiz?
haha. shush !

15. What is the last film you saw?
CON i think. haha that was eons ago but the white witch was SO COOL !

16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
personally i think millions isnt enough. what about billions ? anyway. of course my samsung d600, 500c and 300 all together. if jingxuans nice to me i might just give her one. i'll buy the osims igallop thing for everyone in the world and we can all show off our flat tummies ! (: of course my beautiful island. and another special desert island free from insects for me to stay in and eat coconuts everyday. but i wont get fat becuase i'll be running on the beach and swimming with sharks. and if they try to bite me i will cut off their fins. (: bm coupe for my sister. loads of lovely clothes and heck, whatever you want i will buy for you. (:

17. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
i can get really annoyed by ignorance. even though im not very smart myself !

18. If you could change one thing about the world,
poor counties will be less poor. at least have enough to eat everyday and send their children to school. and they will all have a change to hear about the gospel.

19. Do you like to dance?
no becuase i suck at it. if i were better then, YES DUDE !

20. George Bush.
wowhee. beautiful blue eyes and red streaked hair. (:

21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
jermaine or allision or.. aiyah. go look at my name book

22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
ditto.

23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
YES DUDE! haha. japan and america and cambodia and england and taiwan[for yummy food]

.24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"i was naked and you clothed me, i was hungry and you gave me something to eat..." that of course means i lived and a nice and Godly and loving life.

25. 4 people who must also do this in THEIR journal.
1. RUTH
2. whoever wants to
3. whoever wants to
4. oh shush.

sheesh i dont like chem prac ! at first it was pretty exciting but now i think im just so sick of it. and my hands a so groosly shakey ! i keep spilling the power especially ! i think its psycological la. but becuase i should be able to ! gr. and i keep spilling sodium hydeoxide which is gross and soapy. [but thankfully not ammonia which is so smelly ! ]


so anyway. the ammonia gas is smelly enough, but today we had to do liquid ammonia ! i swear i was just walking around the bench capping the stupid bottle. gr. i can even smell smmonia vaguely now !

my so called diet has been a total failure ! in fact i think i have been eating more than i ever have been. i thank God for my foresight, so that i bought a pregnant looking dress which totally hides my tummy ! ((: i believe theres power in words. im going to be as thin as kahlen. but just someday, but soon !


haha. sheesh i love my new phone ! hahaha. its so bootiful and lovely ! haha. i have been 'practising' the sliding on my imaginary 6111/samsung D600/500c since last monday ! haha. thats how much i was looking forward to getting it.


((:

HAHAHA im SO happy ! haha im so happy i could scream !!

wouldnt you !?

service today was great ! haha. and belle joy went ! i thought she wouldnt.


anyway. pastor jennifer preached today [HAHA she was so funny]. about watching out tongue ! haha it was so apt. i dont know she she made me realise how super much i sin with my tongue. and i mean its geting worse and worse ! and your tongue reflects your heart so you can kinda say my heart was brown an icky. [i say used becuase today God cleansed my heart !] ((:


so from now on i resolve to:

1. stop gossiping
2. stop gossiping. [hard]
3. stop being sarcastic [very hard]
4. stop complaing [quite hard]
5. be nice and encouring to those around me !
6. pronouce my th and say thee instead of the before vowels

ok 6 has no relevances whatsoever but it is related to my tongue and anyway it is gonna help me do well for my oral.

looking forward to tomorrow . hope it works out ! ((:

oh man you better not dissapear ! i will be very sad i promise.

finally completed my new year shopping ! haha. sheesh im so tired. and my clothes make me look fat. but i dont care since im already so damn freaking fat. ah well.


WAH SHIT JASMIN'S WATER STORY IS SUPER HILARIOUS. HAHAHAHAHA.

oh. i think i might be getting my 6111 ! samsung D500c costs a freaking 500 according to jing xuan, and my mum wont buy it for me. haha. still its nice of her to get me a new fone. YAYNESS !

im supposed to be on a diet but i ate four cookies today. haha that seriously sucks. and my entire house smells of baking cookies which isnt helping much.


i cant believe i forgot about the before new year baking when i resolved to diet until chinese new year ! anyhow. i still have to look nice in my clothes. so the diet stays. i hope


ok i just had beef kuey tiao from geylang. i think my so called diet has been flushed down the toilet bowl.


today during CE [supposedly CME without the M. ] some people from i cant remember where came to give us a talk. haha. it was some sports organisation for the disabled. it was really cool ! haha. especially the game for the blind. haha. i thought it was damn smart to put a bell in the ball for them. i shall try it some day ! who wants to play with me ? only of course we're gonna to end up crashing into each other. BUT THATS WHERE THE FUN IS, DUDE !


ok. i kinda want to go and do my cip there. like on a weekly basis. but then im swayed really esaily so we'll just see how it goes ! oh. and this 100m record holder guy talked to us to ! hahaha. it was so funny becuase he kept laughing at mrs neo. and then he was so freaking nervous when he had to talk to us ! haha. and when he said how old he was nearly the entire school went 'oooooo' HAHAHA.

i like miss beh because she bought me ice cream. (:

in the tuxedo yesterday jennifer love hewitt had beautiful hair. however if you looks closely you'll notice her fringe curls outwards, kinda the way mine does. although i know my hair is never going to become a beauty like hers, that is rather comforting . (:


today during pe we had to run for ten minutes. we[jia yun ting wei and I] only did seven rounds. but thats ok becuase we were going really slowly. sheesh i havent exercised its ages ! ok i keep saying that. this just shows i suck[ok find i dont. becuase i just rock too much !]. anyway. my stamina is just about the same, if not maybe worse. or better. i cant remember. haha. but i got tired around the 7th round. which sucks. when i told jia yun she was chiding me. oh man 1 what a friend ! kidding.


i think thomas ong in ai de zhang men ren is damn sweet. haha. its sad i know i'll never get a boyfriend like that. especially if hes jap.

21 jan.


yea man ! cant wait ! ((:

SHEET i hate my hair ! its already like SO GROSS in school. imagine it maybe a gazillion times worse. sheesh ! why cant it grow faster ? bahh. sheesh. i hate it hate it !!


oh a brighter note. haha. we sang YOU ARE today ! yayness. it was like the first song and i was so happy to hear it. (((:

friday, 13th jan.


finally had pe after i think eons. haha. i love the pok shit weighing machine, i lost 1.1kg ! i think all my muscles turned into fat. not surprising since ive been eating like a freaking pig and NOT exercising. i wish sc had those fat percentage thingy. haha. NO FAIR.


jing xuan i hate you ok ! haha you just had to announce my weight the everyone ! not that it matters, but i cant believe you got that random weight correct ! haha. BE MY GODMA


i hate the measuring tape thingy in the wall. i didnt grow ! grr. i know im supposed to be grateful for everything but i hate my grossly gross shortness and my stumpy legs. i only hope its INACCURATE[like the weighing machine] .


sheesh. why do maths teachers always tell me i look tired ?

went shopping today. with jing xuan and jia yun. hyuk. i got my skirt ! only i went home and read the receipt and it turns out to be a dress. so its a tube dress and my boobs are too teeny to hold it up ! haha i bet you a million bucks its gonna fall if i jump.


jing xuans a freaking bra saleswoman. ONLY FOR THE BOOBLESS. [which means smaller than mine. ] HAHAHAHA.


kae ting and i were learning jap. hyuk . a-i-u-e-o. i can now write KOKI. hahaha. sheesh my jap sucks. no matter how i write it just looks weird. never ever like jap. bahh. i swear it has something to do with my inability to draw.

