oh guess what? they showed remember the titans last night! around ten or eleven. hahaha it was really a pleasent surprise! cos my dad was watching tian long ba bu and he switched channels. for some reason i turned my head around and decided I watched it before somewhere. so i asked my dad what show it was and he said he didnt know. but then just at that moment the title flashes across the screen --remember the titans!


hehe. i watched it just for memories sake. honestly i have no idea why all of us were so obsessed over sunshine. i mean it was such a small role! hahaha. i still remember gloria found sunshine goodlooking! (:


finally went for the paranakan buffet again! [everbody say yay] but then i realised it isnt that nice after all. oh wells. didnt really eat much again. which was . hm. quite sad. but then i didnt find the food that good after all1 oh but i had 6 durian puffs [or was it five] it was rad. i loved it! hahaha. cant wait for next week! (:


oh. and we discovered all our birthdays are clumped together. which isnt good becuase you eat all the buffets and nice stuff at one go! so we decided that everyone should pick one month and we can have sth nice once a month! so thats 10/12! and if you include erm. holiday specials its gonna be sth nice each month. so much less fattenting huh. [i'll take october!]


wanted to go watch baybeats today. since my sister wanted to go for the pushcart earrings anyway. but then we shopped and shopped and before we knew it it was time to go home! oh wells.


i've gotta start losing weight. reading about an anorexic girl somehow makes me feel so much fatter.

sometimes it makes me wonder. am i ever gonna meet such wonderful people? but then i must remember, im not everyone in the whole world. im not making sense.


went to cell today. had to miss youth service! grr. i hate missing youth service! and when i heard im missing next weeks and that the week after next is healing service i started to get all depressed. i mean thats three freaking weeks! but ive got it all cleared up so im going next week. yay. (: and if you are saying now that i dont care about church and the only reason im going is because he is there[especially you tingwei!], im telling you that you are wrong! becuase hes probably somewhere else practising for sonic fest and knowing that. i still reallyrealy wanna go for youth service. not everything about church is about him. theres worshipping and the sermons and of course Gods prescense. so stop saying i go to church for him alright!

in cell today we started talking about the rapture. and death. and the 2nd coming of christ. gr. it sounds all so close now and that scares me. i mean thinking of the possibitly that i'll be left behind freaks me out. what if im not strong enough? what if one wrong decision makes me betray christ? i dont want to. but yet. will I love God even when im tortured? will i still be able to praise HIm and love Him and trust in Him? gr. i'll never know until im tested. so i guess i'll just have to wait. and hope it never comes.



hm. i dont like the way i write. haha. blogs are no fun. becuase i wanna say something but yet i cant becuse if i do, everyone will know by monday and i cant show it off! gr. so yea.


went to wake me up music today to look for pastor glenn. the sonicedge tee shirts are for sale! oh goodness i never knew that! i shall buy it sometime. (: hahaha. and apprantly the sonic edge guy does know that there was such thing as the sonic edge limited edition watch becuase he gave me this strange look and said theres no such thing. later when pastor glenn came out and asked why we looked so scared. i mean obviously we would! he bounced out of no where and suddenly said "hello!" hahaha. it was so stupid. cos he gave me the watch and was like. "isnt it so cool?" and i was like "yea" [haha. note the size represents loudness and enthuism] and then he was like "come on! dont you think its cool? say its cool!" so i was like "yea it cool." hahaha. well it wasnt really my fault. [besides kinda doing it on purpose. :P] and it also wasnt my fault that halfway when he was talking i stopped looking at him. i was distracted by an umbrella. winkwink.

happy birthday!

yay. my er jie is 18 today. (: now she can buy wine and buy beer and learn to drive and erm. donate blood without parental consent. (: hapy birthday erjie!!!!!!!!! (: (:


ok. today was fine. hm. i was pretty tired cos i couldnt sleep last night. :/ but i played squash. and ive mastered my backhand! oh. and you know what ive just learnt in squash like today and on tuesday?

• ive been holding my racquet wrongly
• ive been hitting with my wrist, instead of with my shoulder.
• i dont swing my hand
• i dont lift up my hand early enough
• what else.

oh wells. thats pretty sad right. i mean ive been playing squash for three years already! oh wells.

hahaha. yest shun yee and I were being damn lame during physics. apprantly she wasnt in the mood to do experients. and she got damn high. she her highness made me lame with her! hahaha. like. in the end we did the experiment together. like. its suposed to be individual. hahaha. but we got the wrong answer anyway. so we just changed it! :/ haha. then she started talking about spiderman and batman and she started asking why theres a spiderman and batman but no cockroach man. so we started planning out cockroach man! ie. its enemy and its powers hahaha. okok. i shall come up with a story now. (:

cockroachman flattened his body as best as he could, circling the erm. badguy villian. all ready to attack. this was the moment! he swopped down at the villian's face, delibretly brushing his wings against it. a large claw-like thing attemped to squash him, but cockroach man escaped! he swooped down and saved the victems, who were then frozen from fear. he brought them to safty, but that as not all! out of nowhere, cockroachman's worst enemy appeared-- Mr BAYGON!! cockroachman shrivelled in fear, its legs kicking the air. but not for long! before mr baygone managed to spray him with his smelly salivia, cockroach man flew back into the air, and streched out his hands[ this is his weapon la. like spider man got spiderweb] a brown mess appeared from the centre on his plam, getting larger and larger, until it finally attached to the wall. it was a cockroach nest!! billions of nymphs crawled out of the nest, covering nearly every area of the ground. but this did not scare mr baygon! he simply hissed at them, his smelly salivia spraying the roaches. causes them to writhe and pain, and gradually, die. alas! cockroachman had been hit by the salivia too! there, he lay on the ground, tears forming in his eyes as he realised he would no longer be able to help cockroachkind. ..though they wernt at all kind. his legs gave a finaly kick, before he lay still on the cool ceremic tile, dead. who ask him to be so kaypoh. try to listen to what mr baygon was hissing?

ok la. that was a peice of shit. i think so too.

hello! hahaha. i cant believe it! i think im getting quite sick of the internet! hahaha. like real. but i think im now able to live my day without relly thinking of it. unlike last time where i use to spend like. 2 hours on it. haha. thats good. (: credits to julian cheung [and guo ke yin maybe] for being so goodlooking! (:


ohohoh. and praise the Lord! yesyes! again! isnt that He just sososo wonderful!? yay. i mean my maths was like kana sai. and i didnt like. understand my sister thought i was hopeless already. [but she still tried patiently. (: ] butbut i managed to do it! as in. attmept all the questions properly. not like what happens narmally on a maths[this kinda thing only happens for maths tests. and maybe chinese] test. and i did a question in one minute! that was amazing cos i skipped it since i didnt know how to do it. (: but yet! one minute! praise the Lord! ..i happly await my results. unlike emaths :/


you know. i have no idea why im sharing testimonies on my blog. since no ones reading it. oh wells.

wow chem was a killer. so was chinese oral. but once again, im putting everything in God's hands. i mean i have seen how he worked already how watching 5 mins of news on a month or so can actually apply to what they asked during oral. i mean.. coincidence? ..i think not! (: soso yep. i think i got an assurance from Him. but...im not sure. :/


oh after like how long i finally realised which guys are out! [as in. which face matches the name] gr. derrick! i mean hes like the bestlooking of the lot and his voice is not that bad anyway. how can he be voted out!? oh wells.


i think julian cheung is goodlooking. hahaha. its like im looking forward to 11 everyday for my show. thats like. not good. ..emaths. how!?

my lifes like a peice of shit-- all brown and long. no actually its becuase it sucks. [no im not gonna say then it should be a straw].


gr. im not happy im not happy im not happy! seriously. i could have killed myself. but then i realised i would die. so i decided it wasnt a good idea. [:/] oh wells. and its not only dying. it hurts. and i dont wanna suffer pain in any way. and it might leave a scar. and i'll die with a scar. or if i drink detergent it might stain my throat or intestine or whatever and then it wont look pretty. and then when i get cremated i'll be polluting the enviroment. and thats cos good becuase the polar ice caps might melt and some countries might be submerged under water. and then i would need a coffin and the trees will get cut down. but then. all these dont matter. what matters most is that you all will miss me. and you will cry. (:



ok. so anyway. church was nice as usual. haha. being an usher is so freaky! i mean althought i didnt really do anything. but still. haha. ohohoh he was there. (: and sonic edge lead worship!! yayyayyay. i like it. (:


sigh. my sisterS know now. :/
i AM a potential mugger! (:
even belle joy agrees.

i wanna go for sonic fest. i want i want i really do!