OH SHIT LESSONS !


yes i know they started ages ago. BUT STILL ! im still completing my homework in time but it better last ! i also need to study since im still wasting my afternoons away. gr. sec 4. freakish o levels.


im going SHOPPING ! ((:

i resolve not to study properly until after chinese new year. ba gua and pineapple tarts. WOWHEE.

haha today was a great day ! it was basically so cold you dont wanna do anything. although i DID do stuff. about two vcds of Dicky cheung ! rocks doesnt it ?

wah lao. stupid dvd player died on me just as i was watching my dicky cheung. and it only got as far as the theme song ! gr. now my vcds stuck inside. bahh. i wanna watch ! freaking player.

yayness i went shopping today ! hahaha. finally after i think. eons. didnt get anything much. spent most of my time at far east looking for the hairband/rubberband shop. and the clothes my sister like. they are seriously made only for people with like. kahlen's figure. sheesh ! i need some serious dieting ! only of course its never gonna happen. especially after i had meepok, 2 enormous cookies, ice cream and like. half a packet of jackfruit chips today. that of course, doesnt include meals.


i like this forever 21 skirt ! haha my sisters think its damn gross. but i must [quote tamago] 'change my image !' hahaha. i just want to try something different. my shoppings never going to get done ! and my sisters already finished ! [now you dont wonder why i have like. just a few tops, and jeans every week].


you know how i keep saying marcus and jon chan are so damn old. and i thought they were 18 and 24 respectively, and they turned out to be 25 and 31 ? [oh look. but the age difference is damn accurate ! hahaha] anyway. i just found this[click] and oh sheesh they look so young !

yay it sat and church rocks ! haha. pastor glenn gave belle joy the maddac fest shirt ! haha SO UNFAIR i want one too ! its SO nice ok ! but it was out of stock. bahh.


belle joy got chicken pox ! and shes recovering so she has a phua chu kang mole. HAHA. i think its like the only time i get to see her with less-than-flawless skin. haha. she took a photo for me ! yes belle joy rocks. except for the fact shes freaking BIASED ! sheesh !


it was raining so hard we cabbed to church. hahaha. we made belle joy pay. and she even had to pay for jonchua ! merry christmas belle joy !


pressing onward,
pushing every hindrence aside.
only for You
'cos i want to know You more.

yay the first weekend of the year ! [last week isnt counted because school only started this week].


on the way to the bus stop jing xuan, zoe and I were trying to communicate in canto. hahaha. it was super hilarious since we can hardly say anything ! like 'i dont know you' would become 'ngor mm ji dou lei hai bing gor' sheesh ! then i was trying to say 'gun kai' [hang hoi] but it came out as ha-HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA hoi.


todays a great day because i saw SHOI KOKI KENTO ! yayness ! kentos so freaking dao. haha koki was SO SHY but shoi was surprisingly friendly ! haha. hes voice is so lowww. hee.

photocopying worksheets nearly killed me today.


actually im photocopying them now. with my scanner. and its taking eons ! so while i wait for my scanner, which i taking its time to print each individual worksheet, i figured i might as well go online now, so idont have to do it tonight ! so now im pretending its at night. hurhur.


todays the first day with official lessons. i think i lost like a gazillion worksheets. the ones they gave us after exams last year. [so you can see its totally not my fault] anyhow, the teachers seem quite nice. even the chinese woman seemed to have put some effort in preparing for ther lessons ! the english person is also not as annoying as i expected. in fact shes actually quite nice ! maybe i shall do well in english.


during chinese we were given this survey to fill in. and the last questions was something how to make students be more interested during chinese lesson. HAHA TO YOU WOMAN !

schools back ! haha it sucks. well not really but i got a headache from waking too early. hope i'll get used to it. dont wanna waste my entire year of afternoons sleeping again ! haha. maybe i will. i seem to study better at night ! (:


i think i kinda missed them ! haha. surpeisingly i didnt see them much during the holidays ! infact i didnt even see jiayun once. anyhow we just sat around and chatted. haha sheesh i cant believe its our last year ! haha. kae ting, zoe, jing xuan and me plan to set up a band ! hahaha. kae ting's vocalist. jing xuans drummer, zoes bassist and im guitarist cum keyboardist. hahaha. sheesh its been a loong time since we just sat around and talked nonsense like that ! just like our hotel dream !of course thats never gonna happen since none of us can do all those. except maybe kaeting who can sing ! [duh].


this year im sitting next to jingxuan so perhaps shes gonna influnce me to study harder. haha. I WANT TAMAGO LAI BEHIND ME ! [wow michelle. you should be crying tears of joyyyy] and sheet all our good teachers are gone ! except maybe jeow who was bluffing us he wasnt going to teach us ANYMORE. sheet i hate mrs n**h and so stupid fake accent. it annoys me like crazy i hope shes at least a good teacher and i pass me lit/english. bahh.

today as a way of mourning for the end of the holidays, i spent the entire day in my pajamas ! hahaha. i have no idea why i just decided not to change out. since its the last day. i brought my bolster with me whereever i went too ! sheesh !


anyhow. school tomorrow ! heres the list of things i must finish before school ends:

meepok gan, guo tiao gan, meefen, chicken patty, horfan, madonna boobs , mee rebus, fries, that potatoe thing, qingteng and all the other yummy stuff !


yayness. i wonder what im having for recess tomorrow. thats just about the only thing im looking forward too ! sheet i hate all you j3s out there. except maybe the guys. HAHA.

happy new year !


went to church this morning. i cant believe i managed to wake up ! hahaha. credits to my sister. eunice was leading worship oh goodness.


had another barbeque and the marshmellows are GONE. haha. sheet they were so yummy !


oh yes. i might be getting a new phone. and a new number [my own. so its final. i promise] soon ! WOWHEE.

is it just me, or does my towel, bolster and several other stuffs smell of barbeque ?


I wanna go to the esplanade !
just to catch "the last band who played at the esplanade in 2005, and the first band who played there in 2006"

happy new year !


sheesh ! its 2006 already ! may the olevels never come. ):


watched CON today. haha. i didnt think it was that good. i mean i only got intersted at the back. like the last 45mins or so. before that i was realylreally bored. like my sister said, the children were really mean to each other ! even lucy ! and shes so young. and being in Narnia as king and queens for about twenty years didnt even change them one bit. sheesh.


oh but the white witch was reallyreally cool ! especially when she 'killed' edmund. long live the queen ! (:


had some barbecue for my brothers birthday. haha i think im damn pro at doing satays la. hahaha.


normally at this time of the year i'd be doing new year resolutions. but they arent any since i never ever keep them. just, run the race well i guess. and be a salt and light to the world. ((:


oh. no shoutouts too. cos im lazy. maybe later. (:

SHOIKOKISETHPIERCEKENTO. ((:

OHGOODNESS. i should have known something was wrong when i received an email from kenny that was ment for his poly cell.

Attached is the Gathering of the Peas (Poly Cell) Worship Roster for Januaryto March 2006.Please view it and changes will be made by monthly basis.

There will be guest guitarists and a worship leader as stated in the roster accordingly.Reason for the guest guitarists is to expose them to cell worship as part oftheir ongoing training.



30 Mar Julian[worship leader] SuMin / Jun Lynn [Guest Guitarist]


im a freaking guest guitarist ! ok if you think about it like that it sounds damn cool right. i mean guest guitarist ? its as thought people specially invited you to go play for them[though of course this isnt the case]. but im so lousy ! i mean how can you worship when theres some weird guitarist who pauses everytime she changes the chord. and cant strum nicely. poly cell somemore ! im going to get despised for life !

the nails on my left hand are short, but those on my right are freaking long ! HAHA. thats so gay.


today i figured [note its figured not learnt] how to play G7 and A7. and now im checking it on the site and ITS CORRECT ! haha. well. A7 is. the page is still loading. but anyway. IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF ! hahaha. oh hang on. the page loaded. and its correct too ! WOWHEE.


haha i sound so overly-excited. sheesh !


zoe was so funny doing the crystal ball last night? HAHA. who wants to know her questions ! [memememe !]

i very very nearly got birks today.


sheesh ! so pissed ! i cant believe they didnt have my size ! and i missed being able to wear childrens shoes by about. two sizes. pissed !


oh well. as my sister said. i didnt go round thinking about it the whole day [like my skirt] so i guess i dont love the design that much. i think i shall wait for the new designs. [a freaking 3-4 months !] i guess it will be nicer. ah well.


went for jap dinner. ILOVEJAP. haha super freaking yummy ! especially deep impact. WOWHEE.


ps. yesterday was NOT my birthday !

SO loooking forward to new year.(:

today is my birthday ! hahaha. sheesh. the things i used to do. last night i was reading my blog. as in the first month's entries. oh goodness talk about embarrassment. i think im never going to be those people who die on their deathbed telling their grandchildren [or chidren] they lived a lovely life, and never regretted one thing they did. sadly theres always too many things i want to erase. small things, yes. but still. pretty much stuff i wish didnt happen.


ah well. at least its only been 15years. ive the rest of my life to live huh. better do something about it.


zoe REALLY wishes she can come to the new year partee [actually my brothers brithday celebration] on new years eve. hur. you'd think she wanted to come see me. or at least even to have yummy food. [such as roasted marshmellows. from the class chalet !] but NO ! its neither ! no mention of even wanting to see me ! talk about zhong se qing you.


hm i think i want to blog more at my xanga. more. varity. [even spellcheck !!] oh wells.

will i ever be able to lose what the holiday gave forced upon me ?

Merry Christmas !


haha this chirstmas was pretty great ! despite having to wake up at 6.25 in the morning. and feeling sleepy the entire day. i think i mostly enjoyed myself. ((: haha. with the church services and photographs and bonding with my cousins. i think i havent seen them since chinese new year ! and of course one of the things that totally MADE this christmas: turkey !! haha i kept eating and eating i think my cousin thought i was a freaking pig. haha. she kept asking me why i kept on eating. LOL. but hey i can help it alright ? its just tootoo yummy.


the musical was great ! haha. this time piers didnt even say he was three. haha. i bet he was too sleepy. and the actors were so high in the morning ! lol. haha. and the choir sang christmas carols ! WOWHEE. taking photographs was great too. i took it artaban ! in his old man costume. and then of course with ALL the cast and crew and some choir members. haha so many people were taking photos i felt like some star ! (: didnt get to take with hassan though. before i could catch him he peeled off his beard. ah well.


oh i tried learning the guitar from my cousin. haha i think he thinks I SUCK. ah well. hes good though. made me feel depressed again. haha. one of those im-never-gonna-be-able-to-play-so-well feelings.


I LOVE MY SISTER ! haha. AND BROTHER ! haha. sheesh i cant stand her. she ALWAYS gets the right thing ! haha im so touched. so got me a bible ok ! if you remember [and i bet you dont] i lost it at church camp. and i was so freaking depressed ! but now i have a pretty, new bible ! although its gonna be rather inconvinent, since all my highlighed stuffs are gone, and theres no index [i never memorise the books. jsut the position of the index ! haha.] THEY RAWK !


haha lastly. i love seth. and piers. haha. seth used to be so fierce. haha. my sister 'won him over by taking his picture' [quote jiejie] and i think i kinda miss them. along with CHOIR ! . i cant believe its all over now. ):

Merry christmas ! (:


its gonna be a great one this year. with the musical and food and parties. i know! especially since its TURKEY DAY. but then again. we must always remember christmas ! its always so touching to remember that jesus came to the earth to die. FOR US !

"and he was despised and rejected by men, pierced for our trangressions, ...the iniquity of us all !"


haha. anyway. this sounds pretty good friday-ish. but we nearly never remember how much pain He went through. i was reminded of it suddenly. and GOSH. its just so touching.


and also i noticed how God always answers prayers. even though its so tiny and you dont really take the prayer seriously. just something really short and then forgotten. but yet. if you would think back. i think you realised God answered it.


sheesh I thank God for jesus. im feeling really happy now. just thinking about it. (:

ilovepiers ! sheesh hes sooooo cute ! haha he gave me two honey stars. (: seriously i didnt wanna eat them !


i know you are sick of hearing this. but the musical seriously rocked today ! the actors remember ALL their lines ! wowhee. they rawk. [they even bought us presents ! (:] and the audience all laughed at the right times. haha. unlike yest they seriously laughed at everything ! lol. hannah was so funny ! she was sitting right in front so i was watching her when hassan came out, she jumped out of her seat ! haha sheesh ! i was laughing on stage. and the girl next to me was staring at me.


oh. and I COULDNT FIND ALL MY FRIENDS sheesh. maybe they were all avoiding me. but anyway. i only managed to give out ONE present today. to tab. sighsigh.


oh. and before service was SO embarrassing ! haha because my mum wanted us to save her seats. but obviously we couldnt. so when we went for choir at 6.10 there were already people queueing !! and i was like. hey my friend is there ! and my sister decided that i should get him to help me save seats.. quick wave ! haha so i had to turn around and wave !! and then ask him to help me save seats. SO EXTRA !! and the best part is that my mum arrived at 7.10, just when the queue reached the hawker centre, and just walked in through the door. !!!

sheesh im so happy the musical went well ! praise the Lord ! haha. it was SO crowded today people were standing ! and they laughed more. ((((:


piers is SO CUTE ! hahaha. sheesh. today i asked him how old he was. and he said two and three. and then after the show i asked him again. and he said "just two !" HAHA so cute !! and he talks to me now. less dao !


oh. there were people taking pictures with the actors after the musical ! WOWHEE. im SO. gonna do it. not so weird anymore !! ((((((:

got this from nat who got this got frankie who got this from michelle


http://media.spikedhumor.com/8944/Jingle_Bells_Reversed.swf

put your ear next to the speaker and stare at the sound waves. hard.