haha my brad pitt is so irrestable. haha. teachers always stop and look at it whenever they walk past. its happened twice already! both of them find him appealing in some way or other. (:


hm. today miss chua showed us this video about a girl who got disfigured in a car accident. only it was muchmuch worse. she wasnt just disfigured. her face melted and she had to go for 50operations just to stay alive. i dont know. but watching the vidoe really touched me. im not going into the whole thing about how we all complian about ourlooks blabla but shes just so happy. it sounds so cliche. but thats kinda how i feel. shes just so strong and.. wonderful. but what touched me most was how she forgived the guy so realidy, especially when she hugged his mother. i mean. im always talking about wanting to be more christ-like. but yet. compared to her im just a peice of shit. and shes only human! even though her face melted in the fire and she was totally disfigured. i think shes beautiful. more beautiful than anyone i've seen.


ok. that was still cliche.


one last thing. i can catch squash balls!

i wonder what will happen if i find out my teacher had spilled half a bottle of water on my essay. fortunately, students now are all smart enough to use waterproof pens for exams. but then, sometimes the teachers arent! (:


its all about priorities.

today i went out with my mum and my sisters and my brother. (: wow. thats practically a family outing! if only my dad went too. oh well. we had jap buffet. (: im beginning to think buffets are a waste of money because i get full so quickly. but at least i know when to start on the dessert! (:


so yea. the tempura was nice. i had two! (: come to think of it, two isnt enough. oh wells. what else did i eat. hm. nothing really memorable. oh the chocolate thing. and some pudding. oh goodness. they were good! especially the weird pudding thing. cant remember what it is. but it was sour. (: and the candyfloss machine was closed! for dinner only. grr. i really wanted that.


bought a black polotee. despite adeline asking why im always in black. [i only wore black twice!] i think blacks my colour. (: im gonna get a pair of black heels. then i think im done with black. hahaha yea rightt. but then again, i might be. cos well, im me!


i dont wanna go to school tomorrow! whines.

veryvery high heels. (: [not the ugly one though. this is quite nice. (:]

went out with my family today. apprantly for claypot laksa but it was sold out! yea the one at KPTkopitiam hahaha. i had hokkien mee. it was not bad. but i think queenstowns one is nicer. yes. buy from them. the uncle is nice and it tastes good too! and they also give you alot of prawn/sotong and only charge you 2.50 so its really a great alternative when the char kuey tiao queue is too long. (:


oh but before that we went shopping. and i tried on platforms! (: i nearly bought them but they were too ugly. haha. seriously i love the feeling heels give me. they make me feel so... tall! [aside from giving me nice calves] and yea. its just the feeling of being so high up and ..tall. it feels wonderful. seriously! i think when I grow up i'll be like those poeple who spend thousands on heels and get those super high ones. haha. its better than drinking or drugs or cutting yrself or whatever weird stuff people do. you get much higher that way! (: and really once you get used to it it fone to walk it. i wantwant uber high heels.


hm. thats about it for today i think. haha. my sister is so meeaaan. yes you erjie. you know why. and i had starwars mnms today! i lovelove it! (:

hm. you werent there today. again. oh well. it doesnt matter because I still enjoyed myself! but still. youknow. oh wellS.


yes i went to church today! and worship rocked! haha the band was so cool. [yea there was a new band] and the lead singer was not bad too! i mean his voice. only they sang songs i dont know. haha but still.


tamago had holy communion!! haha. i think im becoming more like belle joy. im actually looking forward to communion too! hahaha.


oh yes. i had cell today. adeline said im a model student! hahaha. then belle joy got all jealous and started saying she was a modelmodel student. haha. its ok belle joy! i know you live me! wah lao. im like trying to fit you into everything belle joy! you better appreciate. yea.


thats all i think. actually the funny-singer guy's voice is quite nice. and he plays the guiter. haha. unlike tamago's bassist. who has un ugly guiter. haha. its a weird shade of green! and a weird shape. unlike the lovely red one at the back!! (:


yea. im laming.

I heared everything you said about her. how do you think I feel now. when thats almost exactly how I feel about you. only half of thats never gonna happen to me. and now you are all happy doing youknowwhat and im watching by the side all alone. sigh. thats so stoopid.


ok. yes. actually that was pretty retarded. and i dont know whats happening in me now. its like. im all weird and i get irritated easily only this time i voice it all out. but me being me never voices it out fully and thats all weird! andand. i dont know la. i think im too lazy to spell out why im pissed or irritated or whatever. either that or i sort of dont wanna hurt the person feelings. but then it doesnt work that way becuase its worse when you dont say anything! grr. i dont know. im all weird. hopw it will end up in some positive change. (:


im all fat and i hate it! especially my stomach and thighs and butt. i aspire to do a hundred situps every morning only of course thats no possible because of school. and if i refuse to wake up earlier to do my QT obviously theres no way im gonna wake up at 5.30 for sit ups. i mean seriously! i barely sleep six hours [on normal to good nights] already!


this entry sounds pretty depressing. i think zoe hates me now cos im sort of making her do her maths quiz herself. hurhur. anywayS. i think Miss Sie is here to stay! (:

yes! gogogo! it rocks and its only $45 a ticket and planet shakers and sonic flood will be there and not no mention, youknowwho!

this is a conversation the primary four kids in my bus had. oh my goodness. you seriously wont believe it!

school bus. on the way to school.
stopped at a traffic light next to a public bus. [get that. public bus.]

one: oh look! itsn not fair! those people are also sitting school bud and they get to watch tv!
two: where?
one: look! theres a tv in the bus!
two: thats not school bus la!
one: [interrupting] it is! look! those girls are wearing our school uniform!
two: its not la! [thats when i thought she had a brain. but..] thats their private car..
one: private car!? how can that be? its so big!
two: nono! i know their dad! he owns a license to drive vans.

ohmygoodness!<br>

oh yes. i saw my new maths teacher today. yea. my first impression of her is not bad. i think shes pretty nice. ok. this is why i like my new amaths teacher[so far]:

• her voice is not bad. as in. pleasent
• she looks ok. as in. nicer the more you look.
• shes funny
• she talks alot/tells stories
• she wasted a whole lesson with us answering questions even though she knew we were wasting her time. (:
  

yay. so im pretty happy. and miss sies still teaching! though i think i might miss chua poh leng. which is like. so unexpected! haha.

oh yes. i made a new friend. [yesyes. primary one diary!!!!!!] natalie yeo. hahaha can you believe it? she has been in my class for half a year and todays the first time i held a proper conversation with her. and by that i mean actual talking. not just like. "hey, is chem in class or is it lecture" yea. haha./

i think today was pretty nice. (: recess too!

I think i have typed the words "pure narrative" and "recount narrative" a gazillion times. grr. english is killing me. and honestly i dont even think i did a good job. it isnt even like. passable. i dont know. i cant seem to be writing properly these days. gr.


went shopping with ting wei today. actually its more like we ate lunch, walked around and went home. oh well. actually i was quite happy she wanted to go home so early cos i wasnt really in a shopping mood. no faairrr. yea had lunch at pizza hut. cost me a freaking 10bucks! oh goodness we were soo stupid.


haha. it was pretty funny. cos there were like. lumps in the soup. so there was this big lump and ting wei thought it was chicken. and she bit into it la! haha. she reaction was super funny. so after that we were being very careful. like checking every spoon for lumps. then at the same time we fished out a lump and was then. is this a lump? [oh goodness. ting wei's was enormous! it was more of a glob] then we started poking it with our fork. haha. so lame.


yea. it feels like holiday again. going to school kills me i tell you.

stepped on the weighing machine after like. i dont know how long. [noe really long. but i havent dared to do so since i begin overeating.] horrors of horror! its got to be lying! but no. i weight myself twice! if you need a half an hour break say so. dont cheat me like that. gr. i actually reached a weight i never did before. thankfully the machine was just bluffing as usual.


oh i finally ran today! i thought it was gone forever. really slowly though. although i did increase the resistance halfway. haha. doing the 30min. target toner somehow motivated me. and of course the huge increase in weight la.


dont ever go out with ting wei i tell you. shes a cheater.

school today was fine i guess. not some stupid dark prisooooon. ok. i mean school never is. but still. oh but theres one good thing. i now have zero warnings! yes. as compared to the two-away-from-beta i had previously this rocks. i was praying real hard this morning to God to not let me get a beta. well i guess He answered! faithful as always. (:


of course. it means something else. something to do with hm. the new warning system. something to do with getting expelled by play truent once, say vulgeries twice, being late twice and wearing the wrong uni once. or something to that effect. well. all i can say is i have no comments. well. of course i do! but i must be careful with what i say. or i might get sued for slander. that three demerit points by the way.