Based on the drawing and the 10 answers they gave this is a summary of their personality:Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

http://www.drawahouse.com/takethetest/index.asp?street=8bc1bfee141a9427bb09e3052479a788 [click]

spent my entire day baking. YOUR christmas present ! haha. well actually it wasnt really baking. cos i finished that really quickly. it was mainly the decorating. grr. i got so freaking pissed ok. the piping bag kept leaking. and i was so amazed when i found out i had no problem piping icing suger into lovely patterns. then the freaking bag starting leaking ! and the icing refused to come out. so i switched to a proper piping bag. [i was using a plastic bag] but that didnt work too. grr. SO LOSERISH rightt.


i got so freaking pissed and i had to practically PAINT the decoration using chopsticks. [my maid thought of that. quite smart huh.]


none of you can laugh when you get it ! otherwise i might just bite yr head off. my sweat and blood i do until wanna die ok. thats why the last few are so ugly.


oh. i wanna test my xanga. so pictures here

THE PREVIEW SHOW THE PREVIEW SHOW ! yayness. im so happy it went well. although some actors forgot their lines. but ! its gonna get better and better !


haha it was so tiring standing there. perce [however you spell it] said he was three again ! haha. after the show I wanted to go up to him and ask his age. sheesh HES SO CUTE ! and his sister too ! ((:


jon chan thinks my sister is the canteen vendor. who his mum buys bao from everyday. HAHA.

Leftover Pie tastes yummy ! haha note its Leftover Pie and not leftover Pie.


ok this sounds stupid. i should delete it. [yes i just did. HAHA.]


ITS TONIGHT ITS TONIGHT ! goodluck to my back. and shoulders.

erjie ! i lost my pearl !

*guitar stum*
God of truth and light [oh what have i done !]
ive lost this gift or pearl] of mine [and my sould cannot bear it ! ]

RANDOM.

i always thought it was freaking pro to play the guitar until yr fingers bleed. i mean its like. a stage the super pro guitarists went through. but for me, i just sit there and play and play until my fingers hurt so much the chords dont come out properly. then i have to stop. --no bleeding involved. THATS SO SAD AND UNCOOL !! )):


i need to start sending christmas cards. but im too lazy. heh. i keep thinking 'heck with the christmas cards this year' but then i feel so guity becuase people all over are asking for my address. sighsigh. you might not be receiving cards from me this year ok ? but i still love you alot and want to wish you merry christmas. (: of course of you go watch the musical and i know yr going you get a small present from me (: also if i meet you anywhere during the holidays before yr present rots. hur. if not then. TOO BAD.


oh i thanked jon chan for his autograph today. sheesh it was SO EXTRA ! i cant believe it did it. haha.

clickclick.

hm i woke up so early today ! for guitar class but i was still late anyway. haha. it wasnt really my fault though. i had to wait for my breakfast. [my mum and dad went to the market]


hm we had the christmas party today ! I SWEAR THAT GUY AT CAMP LOOKS LIKE JON CHUA. haha. seriously. i cant wait to get the photo ! maybe they are longlost brothers/cousins like belle joy said.


we played marlaky ! haha. ive been wanting to play it since forever. but it wasnt so fun today. haha. so we played muffia. haha. SO FUN. tamago SUCKS being gamemaster ok !! aside from all the stuff she does [or doesnt do] she presses the head damn hard la. so when you 'tapped' belle joy i could feel the entire sofa bounce. sheesh !


hur i dont know what to say already la. my train of thoughts was interupted. anyway it was fun. and tamago enjoyed herself. yayness.


OH. hannah was so funny when she saw jon chan ! she screamed so loudly everyone started at her. HAHA.

choir makes me fat. haha. i fiond i eat the most fattening things at night ! thats badbad. im supposed to be calling zoe now. but its 11.35 and i dont dare to. and her handphone with free incoming is in taiwan ! haha man i feel so mean.


LALALALA. my hair was so gross today. so i tied it up and went to church looking freaking ugly. bahh. i wish i didnt say hi to hannah. :/

just managed to get through today without snacking. but then everything was ruined the moment i came home from church. gr.


i miss running. ): gr i wish i were better. be one of those people who can run for like. an hour or 45mins and not get tired. ah well.


went for the musical thing today. [sheesh i dont know what to call it] haha they were doing all the technical stuff i think i was SO EXTRA ! i wanted to stay at home and watch wu chu cai hong ok. but anyway i got to watch more of it. haha i cant wait ! it looks better with all the lighting. i really hope God uses this to touch moremore people ! (((:


oh when we just went it they were doing mike test. meaning adjusting the volume for each person's mike. so they had to go up and say their loudest line, softest line, a normal line and sing a bit. so the person asked hassan to come on stage to do his lines. and belinda was like, "master ! master... master ? MASTER ! master!?"

HAHAHA.

i can assure you. you're never gonna find me selling flags for cip hours again. aside from the fact i got my cip hours for the year, i realised even helping out at sgh is a much better choice ! sheesh i cant believe it was so stupid. was so sianish selling flags today. haha. ting wei and I slacked a little. :/


ohoh ! i got a reply ! i mean the letter i sent to the forum. from tammy tan. directer of SBS transit ltd. WOWEE. talka bout exciting ! ((:


you know last night before i went to sleep i was going to wash my face, but realised i left my facial soap downstairs. so i used my old facial soap, which happened to be mint flavoured [?] OH THE BURN ! THE BURN !

sheesh no one wants to talk to me ! oh fine. not anymore. but i had to say hi first !


hm had guitar class. joshua came ! oh wow so exciting. hur. yes i was strongly advised to cut my nails. :/


ohoh. you mustmust go watch the musical !! haha. if you cant make it theres a preveiw show. 21st dec [wed] 7pm i think. haha i dont know what else to say. jon chan was superr funny today. HAHA.


I DIDNT GET TO SEE MY SHOI !! NOT EVEN KENTO AND FREAKING ERYO DOESNT REMEMBER MEEEEE. grrr.

i feel like drinking milo. ): only its 11.35pm now and i just had bread and kaya. [yumyumyum.] hm. several years ago i had no idea bread and kaya would be such a treat. hur.


CHECK OUT TODAYS FORUM !! haha. my sister says i should clarify. its HOMEWORK. if not everyone will think ive nth better to do. and it was done by ting wei and me !! yea we rawk.


i hate myself for being so lousy. grrr. i seriously need to start exercising ! getting fat dude. hm. my face hurts when i try to stretch it. random. haha.


sigh friends is over. it seems like i have been in my sisters room watching friends every holiday since forever ! and yet last night we reached the end of season ten !! NO FAIR NO FAIR ! haha. i decided [or realised] my favourite is joey. <33333>chandler. mr beng [i can spell both mr and beng.] then rachel because shes pretty. [she used to be my favourite. becuase shes pretty]


IM GOING TO SEE SHOI TOMORROW !! i love dreamsss !!

i have no idea what has been filling up my days lately. haha lifes so. should i say meaningless? well it isnt but maybe empty. hurhur. ok thats just a random thought. i havent really been shopping/studying/reading/cip-ing/doing anything interesting lately and thats sad. only three weeks or so left ! gr. i seriously have to go do some shopping. ):


i think im like permernatly hungry. gr. oh for all you know that could have been my stomach ! anyways. ive been eating like crazy and im going to be freaking fat when i go back to school. try not to laugh to much will you. sigh. i need to exercise regularly ! it sucks i keep forgetting to. hurhur.


haha i want to watch the musical ! everything looks so nice. haha i should have joined the choir. kidding. everyone looked so weird with make up today. haha. artaban had red and white wrinkles ! (((:

i have a xanga and its not only for protected entries i decided. haha. go tag. here. i think the username so totally sucks ! haha i was desperate.


went to newton for supper !! haha it was rad. sheet i love eating. we had erm baby squid [good], sambal stingray [good], hokkien mee [good] and satay [good] . haha sheesh fatness. it can all go and die.


i havent been to church for two weeks !
i havent been to coos for two weeks !
i havent been to coos services for two weeks!
i havent been to coos's sat service for two weeks !

hur.

UHHH BITCH !


oh im sorry. i just reallyreally wanted to say that. haha. i have a xanga now. its empty and i'll probably only use it for private posts but you may still go and comment and tell me how much i rawk. yea right. who am i kidding.

yay today was a busybusy dayy. i was so freaking tired i fell asleep on a public bus. and i was alone. and i didnt know the way.


went to sgh to do cip. haha i fufilled several childhood dreams ! haha. there was endless chopping, endles stapling and endless tearing. oh paradise ! hurhur. and i also entered room with signs like "staff only" and "ONLY AUTORISED PERSONEL" and staffs toilets with passwords required !


i felt so damn freaking pro dilivering files to the doctors. only it got a little more complicated when we had to take out files. haha the nurse in room5 hates me i swear. according to ting wei shes always like that. :/


went to church. they kept us till nearly 11 ! haha tingwei i can memorise all the songs already ! i tried to see if i could today. just bits and peices there ! anyhows. the musicals looking better and better ! even though half the casts were missing. not sure about the choir though. rather inconsistant. hur. hope we dont screw up !! [pray for us !]


during the practice i was so bored ok ! haha. my sister was reading and reading and i could just sit there and stare at the actors. haha hassans bag is falling apart i hope it will survive the end of the musicals. [i hope more they will get a new bag but then it will be a waste]


oh wells. going to see shoi tomorrow ! provided i can wake up in time.

HAHA zoe is so funny ! im like making up a whole load of shit and shes believing everything ! hahaha. its hilarious i tell you./ im sitting here laughing at my screen.


i bought my picks ! yesterday. haha. i now pity everyone within a 10m radius around me. haha. firstly i suck. and with the pick [which is too hard] my flaws are magnified. as it no longer hurts my fingers, it play much louder, and longer. and its totally gross ! HAHA. also, i enjoy sitting on the sofa strumming, with a thoughtful expression on my face. HAHAHA i think i look damn pro doing that. (((:

today is tuesday, 6th december.


went for my guitar class today. haha it was so boring ! and so quiet i think the kenny person [thats our teacher] was dying. oh wells. i learnt how to strum. haha actually its pretty hard. i mean if you try to strum it with real songs. well he never really taught us how to. so maybe it will be easier on sat ?


i felt so stupid carrying my guiter to church today. hurhur. first im not used to it. and unlike certain guitar players winkwink i do not look cool with the black thing on my back ! and it doesnt help that the freaking guitar is taller than me. so anyway. it could bear with all of for the sake of learning the guitar and hopefully looking a little cooler afterwards. but then before i left the house me mum stopped me. apprantly the pharmacist told her i have to avoid the sun. and she made me carry an umbrella. imagine how extremely retarded I looked [and felt] with a guitar, taller than me, on my back , carrying a blue foldable umbrella protecting me not from the rain, but the 3.30 sun. bahh! everytime someone walked past i would carefully arrange the umbrella so that it covered not only the sun, but my face.


today i seemed to keep seeing jon chan whereever i went ! so suay. gr.


most importantly:

THE OTHER WISEMAN
23&24 Dec : 7.30pm
25 Dec 8.30 & 11am


must go must go ! it looks really good ok ! and most importantly, im in it !! yes go and support me [hurhur] and bring all your friends ! theres a preshow preview if yr not free. but i cant remember when. anyway. the shows going to be really interesting. and its pretty touching. and if it interests you in any way, jon chan from sonic edge is in it ! he plays quite a major role since hes nearly always with the lead actor. so gogogo !

got this from: zoe
the ones in red are the ones that apply to me and the strikeouts are wayy of.

i have a cell phone.
i have friends that use me.
i am an only child.
i love dangly earrings
i love cold weather.
i'm obsessed with the computer.
i have shot a gun before.
i can't live without music.
i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
i have ridden on a motorcycle before.
i'll be in this town forever.
i've been to 5 other countries.
i get annoyed easily.
i eventually want kids.
i have neat handwriting.
i have more than a few horrible memories.
i am addicted to chocolate.
i am an atheist.
i love airplane rides.
i love taking pictures.
i hate people who are fake.
i can be mean when i want to. what about very
my parents care about my grades.
one of my best friends is a girl.
i have way too many wallets. i wish.
i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
i am easy to talk to.
i would never eat raw fish.
i cry easily.
i hate when people are late. especially when they go on and on about being on time.
i procrastinate.
i love winter.
i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. oh how i wish.
i love to sleep.
i wish i were smarter
i'm afraid of flying.
i hate drama.
i bite my nails.
i have been on an 8 hour drive.
i never fight with my parents.
i love the beach.
i have never had the chicken pox.
i have gone out in public in my pajamas.
i can't control my emotions.
i have a best friend.
i have moved more than once.
i truly love my friends.
i have (had) braces. never gonna happen.
i have never broken a bone.
i hate my computer.
i love girls that play the drums.
i state the obvious.
i'm a happy person. well. mostly.
i love to dance
.i love to sing.
i love cleaning my room.
i tend to get jealous very easily.
i love cute underwear.
i like night better than day.
i don't like to study for tests. redder!
i have been on the phone for over 5 hours.
i am too forgiving. again, how i wish.
i have horrible sense of direction.
i miss elementary school.
i'm a daddy's boy/girl.
i love the color pink.
i love to sew.
my eye color changes.
i should see a therapist.
i played on a guys sports team.
i become stressed easily.
i hate/detest liars.
i love the smell of rain.
i love my family.
i hate needles.
i am a perfectionist. low c! low c!
i always wanted to learn to play the drums.
i hate the feeling of failure.
i have friends in other countries.
i know how to cook.
i can be quite selfish.
at times, i still act like a little kid.
i have food allergies.
i love to read. sometimes.
i wish i were more motivated for school. a whole load more.
i love getting stuff in the mail.
i have problems with letting go of old feelings.
i hate being alone.
i love summer.
i love the weekends.
i love black eyeliner.
i think I'm a looker.
i type with one hand.
i live in a one story house.
i wear make-up.
i have never rode on an underground subway.
i can't swim.
i have bad memories.
i go to church.
i sing in the shower.
i hate cheerleaders.
i usually get what i want.
i have been on stage before duh.
i love roller coasters.
no one knows the full story of my life.
i am close to my parents.
i don't have a curfew