yea. i have nothing much more to say. i dont wanna begin studying all over again. and maybe i should just take the fraeking tagboard off. its pointless.

gr. its today. like finally and im not happy. i dont wanna go back to school! well. i mean maybe there are stuff to look forward too. such as.. mee pok. and hor fan. (: but still. thats not worth it. andit makes me fatter.


hm. today was pretty good. we spend last night [and the car ride today] singing all the old songs. like the fann wong "lovelovelove" thing and the yiwen jiejie plant song. haha. strange that we actually remember although we dont really. and i think i miss dicky. haha. havent been listening to his songs for ages! even forgot some of the lyrics la.
after that we started fooling around with the cam. lol. it was funny.


woke up at like. 10sth. and went for timsum at chinatown! yea i had xiaolongbao and guo tie. it was good, (: only my mum bought me breakfast like just before we left so i was really full. ): oh and there was the pancake thing too. with dao sa inside. nice! (:


came home and we all slept. thats all i think. my mum cheats when i play snap with her. gr.

went to church today. (: but first we went to adeline's house for lunch! haha. yea i forgot to bring dessert. so super embarassing la! gr. so then we made our way to church and waited for eons until isaac finally came and we could have our farewell thing. haha it was so stupid. we played five people you meet in heaven. so it was like, you made isaac sit down, blindfolded him and read him as testimonial someone wrote for him, and he had to guess who the person was. if he didnt we would give him a clue by writing the first letter on his face with colgate. haha it was so stupid. cos the toothpaste was apprantly very hot. so in the end they ran out and we made up one! we being belle joy and me. so acutally i wanted to say "hi. i have nothing to say. bye" but then belle joy said. no la. we say "but you are a nice guy" as well. haha. so sad. he guessed me after like two letters and was like. who else will come up with something so crappy! uh! like go and die ok!


service. hm. he wasnt there. that was just sososososo sad! gr. and im hungry. i wanna eat. but im fat! sigh. unhappy. ):

today i watched ambush makeover for the very, very last time. that was really sad. becuase i never really appreciated it. i mean i watch it for maybe the first week then i couldnt be bothered to wake up in time for it. then i went to camp. then i woke up in time for it but couldnt be bothered to watch it. and now i realise its all gone! grr. i wish the holidays would just come back come back come back. ):


i have a break out. it sucks. i thought i already have so many pimples its not possible for me to ever get a break out. but then i did! it sucks la. i look like i have chicken pox. ):

oh i feel like i got cheated by msn. ): signed for this dunno what space thing so i would get a star next to my name. but when i go look, the star is gone!


watched mr and mrs smith. haha. brad pitts so hawt. then he was so nice he put down the gun first. haha. yea im crapping. im bored

i think i've just wasted my entire half a year in school. grr. doing the sillymaths online quiz has showed it. i think i might as well not go to school anymore. hur.


hee. im typing faster than my comp! meaning i type as few words and have to look up and wait for them to appear on the screen. hohohos. im so fast. :/


i dont know what else today. im eating like alot. and im lookinh forward to watch mr and mrs smith! oh yes. does anyone know if the 30min target toner gets rid of fat or just builds muscles? i dont wanna waste my time. hahaha


my impression of edison chen is like. gonegone. i mean. hearing about his attitude is pretty bad already. but his looks can cover that. but then. after what i heard about him last night. everythings suddenly all gone. oh wait. or was it lastlastnight...


my eyes are itchy. i wanna scraaaaaatch !!

boo. the holidays are ending. thats like. so fast! i havent even finished my homework yet! oh wells. at least theres next wednessday to look forward to. then.. well. i can just continue counting down the the december hols!


i think im sick of running. i dont know! the moods just not there anymore. and thats not good becuase when im not in the right mood i cant even run 200m. i mean i can la. i just. dont feel nice. gr. i need an alternative to exercise. im not going to get all gross and fat i tell you! [oh yes. i already am. gr.]

im eating sososo much and i havent exercised for so loong! gr. im turning freaking fat! fine. i am freaking fat. but im getting fatter! ah. the horror! my wonderful 1.5kglighter body is going to gain everything back before the holidays even end.


yes i know i sound like a bimbo. but how else am i gonna get my point across eh? so the point is. i dont wanna get any fatter! im fat enough! if you've any way of me getting thinner its really really welcome. but staying like that is not bad yes its not good to be as fat as i am. but its better than putting any more weight. ):

oh goodness im so full so full so full. seriously. i have never been so full in my entire life. either i ate like alot today, or my appitite shrunk. i hope its the latter. (: so anyway. im like soso full my stomach hurts. fine. i was. i went for a walk hoping to help speed up the process and well. reduce the agony. butbut. i couldnt even walk properly! imagine this. oh and my other leg is so small cos my legs were really far apart. haha. so anyway. i was litarally dying. after walking for 2o0[orso]m, i was like. okok. restrest. then i had to sit down and rest for a while. ahhh!! that sucked. so i rested twice. then my sister started singing. so i sang with her. and that really helped! yep. my new found remedy. (:


yea my cousins came today. although like 3/6 didnt come. haha. never mind. the nicest people were there. (: theres always next time. (: the food was nice. like popiah and kuey pitee and ham and whatever. (:


im really beginning to like green more and more. whats with green nowadays? no way im letting it take over red!


sigh. i think im the bitch. [refers to orange-banana story part one] and thats not good. i mean i know i once said i wanted to be one. and i aspire to be one. but this is all wrong! im not being the right type of bitch. gr.


oh yes. my brothers back. and so is the guiter! (:

happy fathers day!(:
a very last minute present from me and my sisters. ...but more from my sisters. :/


nice right!?

oh goodness! that someone did actually get a haircut! hahaha. thats so cool. that someone looks soso good with the new haircut. seriously. although more than half was sheared off. i nearly couldnt reconigse that person la! haha. actually quite alot of people cut their hair. i noticed. (:


worship today was great! i feel that the camp really brought me back to God. especially when i made the decision not to let anything or anyone distract me from God again. yep. the feeling of being with God was good. (: then there was one moment when i was afraid i wasnt doing enough to worship. as in. i wasnt really like. ininin it. pointing and everything. but then i think God told me that it was ok, as long as im focused on worshipping Him wholeheartedly, He sees it and understand. that was just so sweet. (:
watching tamago worship kinda touched me too. (: i mean just a few weeks ago she was telling me how she only liked one song, and that people raising up their hands to praise God freaks her out. but yet today. she too was worshipping God, and i think she was a little touched. later, she was even lifting her hands a little! God's works really amazes me. i mean i was worrying becuase i dont know how to really tell her about christianity, since i was the one who brought her to church. but yet. now i can just see God working in her! i just need to commit everything i have to Him, and know He'll take care of it. (:


sermon was not bad. haha. pastor glenn's movie was funny and his fathers damn cute! haha. belle joy and I were laughing and laughing although he was being serious. i mean we cant help it! hes just too funny!


haha. ruth and tab are so sweet! bought us souvenirs. haha tab gave me this purse. haha its damn cute. reddish pink! haha. and ruth bought us nice sour sweets. (: i love sour sweets. ruth give me somemore! kidding. but show me the packet so i can buy somemore. (:


ok. this is a contiunation on my story. part two la.
so one day, the banana was stolen from its home. and frozen in liquid nitogen so it was damn hard and had to to mashed with a hammer. then it was made into ice cream. that, of course, made it very sad until it realised it was actually ben and jerries chunky monkey. wow.
as for orange, well, it actually realised it was an apple, and was made into apple pie.

yes. red is a powerful colour. yes. it happened again. and yes. its starting. initially its a really good thing. but then.. maybe it isnt? ):

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.

thats one of the many things i've learnt in camp. to be a peace maker. but this verse just keeps coming mabk to me. to remind myself that what im doing is wrong. and thats just.. so wrong! I mean. its just so hard. i seriously have no idea what is wrong with me.
):

yay went out with gloria[and zoe] today. i miss her i miss her! haha. she still looks exactly the same la. except her hairs all poofy. thats right. tony and guy killed her too. haha.