me: oh look ! this soap is transparent ! so pretty ! [simple facial cleaning bar]
my maid: yea. keep washing yr face with it and yr face will be like that -- clear.


oh goodness my maid is so lame ! I nearly died i tell you.


ps. what happened to the sonic edge site ?

yay im back im back ! im so happy i get to bathe in hawt water again. the one at camp was freaking cold. unlike radiate! where there were heaters !


haha i tell you i felt so freaking extra ! i was like the only person from coos in the entire camp ? the best days were the 2nd and last becuase i felt a sense of belonging. it was so cool becuase all the churches took turns to lead worship during service. obviously except mine. but actually no. because my church came to play !! and in my opinion it was, obviously, the bestest. coos rocks ! haha. it was so annoying when everyone was calling coos cruise/c-o-s. i was like. sheesh ! and they called fever05 fever100. hurhur.


it was pretty exciting ! haha . my group rocks.. in its own way. i guess we can be pretty enthu if we want to. even if its only the girls. we played shi zi lu kuo ! and the 100sec no ng thing. haha. seriously ive always wanted to try shi zi lu kuo. but maybe it isbnt so fun wuth the budget and without the car. hahaha. i was seriously ripping stuff from the Dicky episode. which i think i watched a gazillion times.

haha there were so many lookalikes in the camp. one or two wernt really lookalike but kinda reminded me of certain people. so its counted. haha. anyway. here was this person who looked like jonchua !! i seriously thought he was jonchua. i almost said hi ! haha so anyway i later realised he wasnt and on the last day [today] belle joy came and almost said hi to him too ! asnd jonchua wouldnt believe that there was a lookalike. so belle joy was trying to get me to take a photo. obviously it was so stupid. but anyway my friend happened to take a picture of he and his friends. out convo went sth like that.

me: can you send me that picture?
wei chin [thats my friend with the camera]: yea sure i'll send you all my pictures
me : ok thanks
belle joy: nonono ! ask him to focus on that boy!
me [feeling stupid] : can you erm. focus on the boy in the red shirt ?
wei chin : yes of course ! no problem ! i can give you his number and email also.

whatthehell.


i need a guitar pick. badly. haha. i was watching the people jam and i was learning to strum ! i mean for fast songs. haha. i tried it with my fingernail. but im only gonna do it once in case i damage it. hurhur. im just so lazy to walk across the road and get picks from wakemeup. if only the right person will be there when i go. arggh ! i havent seen you since forever!

amazing race ! haha. yes i went to help out. haha im such a slackerr. went to macs and had ice cream in the air con !


later i went to church and found belle and charisia and ben. haha. they were like. playing soccer ? rather ben was teaching belle joy. anyway. the prizes were sososo nice ! haha if only they let us take part. i bet we would have won. gr.


going for camp ! i dont know why im not excited. i just hope i make friends !

went to my mums school again ! heehee. today it was to go see shoi and koki. (: [and help out. yes.] but then i had several unpleasent dreams about the visit. so whe i realised shoi, koki, eroy and sayura all wernt there. i wasnt too surprised.


oh wells. i found a new kid. haha. the moment i realised shoi wasnt there, this boy came running past me. and i was like. oh ! this ones cute too ! haha. then later my mum told me alot of teachers like him. and hes jap too ! yes but seriously. hes cute. kento. hes dao too. of course after a while he was talking to me. haha. he speaks with a jap accent ! haha like finally. i think its freaking cute. and he climbs up my legs and does a backflip. kento ! kento !


i think im getting lazy. i seriously dont wanna leave my house anymore. unless its to go see the kids. :/

sheesh i feel so freaking fat and unfit ! i just hateit hateit hateit.


you know i cant stand it when people claim to be christians. and they go round putting on their friendsters and blogs and whatever "i love God" and oh i go to church blabla and all those stuff. and yet they contradic every word with their actions and entries and words. i mean i know my behaviour and attitude [especially] sucks like crazy and i have no right to go round judging people like that. but how can you say you want to evangelise while showing that kinda charecter? do you really think people will be attracted to God when they see you like that ? i mean its really sad when people go round bitching about this girl and they bitch and bitch and go, " oh. do you know shes a christian?"


ok. thats was weird. haha i bet you didnt read that anyway. i feel so stupid talking about that when my own attitude sucks like crazy. grr.

yay church today. (: haha cell was sososo sad ! only me and belle joy went. then we had service ! haha sonic edge led ! i kept staring at their hands. its so strange its hands and not faces anymore. i was seriously trying soso hard not to look at it. haha. oh well. i did learnt something. i think i rock. haha. now i should have less of a problem playing C. and well. less problems playing in general [my wrist wont hurt]. well i hope la. i mean i only tried it for like. 2 seconds.

cantwaitcantwait for monday !

yay. sonic edge is leading worship tomorrow ! hahaha. cant wait for service. (:


my mums says i can go to school with her when she goes. (: yayness. icantwaiticantwait. i only hope i'll get to see him and i wont get to sad later. ): holidays are so different. mondays rock.

dreams are freaky.

no more helping out at the holiday programme thing. ): have you ever tasted depression ? ineedchocolate


did taebo today[its like body combat]. funfunfun. only it was soso tiring ! haha i think i died around 26mins. but before that i had to stop for about a minute. thrice. haha but still. the cool her in front is so damn thin and are abs and rad ! hahaha. i shall workout and keep trying. i shall be able to do the entire thing by the end of the hols ! haha. hopefully that girl got her abs [and figure] by doing taebo. hahaha. i wish.


my mum promised me an electric guitar[i wanted drums but my family objected strongly] if i get 6 points for my o levels. who is she kidding man.

i love shoi/koki !!


sheesh i feel sososo sad everytime im reminded im never going to see them again. ive been begging and begging my mum to take the k2 class next year so that everytime i go visit her/help out in her school i get to see them. butbut. thats not even up to her. ):


but then comes the good news, which my mum didnt even bother to tell me [i overheard her talking to me sister. though not really since she said it in my face], theres an oncoming holiday camp for the kids. andand shoi is going ! shoishoi. (: koki might not. ): butbut. oh well. 1/2 is not bad. im offering to go help out for free. thats how bad i've been missing them today. ): sigh. my mum says shes not going to let me go. i only hope she was kidding. and i'll manage to convince her i will study if i go. [and i will !]


on a brighter note, URnanuim is out ! everybody say yipee ! i think i no loonger need guitar lessons since i can play all the chords in You Are. ((:


shoikoki shoikokeeee

This is love.

went to help out at my mums kindergarden. sheesh im aching ! hahaha. the children soso noisy and energatic ! clamouring all around me and talking non stop. hahaha. especially joe and eroy. i reallyreally wished they were KOKI AND SHOI. haha i love them i love them. sheesh shoi was so shy ! he like. totally refused to look at me. let alone talk. [which was kinda how i got to koki] haha. when i first went up to shoi and said hi he saw me and quicky turned. then koki heard, turned around, saw me and smiled. oh man his smile..

ok. im not really in the mood to blog- all happy and airy. but. more pictures here.

dreams and stuff. (:

last night i dreamt that i was talking to my mum. then she suddenly said, " im going to buy you an electic guitar" OH MAN. hahaha i was so shocked and happy. although i had no idea what the hell i was going to do with an electric guitar. BUT STILL.

got these here.
jo: mrs lye, koki hit me with his waterbottle!
mrs lye: koki, what did you do to jo?
koki: *deer in headlights*
mrs lye: koki, did you hit jo with your waterbottle?
koki: *stricken dumb nodding*
and a few minutes later -- shoi like a young colussus, with jo and koki struggling one in each hand --
mrs lye: shoi, what is it?
shoi: they were .. they ...
mrs lye: they were quarrelling?
shoi: koki say, say sorry already still tell mrs lye!


eroi: mrs lye, i want a sweet
children, severally: he took one already! mrs lye, he already ate his sweet!
mrs lye: eroi, have you taken a sweet?
eroi: dunno
mrs lye: dunno? you forgot already ?
eroi: yes.
mrs lye: what colour sweet did you have?
eroi: yellow


i get to see Shoi tomorrow !! ((:

yay i went to church today ! haha it was great ! [yes i stopped using bolds becuase i think it doesnt appear] i felt throughly refreshed. maybe it was due to the lack of distractions [yes i do know its my own fault] but yea. its like God's prescence was there and i never felt it before. well i kinda did but not so early. and i was just. enjoying myself a whole load, soaking in His prescence and praisingHim. haha. i feel so crazy. like i missed church for a week and im acting like i missed it for a year or something. but man ! i lovelove worship !


haha service today was so funny ! the pastor thought brian or whatever his name is was cambodian. and kept shouting to him in khmer. and brian just kept nodding and smiling and the pastor thought he understood ! HAHA.


watched harry potter !! haha it was not bad ! but then there were times i was so scared. ): hahaha. cedric diggory was so cute. haha. when he jumped down from the tree I was like. whoa. hee. its so sad he dies so quickly. haha. they should have just killed krum or something. hes fat.


pastor glenn rocks !! (:

i like shoi ! ((:


there was to choir today. so i couldnt go get URanium ! bahh. oh wells. yes i was extremly bored. i want to watch harry potter. thats two days away. so is church. cant wait ! (:

gack. i think i'll never ever be able to play the guitar. never in a billion years. talka bout lack of talent. bahh.

yay i watched sky high. haha oh man its so freaking lame. especially the twist at the end. HAHA. i think i might want to watch it again. cant wait for harry potter !! ((:


went to my mums kindergarden. shoi ! it was love at first sight i tell you !

kung fu soccer

starring: Dicky Cheung and whoever

mon-friday, 5.30-6.30pm

channel 8.

it rawks ok. especially Dicky. remember to watch. although the front may be quite boring.

pastor glenn rocks ! hahaha. aside from the fact he cheated me into telling him --- haha.


life has been about the same lately. [yes it has only been two days] but i have been trying to teach myself the guitar[no more guitar lessons. bahh] and i learnt a few chords ! haha. yayness. apprantly URanium has chords to You Are !! ((: cantcant wait although i doubt i'll be able to play the song with my lousy guitar skills. :/


i have been slacking loads and eating loads. and just wishing i could get thinner. and thinner. but oh wells. you dont always get what you want huh. i just got to start exercising again.


bsf is over ! well. for the rest of the year anyway.

My blog is worth $14,678.04.
How much is your blog worth?

haha. (:

you know ive alwaysalways wanted to watch 'days of our lives', just to see what its all about after all the stuff friends say about it. but of course thats impossible although they show it in Singapore, since its at 5am in the morning. well i just fell asleep, and will not be awake very soon.


but at the chalet, when we stayed up all night and went to macs at about 5+, i watched it !


and yes, its reallyreally stupid.

[edit]


the bible said to not complain. which was, of course what i have been doing previously. and something i really want to continue doing. but still. i shall try to be optimistic, and blog about the good parts of my trip only ! hm.


we had secret recipe ! yumyumyum. chocolate indulgance and chocolate banana. man i felt truely indulged. the cakes were soso good. i just wanted to die. layers upon layers of chocolate and cake and more chocolate ! and even banana !! then we washed everything down with an ice blended mocha [which costs 8 freaking bucks for that mini cup] and a hazelnut latte. yumyumyum. after all the yummy food we were all super full and happy. so we went and bought somemore to bring home ! my dad and i happened to pick the same things to buy. but then when i went with my mum she kinda went crazy and bought everything on display. hahaha. we spent about. 70 ? haha. dont you lovelove malaysia ?


oh so whatelse was good ? hm we bought loads of food. haha. and i found jackfruit chips ! they were really yummy. but all gone now.