shopping my great! i actually bought something. in fact, two things! yepyep. i think im beginning to get onto green. bought green shoes from pretty fit, and a green spag strap shirt from bods. yea i think im liking that place more and more. (: the heels were funkye. i was decided between green and white but chose green [although the white ones nicer] since i already have white heels and, well. my feet are too fair. (: [and obviously cos gloria and zoe kept saying take the green one] its a tad too big but who cares. maybe then jia yun wont say my shoes are for barbie dolls. (: yes la im just too lazy.
and my shirt is. gr. revealing! well. not revealing revealing but since its spag stap it shows all my fat! grr. but then again gloria and zoe kept telling me to buy it [its too big as well] so i got influencedand bought it. haha. my sisters think it sucks but i got it at 21.53 so im happy. (: and im wearing green to church tomorrow to match pastor glenn's movie. green grass. oh and did i tell you that i have a green balloon?(:


gloria says i look older and different and im thinner. i disagree with the last point. and to think about it carefully. looking older might not be a compliment since she used to call my ahmah. hmm...


ok i shall end with a story.
orange and banana used to be friends. one day. orange told banana who she liked. so banana did the same. banana did not tell anyone about it, although it wasnt a secret. but she secretly teased orange a little. however, orange blew up and called banana names and said she couldnt keep secrets and would never tell her anything again. banana felt really bad but soon, orange started insulting banana's crush openly and even said rude things to him. banana found out and was obvously pissed off only she didnt say anything.
two years passed and banana forgot all that happened. either that or she thought orange would have matured and change. so she told orange a secret but obviously she blabbered it out.


oh my goodness. what a bitch orange is! haha. im loyal to red forever. dont worry. (:

things i'll miss about radiate

dumping half my lunch/dinner into the bin

spending half the time staring at nothingness

youknowwho look alike. (:

wonderful worship sessions

fattening suppers

eating ice cream at 10.45

running around NUS at 1 in the morning

singing "this little light of mine" with dog shit in your mouth

11 poeple linking arms sliding down the snow city slope

bitching sharing our fears about youknowwho [another one]

thinking to myself that youknowwho might have touched everything

watching tiffany glue her shoes. again and agian and again.

imitating sonic edgers

mass chicken dances

etc.

my butt hurts from sitting. :/

radiate camp was so fun! if you ask me im actually pretty sad im back home. which is, well. pretty sad la. i think the highlight was pretty much the third day. which is also quite sad since it was the second last day. oh wells.

hannah abigal deborah tiffiny sumin eugenia peter ryan ariel samuel jit liang. lightening. (: erm. zz zzz zz. boom! haha. so lame. well my group its pretty much dead [so was i la] but still. it was fun being with them (: they are nice as individuals.

day1:
played games. erm. the silly chair thing, and the armour of God, and three legged soccer. oh my goodness that was so stupid. hannah and i partnered. and we had like. nearly no co ordination. especiall since we didnt bother about the "one two" thing. in the end we just hopped. haha. then it was super funny. we would stand there and slack and then the ball would come and we would be like. oh quickquick! hophophop! and human scrabble [28 words!] and mumbling rubbish cheers. haha. it was fun la. (: [actually i cant really remember]

sermon was good. learn about the beaattitudes. which i dont have. yep. have been praying. and i really hope this camp has change me. at least enough to be a salty salt [kiam kiam?] if not a 180degree one. whch i need. but still. i believe God is working in my life and i will get better. (: as long as it isnt some two day thing.

bathed in hot water. and there was roti prata and curry for supper. oh goodness talk about fats. obviously i skipped that.


day2:
wet games day. (: haha the games were fun la. we played dodgeball! yea thats the game i reallyreally wanted to play last year. not so much now, but it was pretty fun. only that stupid isaac yip caught all the balls. butbut. i hitted someone! with a waterbomb. haha. i knew aiming at nothing would work. then we played erm. captians ball with a buttered papaya. and egg. and.. whatever. and dog and bone with a tomato and cucumber. lol. it was soso lame. me and the other person were fighting over gald the squashed tomato [mainly trying to scrape it from the ground] then the other person scored with a teeny morsel! gr. (: then there was the umbrella game. where i forgot how to open the stupid thing. haha. so lame la.

worshiped rocked. yea. i finnaly worship God properly after like how long [blame him la] and yea. i could just feel the presence of Him. and the past where everyone was singing without music touched me. it just made me feel.. everyones love and awe and.. i dont know what. but it feel pretty... whoosh! haha.

had the evangelism workshop. haha. yea i all ready to preach the gospel! [i hope] debbie was so funny. and i now have a nice anklet which is too short [and now soggy and wet].

day3:
yes we went to snow city! my girls name was adrain or something. i dont know i just cant remember it. and it was freezing! haha. poor ariel was bullied by his boy. haha and samuel kept turning around to complain his boy was damn smelly. so he kept avoiding him. haha. so stupid la. my girl was pretty quiet. maybe she just didnt wanna talk to me. but im pretty bad at starting conversations. so. yea. didnt really share the gospel with her. but. just praying that she got impacted some way or other. (:

yea the place was freezing! i was dying inside. haha. but still it was fun! haha ariel was like bombing us with snow when we were still stoning from the cold. in the end we all turn ryan into a snowman. since he wasnt cold. then charissa came and put snow on my head! haha. she messed up my hair! lol. then suddenly deborah and tiffiny dissapeared[they were slacking in the warmth outside] so i went to slide with charrisa! (: made ice cream which tasted simply gross. but i saw liquid nitrogen! haha. so cool. then the guy poured all the leftover nitrogen on the carpet. i was like xi you ji! haha. and im sun wu kong's wife. (:

had the camp finale. haha. kiam teng was so funny! lol. anakin saltshaker. wah lao. and the yoda thingy. damn lame la. light saber also. ee lyn [or li] looked super funny as mrs smith1 haha. ours was super impromtu. but it was not bad la. we got 4th! (:

then was the night nite games. so stupid! at least we didnt lose. (: yea we were funny around nus and im sick of typing.

well. al in all. camp rocked! of have i said that already.

guess what guess what guess what!? Dicky newest show is out! i just found it today! xiao yu er yu hua wu que i was attracted the the poster outside the shop. haha. from a distance i was like. isnt that guy Dicky? ..how can? so i went to look. and it is! yep. it costs 60bucks and i want it veryveryvery much. so if any of you decides to be nice to me[its avalible at suntec] i promise i'll love you with all my heart and be nice to you forever.
before i saw the vcds i had was scolded by my parents for not studying. so i thought it was be a bad idea to tell my mum about Dicky Cheung just yet. but still. how will i be able to resist! now, shes agreed to get me the vcds if i collect 6 a1s [my idea of course] but still! its 6a1! how am i gonna get to. so... i'll be nice to you forever. (:


i bought nice pants today. from bods. haha. its nice and white and surprisingly doesnt make my legs look stumpish/make me look like a fisherman. oh yes. its three quarter pants. (: and then i found out that my dad is actually friends with the boss of the placE! i see something good turning out! hohoho.


camp tomorrow! .im quite scared actually. :/

woke up with this horrible crampish neck today. oh goodness it sucked. imagine your entire neck hurting whenever you turn it. even if it was just slightly. like when you sit down. and i never ever knew my neck had so many different muscles! I think its time for me to begin strengthening my neck. it has always been pretty lousy. like feeling weird when i do situps. yuck.


went to church. and i was practically walking round in circles. so in the end i decided to go to ntuc to look at food and tempt myself/stone/look for banana or jackfruit chips. of course in the end it was mainly to look for my banana and jackfruit chips but i found none. so sad. ): i really really wanted to eat jackfruit chips.


so later belle joy and tamago appeared. oh yes. i found out who is in my camp group. [yea. ): but. it was expected] ohmygoodness at first i thought isaac was in my group again. cos he was standing there. but it turns out it was ryan. again. and hannahs in my group too! only of course.. yea. both somemore. ):


worship was great! sonice edge lead. ah! guess where I stood! (: oh well. someone needs a haircut (: winkwink. yea. youknowwho was soso cool la! i was staring again. i think erm. yourthatwho saw. ahem. im damn off la. okok. then comes the best part. tamagos a christian!! yes! she accepted christ today! she even said the sinners prayer! im so happy for her! haha. hope she'll get to know God more and more and more and more and more. (: (: yay!!


i think my new skins gonna turn out weird. hur. I think once people start making their own skins they just never want to download from blogskins.com again. it just feels soo.. cheap.

today is slack day! and fat day2 too. but. slack day! (: i really stayed at home and did nothing. but try to shit. (:


hm. today a most embarassing thing happened but obviously im not going to tell you what. and im gonna practise my mastermind again and again till i become the mastermind champion!! hohohoho.


looking forward to tomorrow. next weeks gonna be an exciting one!

yay today i went to visit my tingting. (: but it was only when i went all the wayy to pasarris when my mum told me tingting was at childcare. ): eh i felt like i wasted my entire day! somemore i didnt even get to shop. gr.


went to cut my hair. (: yes that cheapo place again. eh i look like a balded rooster. but still. at least it was better than the stupid pervert bitch at tony and guy. avoid that place. so. yea. bald chicken.


and i ate a roti boy. (: it was reallyreally nice. especially the first bite but by the time i reached the end i was nearly puking. practically forcing that stupid peice of bread down my throat. hmph. next time i shall share. becuase sharing is good! (: (: and then my dayi gave me so much food. haha. and i ate chocolate and a cookie when i went home. which also means that today is fat day!! ..fat days are badd for you i tell you. ): this morning i was pretty happy when i got onto the weighing machine. but i think everything is all gone back.

woke up at 11 today! wow. i am breaking the cycle! though i very much doubt i'll be able to sleep early tonight. last night was pretty much a failure. sigh tamago.


had pizza prata for lunch! yea is was not bad. innovation. heh. (:

yay i finally ran something properly. (: properly being for more than 5mins and more than 2.5km. (: yay i did 4k today! in a pathetic 25mins. thats right! slowly does it. and we'll keep working until i get all fit and nice! (: motivated. (:



and i didnt get that horrible feeling of dissapointment when i decended from the cross trainer. (: even though i stopped becuase i wanted to, and not cos i couldnt. and not cos i wanted to thinking i couldnt. but becuase. i achieved my goal! i await the lovely feeling of running 5.2k in 30mins. butbut. after all that. its gonna be at resistance 5. not at 2 or 3. andand. my family members are going to stop mocking me!! hohohohohohoho.<br>

shu bao gao

geog tys[half]

12 english essays

pw reflections

emaths worksheet

heymath quizzes

im boredddd.
today i remembered to watch my mei ren yu. (: felicia chin is soso chio. only she keeps getting bullied. :(


you know some people love to rip stuff off other people's blog? only they try to make it sond like they said it and it sounds all wrong. what losers. haha. that was random. (: (:


i feel soso sian. gr. the internet has nothing to offer me now. and im getting so damn freaking fat. in fact. the stupid pok weighing machine found me soso fat it showed me three different weights before I could even get off it. what kinda pok machine is that? it cant even lie properly


lalala. i have no more dreams to tell you about. ): i have no idea what to write for my essays. THIS POST IS DAMN SHIT LA.








[brown for shit]

today is ba zang day. happy ba zang day!! let me tell you the story od the ba zang.


once upon a time, there used to be a very goodlooking guy. not that he was good looking, he was just cool. but still. that was enough. in the country coosease there wasnt many cute guys. in fact. cute guy were reallyreallyreally hard to find. therefore, alot of girls fell for this guy. [well shall just call him W]. W was known for his black baggy shirts and nice hair and educated look. also, he was a nice person and had manymany talents! as years passed, more and more gurls started liking him. however, W did not live up to their expectations! he started looking less scholarly and his hair got worse and worse. the girls were unhappy but decided to be loyal. however, one day, he even stopped wearing black! not only that, his shirt was tight like a ba zang. that was the last straw. the girls were greatly displeased and plotted to have their revenge. the next day, they went to look for him, and he was wearing a tight shirt again! in fact, it made him even more like a bazang since the shirt was green. the girls then ambushed him and threw him into the river to feed the fishes, in order to fufil his wishes.
the end.


i think im supposed to add the part where everyone makes bazang on that day to remember him. but then it wont make sense! hurhur.


anyway. i like bazang day. (: although i havent eaten a single bazang. :/


had a nice long walk today. and i had a nice good think. it was peaceful and i think i benifitted from it. (:

hello. i realised that my posts are getting shorter and shorter. not that its a bad thing, but today, i shall attempt to do one of my long draggy posts. to commerate.. well. i dont know what. (:


went to church. (: but before that i had to waste 40mins at the library. yep. i read an entire book! yay. how interesting. english books are so nice and easy to read. unlike chinese. [i still havent finished that by the way. but i did find out that the guy who is always with Dicky is called Jimmy. (:] went to church. and SuMIn is sad becuase she has very little friends. ): like. seriously littlelittle.


church was. well. besides church, a major decision. so you can say today i was pretty much focused. its mainly because of:

• no glasses
• ugly hair
• white shirt. [not black!]
• late
• etc.

so you see its many many reasons and i say it was a good decision. oh butbut. church camp? yea. ):

ok that was pretty much coded. becuase. well. i dont want to tell you! (:

thought sermon today was really motivational. about being an evangelise. and i realised how selfish i am. like seriously. and self centered. and i can never become a good evangelise. cos i dont have the heart. unless of course, God changes me! and im sure he will. (:

got prayed for. and i was telling myself i didnt want to get slain. becuase i wouldnt know what to do. so no matter what, dont fall. and i didnt. but i felt something pushing, though im not sure if it the was holy spirit or just that guys hand. (:

and im getting fatter and fatter. gr.

hm. last night i dreamt of church camp. it was pretty scary. we had to make a parachute out of plastic bags and jump down from the sixth floor. of course im not gonna jump down the sixth floor with a parachute i made! and on top of that i didnt even bring plastic bags! so i zaoed and went home. then i got all worried. becuase the camp was going to be boring and i missed the first day and therefore had no idea how to go back. hur. i hope someone nice it in my group. :/ excited! (:

you know what i realised today? the main charecter in my chinese book, the chinese book i have been forcing myself to read for the past three days, his name is dicky! uh! and hes smart and goodooking and popular and whatever. yay. (:


went to tanglin mall for fish and chips. (:

oh goodness. my mum like finally agreed to go out with me. like seriously la! going out with her has never been so difficult before. stupid new principal who made her so busy. i had to complain about how im stuck at home all day and that my friends get to at least go out with their mum. for a really really long time before she went "ok la. mon or wednessday."grr.


hm. i wish i were bulimic. then everything i eat would just dissapear. i know this is more of a choice than something yr born with. but still. i dont fancy sticking my finger in my throat, or my head over the toilet bowl. :/


cant wait to shopshopshop. (: i want the mango colourful thing. only it costs a $50. and theres no way im gonna pay $50 for something that looks pretty [i dont know what its for]. and i want the chanel charm bracelet. only of course its chanel nd costs a freaking 740bucks. like. seriously?

who saw the energiser advert? ohmygoodness! its like soo soo lame. i nearly died when i saw it la. thats like. saddddd.


tamago and jia yun came over to play badminton. unfortunately. my house isnt exactly made for people to play badminton. haha. but tamago was so funny! whenever she hears a dog bark shye will scream damn loudy. then the lady walking the dog had to keep shushing the dog, and even carry it! i was like laughing non stop la. so funny.


wouldnt it be nice?

Your yoda.

You are wise beyond your years — a sage for the ages blablalba..

"yoda doesnt get red light sabars!..... lime green!"

eh its the june holidays already! i still. dont really believe it. i'll be like.
"oh look! i can paint my nails now! but i dont think i like any of the colours..."
"paint what nails la! its only for one week!"
then ill realise its the entire june ahead of me. and i have a month.

ah this is just sososo weird!
soon im going to realise that my holidays are all gone, and that i havent accomplished a thing!


oh yes. today i attempted to do something artistic. i think it was not bad. hahaha. shall do a red one next time!

hm. was reading my old blog entries. heh. reach camp was soso fun! haha. wonder how the radiate camp will turn out. wonder what we'll do. heh. hope i'll be in ma a nice group. with belle joy. (:


hoho. the cheesecake downstairs smell soso good. i wanna eateateat.

i like it when people say hi to me. or bye. depending when it is. (:


went to church today. had prayer walk. only i forgot to pray. :/ oh well. at least there was the part in room 305. thought it was pretty good. (: although there were only two people from my cell.


lalalala. thats all i think. for today. how uninteresting. oh whatever. when the pastor was praying i felt joy bubbling within me. so much joy i could barely contain it. it made me want to smile, it was in too great to be expressed in that little bit my mouth could stretch, and my face could wrinkle. i wonder what that was.


it was truely amazing watching people get healed, and miracles happen. (:


so you see. church isnt just about youth service. and youknowwhhat. God works wonders in every way. (:

questions.

sometimes i look around and wonder where all my friends went.
or was in merely an illusion?

[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
yea hes so cool


[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
just like my NEW PINK electric guiter

flooded with tears.
?

flooded with tears.
huh??

flooded with tears.

really?

flooded with tears.
so cool!

[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
yepyep

[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
my mum gave it to me just now!!

flooded with tears.
wah!i want!

[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
she was like. oh i forgot

flooded with tears.
!!!!

flooded with tears.
ure mom rocks la!

[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
you have a present

flooded with tears.
ahhhhh

[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
I SHOW YOU!!

flooded with tears.
[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
okie.

I then proceeded to change my display picture.

click here. before scrolling down.

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[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
yea

[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
the best part?


[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
IT BLOWS BUBBLES!

[161days to the dec hols] [i miss my fringe ):]
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and i was feeling all normal again when i saw the old photos.
and my display pic just isnt helping. becuase. well. you know...






):

you know my mums just so wonderful. shes just able to say the right things at the right time, and make me feel better no matter how sad i am. i love her. (: <3

my phone went swimming in a puddle. now its all dead. shit. so aside from having no money, the buttons dont work. now i not only cant reply your messages, i dont even receive them. life sucks.


went to tamagos house. supposedly to exercise but we ended up running only 500m or so. but dont musunderstand. it was in 200m laps. so we walk-ran our way to gimoh. for tamtam rice!! yes its damn nice la. no matter what you say tamago. when they gave it to me the sauce was overflowing, but now i realised it actually isnt enough!


dont you think yr such a bitch


one way, Jesus, Your the only one that i could live for!
tamago likes this song too. (:


ohohoh goodness!! my phone is working again! praise the Lord!

the best part of running[besides the lovely feeling you get] is after you stop, and then all of a sudden feel like puking. so you try to ignoere that feeling and begin to stretch. all of the sudden, the blood rushes to yr head and you get all dizzy, and the puke feeling is gone. haha i just loved that.


sigh im getting damn unfit la. havent exeicised properly in like. three months? now i need to start buidling up my staminar all over again. and i think its worse than before. ahh! i hate that. i hate not being able to run. not even on the cross trainer. i hate being fat and having a tummy. i hate not looking nice. grr.


i wish i could just be like that amazing people. exercise whenever i plan to. non stop. study hard. stop eating crap. lose weight and do well. have strong determination. but no. im the exact opposite. and i fail in everything i try to do. and the worse thing is that its my own fault. i know i could have done well, and i know i could have suceeded. but no. i didnt. becuase i gave up.


you know i was thinking about it the other day. about how. annoying i was [and still am]. and i reaslied that when i look back into my teenage years, im just gonna see years wasted away. im not going to look back and think. oh look. it did this and this and this. and its soo cool and interesting. or. oh i was clever and sucessful back then. i topped my class and won this competition. im just going to look back and go oh. yea. i loved sc. they had really nice mee pok and clean toilets. then i'll change the subject and talk about something more interesting.
but that isnt what i want. i want to look back and be able to smile. i want to know that i've donw something meaningful, something that i will not regret. [i have alot of regrets over the last two years] even if its just. getting fit and getting closer to God. that would be really wonderful.


i want to stop wasting away my time. but yet. its hardd.

i dont wanna stop bathing. ever.

[166days to the dec hols] [red and white and jeans. (:] says:
guess what!?
[ying] i can do it! says:
hey
[ying] i can do it! says:
yeah wad
[166days to the dec hols] [red and white and jeans. (:] says:
i saw sylvester!
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.
[ying] i can do it! says:
haha
[ying] i can do it! says:
he shopping with maia ah
[166days to the dec hols] [red and white and jeans. (:] says:
no
[166days to the dec hols] [red and white and jeans. (:] says:
DAPHNE!!
[166days to the dec hols] [red and white and jeans. (:] says:
gasp
[166days to the dec hols] [red and white and jeans. (:] says:
ANDAND
[166days to the dec hols] [red and white and jeans. (:] says:
THEY WERE WATCHING A MOVIE!
[ying] i can do it! says:
OMG!
[ying] i can do it! says:
SCANDALOUS!
[ying] i can do it! says:
SO YOU SAW DAPHNE TOO?


-squeals excitedly she sees sylvester-
mum: oo. is he with maia?
me: no..
mum: is he with maia?
me: no he isnt! ..oh goodness! hes with DAPHNE!

and from many others. hurhur.

today was a highly enjoyable day! why? becuase alot of enjoyable things happened! such as seeing sylvester! (: (: (:


this the short story:
i went to watch a movie today. and so did sylvester!!
i doubt anyone wants to ever listen to my long story so i shall be nice and not type it here. everyone clap!


so i went to watch starwars today. i decided that i support the dark side! becuase they use red light sabers. and. well. i like dark chocolate [mnms]. haha. how cool. it was nice la. yep. erm. full stop.


so i went shopping with my auntie and cousin. girls shop for pretty clothes and bags and shoes, while guys look bored and buy fake daggers. yea. i was actually pretty shocked when my cousion said he was coming. immiately images of how bored he would be flashed through my mine. but i didnt bother to warn him lest he thought i was meann or something. haha. too bad la. i bought a shirt. a shirt. and i shave spotted my shoes and shall buy it some time in the near future. finally something affordable. whee. (:


church was. ahh!! red and white and jeans. (: its simply fatefatefatefate! i think only belle joy and zoe [and maybe ting wei and jia yun] know what im saying. well. belle joy i talked about you you better tag! so yea. i seiously was about to stop. but then the red was revealed from beneath. i screamed inwardly. hahaha.


today erm someone gave announcments. i was totally supportive and screamed alot and loudly. i usually dont. haha. and i purposly screamed after everyone stopped. wowwow. so nice. :D


got prayed for. for the gift of tounges. i felt it. a little. Praise God! it shall grow!!

shoes.

looking at theses just make me feel soosoo sad.
click
click
click
click
and finally.. only at $39
click

doing a project on watches wasnt exactly a very wise choice. all of a sudden you find yourself liking so many you know you just cant afford. and its not just one.


i love the ralph lauren model! shes just sooo damn chio!! ahh! i can just sit there and stare at her. haha. i like the ralph lauren advertisements. and boss. and gucci. and ck and all the other brands. thats really stupid becuase beucase are looking at the stuff they sell and im there staring at the advertisement going oh this is so nice. then all of a sudden you'll realise you like the clothes or shoes or whatever and start feeling sad.


i think yr beginning to get the hint. that makes me feel alot better and happier and sunnier. but. i dontknow. sometimes its just a little weird. hahaha.


i'll miss miss sie. ):

how to make you hair all nice and standing
[like in those stupid hong kong shows, just after a bomb exploded in front of your head]

difficulty: easy
time taken: im not too sure. but you'll probably being doing sth else too so zero.
materials: water, shampoo, your hair[short] and the mystery miricle item!

how:

1. wash your hair. if you want it to be nice and smooth later you can put conditioner. but dont put the lo'real anti frizz thing becuase your hair will be too smooth and slide off your head. [fine i made that up]
2. towel dry your hair. or you can watch tv for like 10 mins.
3. then you use the mystery item. you sit in front of it for half an hour or so. until all your hair dries. and you'll find it all nice and standing!
4. you might want to use 2-4 of the mystery item for full effect. unless of course yr mystery item is stronger/bigger/better than mine. then you might only need one.

you must be wondering what the mystery item is. ok i'll tell you. its a fan! (:

wouldnt it be nice it the world was cadburry... yes i think it would be veryvery nice! like seriously. the stupid people has place that first on my wishlist. "a world make of chocolate". oh but it cannt be those cheapo kind that smells of fish. [yes. i ever taste chocolate that smelt it fish. i was damn sick. those cheapo chocolate coin one that nanyang gave me] but like. dove and hersheys and then. where i live. the more expensive brands. haha.
i mean. its really a very good thing. maybe you say will say. "but i will get fat! i mean with all the chocolate all over i will just have to keep eating it!" but no! that wont happen. in fact you'll be skinner than you've ever been! you can even chose what shape you want. [winkwink jingxuan] you see right. when you get too fat, all you need to do is to eat some of yourself! then you'll have more chocolate in you and you'll grow fat again, but you just need to eat more of yrself again! so you just keep eating away yr fat and sometime later your fat will jsut dissapear becuase energy is used in digestion. brilliant plan! and dont worry you wont get cancer or diabetes or anything becuase the water and plants and flowers are made of chocolate. eating vegetables and drinking water will only make you healthier. and glow. hahaha.


wish me goodluck for me emaths tomorrow!
and whatthehell. i did draw the girl.

what the hell. domainlx just has to die on the day after i complete my blogskin. now to one gets to appreciate its beauty and tag me.


oh well. ermph. yes. i made this blogskin myself. everyeverything. even drew all the pictures. so tag k. to tell me how wonderful i am. when the pictures come back.


went to suntec with my family again. haha. havent been there in a pretty long time. yep. shopping once again reminded me how fat and ugly and gross i am. so i got pretty much depressed. so much so that i didnt turn my clothes the right way back for the sales girls. i didnt give it to her neatly too. jsut one huge clump. well to bad. im a freaking fat bitch.


you called me today. i seriously dont know what to do anymore. ive tried to control myself, i bitched to my friends, ive bitch to my family. ive been mean to you. but its just getting worse. im just getting to see more and more of what you're really like. more of what i dont want to see. i mean. it was so obvious you just called me to boast. to make me feel jealous, and to make me feel bad. its not like you really wanted to talk to me or anything. it wasnt because you were excited and wanted to tell me. she was that way when she talked to me. i can tell you know. oh. and i wasnt sad at all. i didnt regret. i felt much better the moment i hang up. whatever negative feelings you tried to give me were gone... except the feelings about you.
the bible says i should handle it with love. but sometimes, its just so hard.

ps. green is not my favourite colour! i still love red.

i just found myself gasping when i saw wang ren fu's picture. gross. well. thankfully it wasnt an ohmygoodnesshessocute! gasp oh an ahh!wangrenfu gasp. more like an. oh mygoodness whats he doing here. (:


went for flag day today. it sucked as usual. i was so super enthu i didnt even slack and my bag was so heavy and i was so tired. grr. they should give me like extra hours or sth. yea. went with tamago. damn funny la. she was super loser cos no one wanted to donate to her. and i was smart enough to spot people so i had all the donations. i meanlike seriously la. all the people she recomand me to ask all suck. unlike the people i recomand her. haha. in the end she got so depressed i let her have all the nice people. then her bagt was like as heavy as mine la! blabla. did the watch thing and the guy was just soso nice. haha. we completed it like so quickly la!


church was good. as usuall. today i was clever and ran to the front early and chose the place! which was nearly totally accurate, until someone came and stole it while i was praying. haha how sad. hm. but i thought God taught me quite alot during worship. that was pretty surprising. this week i have been learning so much while praising God. i mean. i always thought worship was about praising God. little did i expect i myself would benifit from it! yep. but i think i still need to ponder over what He told me. and pray over it.


haha.when we were praying for the stepper belle joy was so stupid la. lol. she was like. oh look! see the names under sonic edge? the first letters of the first three names make out MGS!

SONIC EDGE:
Marcus Wong
G... sth
S... sth
lol. so stoopid la! but dont you think my memories soso good? hur.


the preacher was soo! i could feel God's prescence really strongly in the place. i mean even not im not realy sure how it feels like. but i think it was. everyone the preacher touched fell. and they were lying on the floor crying. i didnt get touched by him. but i felt my teeth and chattering and just that weird feeling you get in your heart. yep. and the guy in front of me, his knees were wobbling%2

oh yay. im happyhappyhappy. clever SuMIn has completed all the pictures needed! soon my new blog skin will be up! made by mememe and entirely me.


stayed back for aeromodelling today. i reallyreally didnt want to. but oh well. at least it turned out fine. (: our plane flew! its flying is reallyreally random. even worse than tamago and jamin's. lol. it was like. facing vertically up, spinning it circles. coolness. hope we win. hope out plane just doesn die too soon.


sigh. i wanna go do my blog. tata. (:

[this is the lastlast red entry. sad]

grr. im beginning yo get junk mail in my inbox. notfairnotfairnotfair. i mean i know its nomal. i was like kinda enjoying my. abnormalness.


today i stupid insect shitted on my geog file. damn sick la! it like landed on my geog file and i nearly touched it. then when i chased to away and it flow off i found this disgusting yellow glob! damn sick la. yukyuk.


i forgot everything i wanted to say. i hope mrs yeo is alright. and they will tell us what happened tomorrow. hm.

sometimes you think you have everything. and you feel all nice and happy. but then when you turn yr head and look carefully, you realise everything is gone. what you have been looking at was simply illusions. shadows. and there you are. standing all alone in darkness.


grr. i just cantcant write. hm. on tues miss chua talked to us about her mother. she died of cancer. hearing that just made to feel soo badd. it made me realise how self centered and selfish i am. i mean there we were in class rejoicing becuase she didnt come to school, and becuase be had a free period. but yet. she was somewhere else greiving and crying. how could we ever have rejoiced at her misfortune? we didnt even reaslie how many people were out there mourning over the loss of their loved one. all we cared about was ourselves. i mean so what if we dont like the teacher. so what if we dont like chinese or geog or whatever. even if she didnt come simply becuase shes sick, shes still suffering out there. it made me realise how heartless it is to cheer whenever a teacher is absent. itsnt it the same and wishing shes sick all year round?


blabla. im bored.

iloverediloveredilovered. <3>

in school using the comp now! haha. free period. dont even know if we're allowed here. hurhur. if i get into trouble im just gonna die. hur. we were so wetarded. rushing to the library. then the librarian saw us and lifted up the sign. "computers are not avalible. please proceed to com lab and 3"


hm. let me tell you a story. kae ting and I came up with it!

one day, sylvester decided he was too hawt. so he went to buy a slurpee! [that was kae ting's] and he got a brain freeze! again and again and again! X)


lalala.

happy mothers day!

hm. wish me luck for my chinese test tomorrow. i had nice dinner today. red.

fallen.

fallenfallne. hur. went to jing xuans house for CME. hm. maybe i shouldnt have suggested the takuya thing. oh goodness they went mad. like seriously. badbad move. but out picture turned out pretty nice. we spent like eons on it. haha. to change the camara thing in his hand to a sushi! lol. it was like super funny la. (:


hm. went to church. and belle joy and ruth were like. suaning me becuase i spent twenty minutes in the toilet. and move slowly. and eat slowly. and like to eat popiah. and like to stalk pauline soh. and whatever else i cant remember. i mean i only have three words okayy. i do not! and they said that theyb should make a movie of my life. but belle joy and ruth. i tell you k! the movies gonna very intresting and popular and i'll get all famous and rich becuase life is interesting! and everybody loves me. andand. i know yr jealous of my belt! yesyes. i saw through yr ploy belle joy! yr evil ploy of making me too fat for my belt so you can steal it and wear it! but i tell you im too clever and i exposed it and anyway church saved me! >)


hm. sometimes things just get too weird. like yr walking and you see this guy in a cap. and you say to yrself. ew pleaseplease dont let it be whoever. [it was an ugly cap. and it didnt suit. that whoever] and it isnt. but then you walk into service and when you see that whoever, he is wearing a cap! and you go yukyukyuk how gross. and then when you see him again, he isnt! but then you;re still not happy and you go ew hes hair is so gross today. [you see the cap killed it] but then. when you look again, hes wearing the cap! lol. it was just. weird. hahaha.


God gave me a splended family. and wonderful parents. i love Him. (:


but i dont love ____ becuase ____. >(

sometimes, its only when something around dissapears that you realise how much you love it. but yet. sometimes, its also when the thing is placed before you, when you recall its ugliness, see its flaws, and feel the... negative thoughts. saddening isnt it.


hm. zoe came back today. i think shes bent on spreading her sickness to me. i mean she sat like so near me! and she coughed into my paper. luckily i was clever and gave it to her. ..or maybe that was just some ploy of hers. just like what she said the doctor said. hur.


geog test as hm. annoying. just like that bitch who cut my queue. seriously. i mean she pissed me off so much i didnt wanna eat. i mean if you cut the queue is fine. even that stinkeyy girl who cut the queue didnt really piss me off. not like i havent cut people's queue before right? but it was only two people! two. and she still had to cut la. bloody problem.


hm. i found two pairs of heels. the nicer ones cost erm. $70, and the notsonicebutstillnotbad one costs $40. haha. should i or should i not. my sister days not. but i like!!

i got my gold! yay! elation. hur. didnt really do well for 2.4 but still. its good enough. haha. unless i remember my timing wrongly and got a D. bahh. then i'll have to run again. hm. should i? i mean i know i could have done alotlot better. only i didnt..well. bother? hahahaha. i walked naerly every single round! surprising that i actually managed to pass! lol. woot! :P


hm. zoe hasnt been coming to school these two days. i normally dread sitting alone. but now i find it pretty.. pleasent. haha i dont know. its just like. personal time to myself. when i can be all alone and stone during lessons. [but i do pay attention sometimes!] and i can just sit there and shut up and think about.. well. (: though not really la.


hm what else. geog test tomorrow. im scared.

there are stuff happening in my that i cant control. stuff that i dont want to happen. but yet. what can be done? i only have three words. and three words. and three words. idontwantidontwantidontwaaaaaant!!! grrr. i'll stop this i tell you. i can.


im seriously freaking out for my 2.4 its tomorrow's tomorrow. thats thursday! and. im just totally unprepared. i havent ran in two weeks. thats like. baad. andand. i want an A. so badly. its come to the time where its not about an A anymore. more like a C. just enough to get me a gold. everyone everywhere has been getting lower than their targets. it just freaks me out. too much.


physics test tomorrow. grr. unprepared. howhow. this entry is pretty pessimistic. thats just about how i feel now. bahh. the coughs spreading well. hurhur. best parts that im recovering! X) i erm. fell out of love. after spreading it to the entire world.(: (:

i just wanna thank God. for everyeverything He has given to me. and done for me. and for making my life so.. livable. sometimes we just take too many things for granted.


hm. last night i dreamt of matai. haha. it was really weird. i mean the dream just came out of no where. i wasnt even really thinking about cambodia [besides when i wore my track pants and remembered i wore it in cambodia] and today alecia messaged me to ask me to send her the cambodia photos. yea so anyway. i dreamt that i went to cambodia. with i think my mission team and some other people. then they told me that i wouldnt be able to see matai. and i was like super depressed. like i couldnt pay attention to anything i did. and even scalded my hand when i poured water for someone. yea. so everyone was freaking pissed with me. cos i was acting like some lovesick freak. then.then. for some reason, i got to see matai! i cant remember how but anyway i did. and he remembered me. i asked alot of times. and he knew exactly who i was! andand. well. stuff happened. (:


hm. i got new shoes!! the nike one that no one wears anymore. but still. lub. haha its for school. but im afraid i'll get booked. howhow. ): but still. its nice. and i finally got sports shoes. finally. been waiting since like forever. although i never really asked for a pair. but. still.


im freaking out badly for my 2.4 i mean im getting sososo unfit! gah. howhow?

hm. kae ting and jing xuan just left. haha. they stayed over last night! lol. it was alot funner than we all expected. thought it would turn out to be some sianish flop.


kae ting and zoe came at 1sth. and we watched spirited away!! haha. i cant believe zoe doesnt know about my third floor. i mean i knew her since sec one and she came over so many times. oh well. i missed the best part cos i went to church. haha. nows them part i have to focus on belle joy.


church was funfun. i went for cell and belle joy was there! she was sitting on adelines bed. yes. then when we had cell she sat one place away from me. next to ruth. no fair. [:/]ya so anyway. so after cell we went to the hawker centre. yea. i saw the entire [edit] group. but he wasnt there. i mean even the guy hes always with was there. but just not him. hm. pretty depressing. haha. then i made belle joy come with me to buy food. and oh! he was there! haha. only i didnt look cos it was too obvious [oh goodness. this is history repeating itself all over again.] so i bought ice kachang! haha. yay! (: and. ahem. i shall stop talking about him. esp all the winkwink parts. becuase... yea. becuase.


service rocked as usual. haha. pauline soh came to say hi to me. and got daoed again. haha. this time it really wasnt my fault. i did mean to talk to her. and well. find out. only she had to came at the most unapporate moments. oh fine. but i did turn my head when i saw her first for the first time.


i think worship was nice. we sang nice songs. like one way. haha. it made me wanna laugh. haha i stood behind. becuase.. and there was this stinkeyy guy in front of me. only i didnt wanna ask tab to move because it was rude. and well. yea. pastor bee preached about erm. talents. then i went to meet zoe and jing xuan and kae ting. yea. waited so super long. so too bad for kae ting. she missed seeing her jay chou.


yea. i brought zoe into church to show her something. only of course i didnt tell jing xuan and kae ting what i was showing her. and they got freaking pissed. like seriously. you cant expect me to tell you everything. when you dont keep secrets, make fun of me, and insult my taste. either that of you totally rip off my ideas and claim it as or own. oh oops. i think i just insulted someone. so yea. we were so stupid. the 2nd time i went in i just felt soo retarded i pretended to be looking for my notebook. which doesn really exist.


came home and spent the night playing cards, watching movies, peeing, and talking. hur. woke up and 11sth. freezing. we went for lunch with my parents and grandparents and some hotel at raffles sth. the food there pretty much sucks. dont go.


that was when zoe got pissed with us. but we shant talk about that. becuase its not a nice thing to talk about. went shopping and bout two nice shirts. hm. im depressed. the shoes i want cost $99 each. and the back 70. >(

gold! congrats to the handbells people!! haha. this year is so wonderful. we got gold for everything!! oh excpet for dance. we got gold with honours! X)


got out of running 2.4 today. im sick! and unprepared. and without ting wei. and kae ting. yea. so out of no where i had this horrible runny nose. which just made me not want to run even more. so i told everyone i didnt wanna run. cos i could breath. which i couldnt. i didnt my nose to be flowing all over me la! yea. somemore jing xuan and kae ting wern't running. they had an mc!! i didnt!so anyway i went to ask mrsd bowness. she said i sounded sick. it was a blessing in disguise!!


it looked soo funny. there were like ten sick people sitting there. and the rest of the class was running. go jia yun!!

napfa sucked. i mean five stations. i got a bloody b! notice the aliteration. for emphasis. it stained my whole thing. ahhh!!! pissed off. stupid they wouldnt let me try. i was pretty sure i could have improved slightly. ): lets see

sit ups: A
pull ups : A
sit and reach: A [ love mrs linda lee!]
standing broad jump: A
Shuttle run: b!! bloody b!!


bahh. but standing broad jump was soo stupid! i jumped like four times. first time i slipped when i jump. and 2nd time i slipped when i landed!! i landed on my butt la. so super embarrassing. and it was in front of that stupid john teo [ok fine. he was nice today] so i jumped again and my butt was damn pain and i didnt even dare to jump properly. so he asked me if i watned to jump again and i said yes. only i couldnt! so i just gave up. whatever la. at least i got my A. haha. damn close la 188.5 crappish.


haha. im gonna train hard for next year. i promise. i gonna get A for my stupid shuttle run. but actually. speed is the only thing i didnt like. do. when i exercise. oh well. im gonna go at least 50 sit ups next year!!


2.4 tomorrow. scared scared!! ahh!! >( ting wei i wanna run with you. ): oh. and good luck (: you can do it!

im so proud of this entry im not gonna delete this. heck.

bitch [edit] booked me today. hurr. i mean if you booked me for untucked shirt or folded skirt of something i understand. but seriously. long fingernails!? my nails are hardly this short la! and like. she just refused to listen to any of my explanations. which were actually quite valid. but thats not even the point! what was she doing staring at my nails across the ailse. my hands were under my table! and she booked me for nails. i bet she was bored or something.
"oh look. im in a bad mood. lets find someone to book. its just so fun. pretending its just a warning and getting them a beta. then i'll have the highest chance of getting a good job in the future! oh look! its su min! lets see what i can book her for. oh no. her skirt is long. her belt is ine. her socks are damn high [darn! that would have gotten her a booking] shes not wearing any earrings. oh look! are those her hands under the table? i probably can book her for fingernails? i mean who cuts their nails everyday? there will probably be a little bit of white stuff for me to pick on!"
stupid bitch. its two warnings from a beta by the way.

im spreading the love!! it has nearly touched the four coners of my class! yay. so exciting, everyones getting my love. well. kae tings and mine. i mean after all she started it.

• kae ting [she had a double dose!]
• me
• jing xuan
• zoe
• li shan
• denise
• ai xue
• hien [i think]

and other randoms! oh. mr jeow.and miss sie. haha. im all excited. soon the entire 3pr will get loved by all of us. x)

today was super sian. haha. i dont know why. ans no one got my corny joke. i mean its corny. but its not bad la! becuase miss sie was like. who else do you knoe who was corny. so i aws like. i know!! cornelius!! as in. corny-lious. and zoe like took so long to get it and she didnt even laugh. and jia yun was like. oo i understand! harry potter! oh well. it was mostly becuase certain people dont know cornelious is a name. however you spell it.

someone tell me what to do.

Dicky.

some day in the near future i shall take out my Dicky VCDs and enjoy every pixel of it. i feel my love for him bubbling up all over again. (:

i find myself thinking and thinking of you. and the watch i dreamt of lastlast night. it was just soo wonderful. and i had it all! it was all mine. my dad gave it to me. sigh. if i find it anywhere i promise i'll do all i can to get it. even if it means flying to the south pole and paying alot and alot. ): let me describe its beauty. though it will be pretty hard.


it looked something like the skin watch. but the face was a little smaller. then it was a normal watch. as in not digital. but at the left side of the watch, half hidden, was two buttons. and its actually a timer. or whatever its called. ya. little mubers will appear right at the bottem of the face. coolness.
then the strap was metallic. it was reallyreally nice. i dont know how to describe.
and it was guess. i think.


niceness!
i want you. so bad.