HAHAHAHAHA. im so freaking happy. ok maybe not la. but still. hahaha. how i wish ruth was online. then i could tell her. maybe i shall tell zoe on sunday. HAHAHAHA. man i wanna laugh. zoe if you wanna know call me. haha. i doubt you do. ok. im now in a freaking good mood. i just feel like laughing !!


ok anyway. my butt still hurts ! haha. i dont know why. i mean it cant be from the cycling since i only cycled for about. half an hour max? but thats only if you add up the cycling in the afternoon, and the trip to macs and back. hmm. maybe its my butts way of complaining its too fat. :/


went for a mini jog today. mini because i was jogging really slowly and i dont think i actually exercised with that speed. hurhur. it sucks really. i dont think i'll be jogging for a long time. i think i agree that changing routes veryvery often is better. oh wells. i definately did muchmuch better than the last time i took that route. yea. so anyway. it basically was reallyreally good[meaning not tired] until about twenty or twenty five minutes. then i got the oh crap im freaking tired i dont wanna run anymore feeling. so i changed my mind about extending my route. and just ran home. but it was only when i just reached when i realised the tiredness was mental ! but i couldnt be bothered to fight agianst my mentalself and continued running home. i didnt do 30mins. think i only got 29. arggh. unless i started slightly before. and the worst thing was that after i ran i didnt get the oh hell i just killed my body running sastisfaction. it was like i barely exercised. and i was even too lazy to stretch ! arggh !


sheesh i have to wake up at 5.30 tomorrow. the food and shopping better be good.


ruthruth. im waiting for my manymany tags and i shoutout ! haha. hows this ? i think the old one was so much nicer. ):

im ponning choir now. cos im tired. hurhur. why the hell did i leave so early ? bahh. should have stayed and eaten free pizza by jeow. haha.


yes im back from the chalet ! it was funfun. well, the first day and the next morning anyhow. after that i got kinda sick of the game mahjong. or rather, spending most of my time watching jing xuan/jia yun.whoever play ! haha.


haha we didnt sleep the whole night ! haha thats totally true becuase we only slept in the morning. around 6am. we wanted to watch the sunrise but then. everyone was looking too ghostly and so we decided it was best to sleep. anyhows. it was funfun cycling to macs at 5am in the morning on borrowed bikes. hawt cakes ! yummy !


and then there was the barbaque. haha. i lovelove roasted marshmellows. however you spell it. bestest when its all brown and looking like idontknowwhat. kae ting ! we must do a proper mv ! hahaha.


ah yes.
happy birthday yao ying ! (:

chalet ! chalet !

ok ruth. i made the new picture already. haha. seriously i cant see how its obscene ! so anyway. i removed any of the pictures that poeple might see as obscene. its not as nice. i might not use it. haha. maybe i'll just use the red one. reds soso nice ! oh man ruth. im like so nice to you.


i think allison is a nice name. haha that was random. honestly i think im just going to keep getting fatter until i explode. seriously. i got to start exercising ! sigh i want to grow taller. i want to be tall and thin. like kahlen ! of course that shall never be possible. like how i shall never be a model.


ok i was digressing. went to shing shong with my mum today. and we bought loads of yummy food ! yumyum. (: bigbig enormous packet of super ring. and roller coasters ! and of course about a kg wirth of biscuits and loads of other stuffs. and a haphaphappy day. (:

had lunch at tiong bahru food centre. yummy chicken rice. hee. was debating between lormee and chicken rice. and i simply couldnt decide ! oh wells. i like tiong bahru food centre. although ive only been there twice. :/


hm i think a jogging companion. i get bored easily. when im bored i dont wanna run. gr. jia yun ! help ! haha. im getting too unfit and muchmuchmuch too fat ! gr. not nice.

i had a series of rather weird dreams last night. one of them was of me being pregnant ! imagine that ! it was really freaking. since i obviously cant get pregnant. and i was imagining myself being on the headlines of all the newspapers !
so thats not the point. anyway, i was at the doctor. they should be a scan of my baby. and i saw the foetus in my tummy ! haha. it felt really weird having a baby inside [sheesh i should seriously feel it ! ] and it just felt so.. fragile. like it might die anytime inside. which kinda scared me. accroding to my sister thats how its supposed to feel !


haha you know whatt. its getting really freaky. i could seriously feel the baby inside me. i wonder what this dream means ! haha. i need a prophet-interpreter like the kings did !


watched the last episode of the michelle yip/raymond lam show today. sighsigh. poor michelle yip.

yay its sat ! haha. its the first sat in a longlong time i dont have to like. study and count down how many hours there is left to church [therefore making myself hurry].yay ! its freedom for the next 6 weeks or so. happy . (:


sermon today was rather impactful. about compassion. [ yes tamago thinks the speaker was wonderful. ] which i so totally lack ! yes i think ive been hardening my heart over the years. after watching all the nkf shows and hearing about all those disasters. and youy know. compassion should not even be about just those major incidents ! ah well. i shall ask God for more compassion. hopefully it willr really show it my daily life. well. more of make me do actualy stuff.


ok thats about it. iloveyou ruth. (: haha. and i cant believe yr listening to all my crap. and RESPONDING. (:

kahlens so hot. and now so is my blog ! be careful not to stay here too long. yr comp might just melt. and now ruths complaining and wants me to change it.


ok. now she and pinli have managed to convince me that i should change it. but shes so pretty ! and my sister thinks its fine. sighsigh. ok i;ll leave it for a few days. if you think i should change it. tag and say so ! i promise i will if people really think its freaking obscene and pollutes your mind. anyway i figured about 1 person reads my blog every 5 days so it shouldnt be doing much harm.


ok. pinli:
hm i think i only got to know to last year. but knowing you made that year so significant to me ! you are like the clouds in the desert. so rare and beautiful. you are like the sun in the horizon. splashing beauty with you where ever you go. ...[this means that i said so much. but theres no space] and most importantly, you help me with my blogskin ! yay. thankew pinli.


hurhur.

i think ive deleted and reloaded the kahlen picture at domainlx about a gazillion times ! i keep thinking making new blogskins are so fun and exciting. i just keep forgetting how mahgan and anooying it is for me. just for me. i think im giving up. for the moment.


intended to have a nice long jog in the evening. havent excercised since like. forever. but then. by the time i ate breakfast it was like. two. [i shant mention what time i got up] and i think i ate like. a gazillion waffles. so i was so full when i went to watch friends with my sister. and after i think 5 episodes my mum came home with bee hoon and no hiang[ok how do you spell that] ! and by the time i finished eating [and it even fuller] it was 5 ! gr. running plans spoilt by food. think of that !


went to my mums old cell leaders house for some gathering. man i wanna live there ! it looks like a castle ! sighsigh.

sheesh. pissed ! i spent a freaking forever doing the picture for my new blogskin. now it refuses to be uploaded/transferred to my other comp/save in my gmail/save in a diskette. it freaking looks like im gonna have to redo the whole thing and i spent eons ! arggh.

yay the holidays have officially started ! well. technically it started offically yesterday. but this is my blog. so i get to say what i want !

here a list of things i plan to do during my holidays. im not sure how many will actually get done. but. anyway:

• study. maths, physics, english [well i have to do somethinga bout it], chem in dec.
• get closer to God/try and get to know Him better
• loads and loads of CIP
• guitar classes ! (:
• camp and sleepover (:
• go to church at least trice a week. [thats super off. because im just trying to do something i know i will do]
• shopping. alot. get a pink shirt. and add [other] colours to my wardrobe !
• find the Dicky show in my sister's comp and watch it !
• get the NEW sonic edge cd. [which i think will be out in dec] and hopefully get autographs ! (:
• whatelse ?

oh yes. i think my new blogskin will be ready soon. my blogs getting freaking hawt i tell you ! (:

i think Kahlens freaking hawt.


















maybe my new blogskin will be dedicated to her. (: