doing a project on watches wasnt exactly a very wise choice. all of a sudden you find yourself liking so many you know you just cant afford. and its not just one.


i love the ralph lauren model! shes just sooo damn chio!! ahh! i can just sit there and stare at her. haha. i like the ralph lauren advertisements. and boss. and gucci. and ck and all the other brands. thats really stupid becuase beucase are looking at the stuff they sell and im there staring at the advertisement going oh this is so nice. then all of a sudden you'll realise you like the clothes or shoes or whatever and start feeling sad.


i think yr beginning to get the hint. that makes me feel alot better and happier and sunnier. but. i dontknow. sometimes its just a little weird. hahaha.


i'll miss miss sie. ):

how to make you hair all nice and standing
[like in those stupid hong kong shows, just after a bomb exploded in front of your head]

difficulty: easy
time taken: im not too sure. but you'll probably being doing sth else too so zero.
materials: water, shampoo, your hair[short] and the mystery miricle item!

how:

1. wash your hair. if you want it to be nice and smooth later you can put conditioner. but dont put the lo'real anti frizz thing becuase your hair will be too smooth and slide off your head. [fine i made that up]
2. towel dry your hair. or you can watch tv for like 10 mins.
3. then you use the mystery item. you sit in front of it for half an hour or so. until all your hair dries. and you'll find it all nice and standing!
4. you might want to use 2-4 of the mystery item for full effect. unless of course yr mystery item is stronger/bigger/better than mine. then you might only need one.

you must be wondering what the mystery item is. ok i'll tell you. its a fan! (:

wouldnt it be nice it the world was cadburry... yes i think it would be veryvery nice! like seriously. the stupid people has place that first on my wishlist. "a world make of chocolate". oh but it cannt be those cheapo kind that smells of fish. [yes. i ever taste chocolate that smelt it fish. i was damn sick. those cheapo chocolate coin one that nanyang gave me] but like. dove and hersheys and then. where i live. the more expensive brands. haha.
i mean. its really a very good thing. maybe you say will say. "but i will get fat! i mean with all the chocolate all over i will just have to keep eating it!" but no! that wont happen. in fact you'll be skinner than you've ever been! you can even chose what shape you want. [winkwink jingxuan] you see right. when you get too fat, all you need to do is to eat some of yourself! then you'll have more chocolate in you and you'll grow fat again, but you just need to eat more of yrself again! so you just keep eating away yr fat and sometime later your fat will jsut dissapear becuase energy is used in digestion. brilliant plan! and dont worry you wont get cancer or diabetes or anything becuase the water and plants and flowers are made of chocolate. eating vegetables and drinking water will only make you healthier. and glow. hahaha.


wish me goodluck for me emaths tomorrow!
and whatthehell. i did draw the girl.

what the hell. domainlx just has to die on the day after i complete my blogskin. now to one gets to appreciate its beauty and tag me.


oh well. ermph. yes. i made this blogskin myself. everyeverything. even drew all the pictures. so tag k. to tell me how wonderful i am. when the pictures come back.


went to suntec with my family again. haha. havent been there in a pretty long time. yep. shopping once again reminded me how fat and ugly and gross i am. so i got pretty much depressed. so much so that i didnt turn my clothes the right way back for the sales girls. i didnt give it to her neatly too. jsut one huge clump. well to bad. im a freaking fat bitch.


you called me today. i seriously dont know what to do anymore. ive tried to control myself, i bitched to my friends, ive bitch to my family. ive been mean to you. but its just getting worse. im just getting to see more and more of what you're really like. more of what i dont want to see. i mean. it was so obvious you just called me to boast. to make me feel jealous, and to make me feel bad. its not like you really wanted to talk to me or anything. it wasnt because you were excited and wanted to tell me. she was that way when she talked to me. i can tell you know. oh. and i wasnt sad at all. i didnt regret. i felt much better the moment i hang up. whatever negative feelings you tried to give me were gone... except the feelings about you.
the bible says i should handle it with love. but sometimes, its just so hard.

ps. green is not my favourite colour! i still love red.

i just found myself gasping when i saw wang ren fu's picture. gross. well. thankfully it wasnt an ohmygoodnesshessocute! gasp oh an ahh!wangrenfu gasp. more like an. oh mygoodness whats he doing here. (:


went for flag day today. it sucked as usual. i was so super enthu i didnt even slack and my bag was so heavy and i was so tired. grr. they should give me like extra hours or sth. yea. went with tamago. damn funny la. she was super loser cos no one wanted to donate to her. and i was smart enough to spot people so i had all the donations. i meanlike seriously la. all the people she recomand me to ask all suck. unlike the people i recomand her. haha. in the end she got so depressed i let her have all the nice people. then her bagt was like as heavy as mine la! blabla. did the watch thing and the guy was just soso nice. haha. we completed it like so quickly la!


church was good. as usuall. today i was clever and ran to the front early and chose the place! which was nearly totally accurate, until someone came and stole it while i was praying. haha how sad. hm. but i thought God taught me quite alot during worship. that was pretty surprising. this week i have been learning so much while praising God. i mean. i always thought worship was about praising God. little did i expect i myself would benifit from it! yep. but i think i still need to ponder over what He told me. and pray over it.


haha.when we were praying for the stepper belle joy was so stupid la. lol. she was like. oh look! see the names under sonic edge? the first letters of the first three names make out MGS!

SONIC EDGE:
Marcus Wong
G... sth
S... sth
lol. so stoopid la! but dont you think my memories soso good? hur.


the preacher was soo! i could feel God's prescence really strongly in the place. i mean even not im not realy sure how it feels like. but i think it was. everyone the preacher touched fell. and they were lying on the floor crying. i didnt get touched by him. but i felt my teeth and chattering and just that weird feeling you get in your heart. yep. and the guy in front of me, his knees were wobbling%2

oh yay. im happyhappyhappy. clever SuMIn has completed all the pictures needed! soon my new blog skin will be up! made by mememe and entirely me.


stayed back for aeromodelling today. i reallyreally didnt want to. but oh well. at least it turned out fine. (: our plane flew! its flying is reallyreally random. even worse than tamago and jamin's. lol. it was like. facing vertically up, spinning it circles. coolness. hope we win. hope out plane just doesn die too soon.


sigh. i wanna go do my blog. tata. (:

[this is the lastlast red entry. sad]

grr. im beginning yo get junk mail in my inbox. notfairnotfairnotfair. i mean i know its nomal. i was like kinda enjoying my. abnormalness.


today i stupid insect shitted on my geog file. damn sick la! it like landed on my geog file and i nearly touched it. then when i chased to away and it flow off i found this disgusting yellow glob! damn sick la. yukyuk.


i forgot everything i wanted to say. i hope mrs yeo is alright. and they will tell us what happened tomorrow. hm.

sometimes you think you have everything. and you feel all nice and happy. but then when you turn yr head and look carefully, you realise everything is gone. what you have been looking at was simply illusions. shadows. and there you are. standing all alone in darkness.


grr. i just cantcant write. hm. on tues miss chua talked to us about her mother. she died of cancer. hearing that just made to feel soo badd. it made me realise how self centered and selfish i am. i mean there we were in class rejoicing becuase she didnt come to school, and becuase be had a free period. but yet. she was somewhere else greiving and crying. how could we ever have rejoiced at her misfortune? we didnt even reaslie how many people were out there mourning over the loss of their loved one. all we cared about was ourselves. i mean so what if we dont like the teacher. so what if we dont like chinese or geog or whatever. even if she didnt come simply becuase shes sick, shes still suffering out there. it made me realise how heartless it is to cheer whenever a teacher is absent. itsnt it the same and wishing shes sick all year round?


blabla. im bored.

iloverediloveredilovered. <3>

in school using the comp now! haha. free period. dont even know if we're allowed here. hurhur. if i get into trouble im just gonna die. hur. we were so wetarded. rushing to the library. then the librarian saw us and lifted up the sign. "computers are not avalible. please proceed to com lab and 3"


hm. let me tell you a story. kae ting and I came up with it!

one day, sylvester decided he was too hawt. so he went to buy a slurpee! [that was kae ting's] and he got a brain freeze! again and again and again! X)


lalala.

happy mothers day!

hm. wish me luck for my chinese test tomorrow. i had nice dinner today. red.

fallen.

fallenfallne. hur. went to jing xuans house for CME. hm. maybe i shouldnt have suggested the takuya thing. oh goodness they went mad. like seriously. badbad move. but out picture turned out pretty nice. we spent like eons on it. haha. to change the camara thing in his hand to a sushi! lol. it was like super funny la. (:


hm. went to church. and belle joy and ruth were like. suaning me becuase i spent twenty minutes in the toilet. and move slowly. and eat slowly. and like to eat popiah. and like to stalk pauline soh. and whatever else i cant remember. i mean i only have three words okayy. i do not! and they said that theyb should make a movie of my life. but belle joy and ruth. i tell you k! the movies gonna very intresting and popular and i'll get all famous and rich becuase life is interesting! and everybody loves me. andand. i know yr jealous of my belt! yesyes. i saw through yr ploy belle joy! yr evil ploy of making me too fat for my belt so you can steal it and wear it! but i tell you im too clever and i exposed it and anyway church saved me! >)


hm. sometimes things just get too weird. like yr walking and you see this guy in a cap. and you say to yrself. ew pleaseplease dont let it be whoever. [it was an ugly cap. and it didnt suit. that whoever] and it isnt. but then you walk into service and when you see that whoever, he is wearing a cap! and you go yukyukyuk how gross. and then when you see him again, he isnt! but then you;re still not happy and you go ew hes hair is so gross today. [you see the cap killed it] but then. when you look again, hes wearing the cap! lol. it was just. weird. hahaha.


God gave me a splended family. and wonderful parents. i love Him. (:


but i dont love ____ becuase ____. >(

sometimes, its only when something around dissapears that you realise how much you love it. but yet. sometimes, its also when the thing is placed before you, when you recall its ugliness, see its flaws, and feel the... negative thoughts. saddening isnt it.


hm. zoe came back today. i think shes bent on spreading her sickness to me. i mean she sat like so near me! and she coughed into my paper. luckily i was clever and gave it to her. ..or maybe that was just some ploy of hers. just like what she said the doctor said. hur.


geog test as hm. annoying. just like that bitch who cut my queue. seriously. i mean she pissed me off so much i didnt wanna eat. i mean if you cut the queue is fine. even that stinkeyy girl who cut the queue didnt really piss me off. not like i havent cut people's queue before right? but it was only two people! two. and she still had to cut la. bloody problem.


hm. i found two pairs of heels. the nicer ones cost erm. $70, and the notsonicebutstillnotbad one costs $40. haha. should i or should i not. my sister days not. but i like!!

i got my gold! yay! elation. hur. didnt really do well for 2.4 but still. its good enough. haha. unless i remember my timing wrongly and got a D. bahh. then i'll have to run again. hm. should i? i mean i know i could have done alotlot better. only i didnt..well. bother? hahahaha. i walked naerly every single round! surprising that i actually managed to pass! lol. woot! :P


hm. zoe hasnt been coming to school these two days. i normally dread sitting alone. but now i find it pretty.. pleasent. haha i dont know. its just like. personal time to myself. when i can be all alone and stone during lessons. [but i do pay attention sometimes!] and i can just sit there and shut up and think about.. well. (: though not really la.


hm what else. geog test tomorrow. im scared.

there are stuff happening in my that i cant control. stuff that i dont want to happen. but yet. what can be done? i only have three words. and three words. and three words. idontwantidontwantidontwaaaaaant!!! grrr. i'll stop this i tell you. i can.


im seriously freaking out for my 2.4 its tomorrow's tomorrow. thats thursday! and. im just totally unprepared. i havent ran in two weeks. thats like. baad. andand. i want an A. so badly. its come to the time where its not about an A anymore. more like a C. just enough to get me a gold. everyone everywhere has been getting lower than their targets. it just freaks me out. too much.


physics test tomorrow. grr. unprepared. howhow. this entry is pretty pessimistic. thats just about how i feel now. bahh. the coughs spreading well. hurhur. best parts that im recovering! X) i erm. fell out of love. after spreading it to the entire world.(: (:

i just wanna thank God. for everyeverything He has given to me. and done for me. and for making my life so.. livable. sometimes we just take too many things for granted.


hm. last night i dreamt of matai. haha. it was really weird. i mean the dream just came out of no where. i wasnt even really thinking about cambodia [besides when i wore my track pants and remembered i wore it in cambodia] and today alecia messaged me to ask me to send her the cambodia photos. yea so anyway. i dreamt that i went to cambodia. with i think my mission team and some other people. then they told me that i wouldnt be able to see matai. and i was like super depressed. like i couldnt pay attention to anything i did. and even scalded my hand when i poured water for someone. yea. so everyone was freaking pissed with me. cos i was acting like some lovesick freak. then.then. for some reason, i got to see matai! i cant remember how but anyway i did. and he remembered me. i asked alot of times. and he knew exactly who i was! andand. well. stuff happened. (:


hm. i got new shoes!! the nike one that no one wears anymore. but still. lub. haha its for school. but im afraid i'll get booked. howhow. ): but still. its nice. and i finally got sports shoes. finally. been waiting since like forever. although i never really asked for a pair. but. still.


im freaking out badly for my 2.4 i mean im getting sososo unfit! gah. howhow?

hm. kae ting and jing xuan just left. haha. they stayed over last night! lol. it was alot funner than we all expected. thought it would turn out to be some sianish flop.


kae ting and zoe came at 1sth. and we watched spirited away!! haha. i cant believe zoe doesnt know about my third floor. i mean i knew her since sec one and she came over so many times. oh well. i missed the best part cos i went to church. haha. nows them part i have to focus on belle joy.


church was funfun. i went for cell and belle joy was there! she was sitting on adelines bed. yes. then when we had cell she sat one place away from me. next to ruth. no fair. [:/]ya so anyway. so after cell we went to the hawker centre. yea. i saw the entire [edit] group. but he wasnt there. i mean even the guy hes always with was there. but just not him. hm. pretty depressing. haha. then i made belle joy come with me to buy food. and oh! he was there! haha. only i didnt look cos it was too obvious [oh goodness. this is history repeating itself all over again.] so i bought ice kachang! haha. yay! (: and. ahem. i shall stop talking about him. esp all the winkwink parts. becuase... yea. becuase.


service rocked as usual. haha. pauline soh came to say hi to me. and got daoed again. haha. this time it really wasnt my fault. i did mean to talk to her. and well. find out. only she had to came at the most unapporate moments. oh fine. but i did turn my head when i saw her first for the first time.


i think worship was nice. we sang nice songs. like one way. haha. it made me wanna laugh. haha i stood behind. becuase.. and there was this stinkeyy guy in front of me. only i didnt wanna ask tab to move because it was rude. and well. yea. pastor bee preached about erm. talents. then i went to meet zoe and jing xuan and kae ting. yea. waited so super long. so too bad for kae ting. she missed seeing her jay chou.


yea. i brought zoe into church to show her something. only of course i didnt tell jing xuan and kae ting what i was showing her. and they got freaking pissed. like seriously. you cant expect me to tell you everything. when you dont keep secrets, make fun of me, and insult my taste. either that of you totally rip off my ideas and claim it as or own. oh oops. i think i just insulted someone. so yea. we were so stupid. the 2nd time i went in i just felt soo retarded i pretended to be looking for my notebook. which doesn really exist.


came home and spent the night playing cards, watching movies, peeing, and talking. hur. woke up and 11sth. freezing. we went for lunch with my parents and grandparents and some hotel at raffles sth. the food there pretty much sucks. dont go.


that was when zoe got pissed with us. but we shant talk about that. becuase its not a nice thing to talk about. went shopping and bout two nice shirts. hm. im depressed. the shoes i want cost $99 each. and the back 70. >(

gold! congrats to the handbells people!! haha. this year is so wonderful. we got gold for everything!! oh excpet for dance. we got gold with honours! X)


got out of running 2.4 today. im sick! and unprepared. and without ting wei. and kae ting. yea. so out of no where i had this horrible runny nose. which just made me not want to run even more. so i told everyone i didnt wanna run. cos i could breath. which i couldnt. i didnt my nose to be flowing all over me la! yea. somemore jing xuan and kae ting wern't running. they had an mc!! i didnt!so anyway i went to ask mrsd bowness. she said i sounded sick. it was a blessing in disguise!!


it looked soo funny. there were like ten sick people sitting there. and the rest of the class was running. go jia yun!!

napfa sucked. i mean five stations. i got a bloody b! notice the aliteration. for emphasis. it stained my whole thing. ahhh!!! pissed off. stupid they wouldnt let me try. i was pretty sure i could have improved slightly. ): lets see

sit ups: A
pull ups : A
sit and reach: A [ love mrs linda lee!]
standing broad jump: A
Shuttle run: b!! bloody b!!


bahh. but standing broad jump was soo stupid! i jumped like four times. first time i slipped when i jump. and 2nd time i slipped when i landed!! i landed on my butt la. so super embarrassing. and it was in front of that stupid john teo [ok fine. he was nice today] so i jumped again and my butt was damn pain and i didnt even dare to jump properly. so he asked me if i watned to jump again and i said yes. only i couldnt! so i just gave up. whatever la. at least i got my A. haha. damn close la 188.5 crappish.


haha. im gonna train hard for next year. i promise. i gonna get A for my stupid shuttle run. but actually. speed is the only thing i didnt like. do. when i exercise. oh well. im gonna go at least 50 sit ups next year!!


2.4 tomorrow. scared scared!! ahh!! >( ting wei i wanna run with you. ): oh. and good luck (: you can do it!

im so proud of this entry im not gonna delete this. heck.

bitch [edit] booked me today. hurr. i mean if you booked me for untucked shirt or folded skirt of something i understand. but seriously. long fingernails!? my nails are hardly this short la! and like. she just refused to listen to any of my explanations. which were actually quite valid. but thats not even the point! what was she doing staring at my nails across the ailse. my hands were under my table! and she booked me for nails. i bet she was bored or something.
"oh look. im in a bad mood. lets find someone to book. its just so fun. pretending its just a warning and getting them a beta. then i'll have the highest chance of getting a good job in the future! oh look! its su min! lets see what i can book her for. oh no. her skirt is long. her belt is ine. her socks are damn high [darn! that would have gotten her a booking] shes not wearing any earrings. oh look! are those her hands under the table? i probably can book her for fingernails? i mean who cuts their nails everyday? there will probably be a little bit of white stuff for me to pick on!"
stupid bitch. its two warnings from a beta by the way.

im spreading the love!! it has nearly touched the four coners of my class! yay. so exciting, everyones getting my love. well. kae tings and mine. i mean after all she started it.

• kae ting [she had a double dose!]
• me
• jing xuan
• zoe
• li shan
• denise
• ai xue
• hien [i think]

and other randoms! oh. mr jeow.and miss sie. haha. im all excited. soon the entire 3pr will get loved by all of us. x)

today was super sian. haha. i dont know why. ans no one got my corny joke. i mean its corny. but its not bad la! becuase miss sie was like. who else do you knoe who was corny. so i aws like. i know!! cornelius!! as in. corny-lious. and zoe like took so long to get it and she didnt even laugh. and jia yun was like. oo i understand! harry potter! oh well. it was mostly becuase certain people dont know cornelious is a name. however you spell it.

someone tell me what to do.

Dicky.

some day in the near future i shall take out my Dicky VCDs and enjoy every pixel of it. i feel my love for him bubbling up all over again. (:

i find myself thinking and thinking of you. and the watch i dreamt of lastlast night. it was just soo wonderful. and i had it all! it was all mine. my dad gave it to me. sigh. if i find it anywhere i promise i'll do all i can to get it. even if it means flying to the south pole and paying alot and alot. ): let me describe its beauty. though it will be pretty hard.


it looked something like the skin watch. but the face was a little smaller. then it was a normal watch. as in not digital. but at the left side of the watch, half hidden, was two buttons. and its actually a timer. or whatever its called. ya. little mubers will appear right at the bottem of the face. coolness.
then the strap was metallic. it was reallyreally nice. i dont know how to describe.
and it was guess. i think.


niceness!
i want you. so bad.

yayyay. today is a goodgood day. X) church and everything about it rocks. even the erm. less Godly parts. haha.


today i saw Miss Soh's boyfriend!! clapclap. it was pretty funny la. becuase we were like eating in the hawker centre. or rather adeline was eating. and ruth just went to buy her butterfly when service ended! so i was like ahh!! service ended! lets so look quickquick! and adelines was like oy. wait for us la. so i sat on ruth's chair. becuase it gave a better view. but then she came back and chased me off! so i was left like. standing there and staring at the direction of the church! and ohoh she came!! so i like ran to my seat. and the entire table was staring at her. hahaha. then i had a good stare at her boyfriend. and she saw me and waved and came over to talk. only we were daoing her. esp adeline! lol.


think i learnt quite alot in church today. about giving God nothing but the best. and ya. i mean. i dont. like at all. neither my time nor my emotions or anyanything. oh well. i shall try. harder. oh. and worship today was great!


haha. during cell pastor glenn was like peeping into our room, and i thought he was like. some old man! lol. then becuase he kept looking cheryl opened the door to see who he was and said hi and everyone said hi to him! and i was like. staring at him wondering how come everyone knew that old man. then she opened the door a little more and i realised it was pastor glenn! oops.


..something else nice happened today... (:

yesterday my post dissapeared. i thought it posted. but apprantly i didnt. blogger always cheats me. hur. anyway. it was a nice long post about how electric guiter lessons are a total rip off. hur.


oh yes. happy birthday! to my darling sister. :7 crooked smile. (:haha so cute. i invented it just for her.


erm. i hate coughing. thats right. today was coughing fit senerio four. geog lecture. who can think of a worse timing? ..i mean besides assembly. yea. this time really everyone turned around and started. oh well. blame myself for giving in and having mee pok right. guo tiao gan yao cu zhi yao rou, to be more exact. X)


and erm. thats about it i think. my days are getting more and more boring. and. potatoless. oh. i passed my geog! and physics! 17.5/25 [yes! the one i expected to fail!] and well. 21/35. yea!imagnie! i actually had like. 70% for geog! which isnt that good but still not bad. which shows that if you trust God, everything is possible! even with a paper you couldnt finish [the entire page was worth 11marks] you still can get 17.5! [i got 4.5 marks for the entire page] praise God! He just rocks too much.

oh i loveee the starwars mnms! they are just too pretty! i like erm white, light green, black, red and grey. (: and dark chocolate tastes nice. i mean the sweetness covers it up. so its. just right. yep. i think i shall be buying alot of the limited edition starwars mnms.


today is ditch sly day! hm. it pretty much sucked. becuase. well. it was boring. my plan to rack the ceremony was all ruined. due to. well. lack of response.


ohoh. im all excited! today benjamin said that its normal to not be able to press the string when you first play the guiter! that means i have hope! i shall play the electric guiter one day i tell you. i shall be damn pro. so there.

i hate coughing. gah. come let me tell you coughing has affected my life largely. in less than 24hours.

scenerio one:

i was sleeping. and you know i take like ages to fall asleep. so i just fell asleep. when i was woken up by myself coughing! so yea. i was so sleepy and wanted to sleep. but i was just there coughing and coughing. so i came up with three solutions.
1. wake my mum up and ask her what to do
2. go downstairs and drink warm water and wake my maid up, while risk waking the entire neighbourhood up if i dont get the alarm thing in time
3. sneak into my sisters room and get the alarm thing and wake her up, then go downstairs, risk waking my maid up, and drink warm water.
4. wake no one up and cough to death.
yea. so i chose 4. which sucked. anyway i fell asleep after awhile. and stopped coughing. praise the Lord!

scenerio two:

i was in the Mrt. yea. i coughed non stop all the way from the interchange to queenstown. and i didnt dare to eat my strepsil as there was a policeman there. and i was afraid he would fine me. ): so yea. it was soso bad that this stranger sitting next to me asked if i was ok and if i needed tissue. hm. i dont know why people keep offering tissue. i mean i cant stratch my throat with it anyway. haha. someone enlighten me.


scenerio three:

this is the worst. during BSF. i mean you know how quiet BSF is? theres like nothing to cover up my coughing. so yea. it was during the lesson. and i just couldnt stop. and i was forcing myself to shut up but it only resulted in this puking noise. so yea. it was sososo bad that the teacher stopped her lesson twice to ask me if i was ok. gr. so yea. in the end the teacher gave me like. chewing gum. :P which kinda helped. i dont know why too. the people were staring at me! ahh! funny thing was that after that everyone started coughing too! lol. either they were nice enough to share the stupidness with me or i passed it to them. hur.


went for the omnimax thing today. the place so cool! goodness. its like. round. and im too lazy to describe.


yea. went to jurong pojt with ting wei. my watchs all gone now. out of stock. can you believe that? oh well. at least now im a hundred dollars or so richer. look on the bright side yea. dont let yrself fall into depression.


2.4 in two days. im just gonna die.

yay i didnt go to school today! i finally had one of those days. when you wake up early in the morning to go to school. and when you sit on the toilet bowl peeing you close yr eyes and think that all you want now is to go back to bed. and i did! i can tell you that i feels wonderful. X)


wasted away at home. hm. im still gonna fail my emaths test. howhow. i need to do well. badly. just want to pull up my marks by that bit! hm. SuMIn is unhappy.

i have a sexye singing voice. x) yes. its all nice and low and idontknowwhat. thats all thx to my throat. if you want you can ask my throat what happened. but i think its too busy bullying me to answer you.


had paranakan buffet today. thats when i decided to bully my throat back and not care about it. but i still ate less than i normally would. hm. blessing in disguise? anyway. thr food was really good! though as usual i think i didnt have enough. its always like that. i get so full during buffets. ):


the durian puffs were heaven! oh mygoodness. i screamed when i ate the first one. then i saved the 2nd one but it was ruined. by the tiramisu taste in my mouth[which is took becuase it had a peice of chocolate on top with said "tiramisu". cuteness!]. ): then there was this durian pudding [which i didnt take] theres no pudding in it la! its durian! pure durian! you can even like. feel the durian! i wish i ate it now. but well. i didnt wanna kill my throat too much. ): then the mocha ice cream! good. wanted to try green tea. lol. it just sounds too gross. but then again. fullness and fat and phlegm.


hmm. what else did i have? an alfafa tomato sandwitch! X) [i thought the tomato was ham. and i took the alfafa by mistake. it was on display but got stuck to mysandwitch] ham and smoked salmon sandwitch [again i though the salmon was ham] and you tiao rojak!! and prawn porridge and chicken siew mai and alot and alot and alot. X) SuMin is happy. (:


i went shopping! i want levis jeans. and that british india skirt. and well. alot of things. sad. ):

today was pretty depressing. becuase i saw... ya.


went jogging with jia yun this morning. hahaha. i so totally suck. im gonna fail my 2.4. howhow? oh well. i didnt even run the stupid 2.4 today la. did such a teeny bit. oh goodness. i so need to do well this year! blabla.


went for service. it rocked! joy lead worship and there was this guess speaker. joshua something. yep. meaningful. but i wasnt paying full attention the entire time. because. yea.


oh guess what. i nearly got knocked down by cars today. get that. not car. cars. it was so super embarrassing evan and joseph and jonlo and i dont know who else were laughing at me. so stupid. becuase belle joy and me were walking like right at the back. 2m away from evan and joseph who were already like so far behind? so when everyone crossed the road we were left behind! and obviously i didnt wanna wait there alone so i just ran. ahhhh...

boo. today is a bad day. then it turned out pretty much ok towards the end.


went to make my ic with kae ting. the stupid photo thing some pok shit la. firstly i left my shirt in school. had to wear kae tings stinkeyy shirt. haha i mean it was nice of her to lend it to me. but she ran eight rounds in that shirt! yea. so i was in a white shirt with a white background with a white face in a black and white photo. so was kae ting la. then yea. they made me take off my glasses! i mean i look so gross! had to wear their ugly glasses and i couldnt see so the stoopid picture turned out cross eyed. and then they didnt even let me smile! oh goodness. who takes are photo of you and not let you smile?


2nd depressing thing is that im simply too fat. we were trying jeans at levis, and i took like 2X although it was obviously much too small. because it was the only one on the rack and i was too lazy to ask the sales girl. so i was practically squeezing into the jeans. and i couldnt get it!! so i went to ask the sales girl for my size. and it was still to small! i was so darn depressed la! so fat and gross. bleah.


ok then the happy part. i came home and realised that stupid levis has yr jeans two sizes smaller. so as it turns out, i seem to have lost some weight! X) and as for my ic. well. i guess its gonna spend most if its life in my dad's drawer.


kae ting so thin!! she fits into levis 24 jeans. thats like what la! ihateherihateherihateher. nah. i still love you! X) lol today jeow was so stupid. he was trying to explain zoe's heart problem her, and it sounded like some electic circuit la! of course it was all wrong. but it was soo funny! physics is like all over him. and i had to run eight rounds all by myself. ):

today i ran a teeny bit. i think i need to start running again or i'll turn into some obese shit.


theres something i wanted to blog about today. only i cant remember what. oh well. hm. got our lit CA1 results today. i got a b4!! that was like totally unexpected. i mean 11 people failed and the highest was a b3. and i actually got a b4! i mean. whoa. but it was pretty much rubbish la. i had 59.95. rounded up. x)


oh i like told kae ting that the glasses thing was bluff. all jing xuans failt la. cos she was like eating so little and jing xuan told me it was because shes saving up to pay me back. then i felt so bad. so i told her. it turns out she would have saved up anway. bahh. should have collected everything and returned it to her. at least i would have gotten some reaction.


oh yes. and something really cool happened today! im just amazed at God's.. well. wonders and everything. last night before i slept, something just came to me, maybe it was God speaking, i dont know [im still unable to reconise His voice, sadly] but i realised that i had alot of unforgivess. like there are two million people i keep bitching about. and yea. its just wrong. i thought of what this preacher said, that unforgivenss give satan a foothold in yr life. and of course you wont want to give satan a foothold in yr life! so i prayed to God and told Him i wanted to forgive those people, and i gave all my angwr and hatred to Him. however. today, i realised i only forgave one person! [which is deborah from 1gy, though its partially becuase she didnt make noise today]. so yea. today's PC was about forgivness again. chua poh leng said that unforgivness rots us. if left alone. so after school i prayed to God, telling Him that im still unable to forgive certain people, and i asked Him to teach me how to forgive. so after praying i treated the problem as solved, asi knew God would definately asnwer me prayer. and when i did me quiet time, there it was! th title for the day; forgive and forget. the passage answered nearly everything i didnt know, even questions i didnt ask! and praise God!


bought the limited edition starwars mnms today. stupid thing costs like a dollar more? but still. its really pretty. i mean the colours. especially white and green! shall post the pictures up soon. (:

happy birthday tamago! and well. miss soh. haha we are soo nice to miss soh! planned this elaborate birthday surprisefor her. only of course the class didnt know about it. we actually planned to turn off all the lights, and have the entire class hide under the tables. so when she coems in and thinks theres no one there, we'll all jump out and sing happy birthday! then we would sing happy birthday in chinese. and english again. and chinese again. and repeat this for a few times. then get her to blow out the candles and cut the cake [which we drew on the board] then while shes all touched and happy, begin singing happy birthday to tamago and ting wei and kae ting and me and everyone else in class. a few times. sadly we only managed to sing happy birthday in english and chinese. without hiding under the table. sad right.


i think my beautiful belt should have pictures of straberries, rasberries and blueberries on it. then it will be berry nice! x)

i have no idea why my blogskin says no racism or sth. because i am a racist! a true blue racist. against black people person. so if you are anything except chinese and black with rebonded hair and is 2nd wife of takuya, 1st wife of jay chou and ex 2nd wife of sylvester, i like you!! X)


jia yun gave me a surprise! (: today during geog chua poh leng was talking about rivers. "so this part of the chanel, is deep, and wide! now those of you who go to church will know this song.. *breaks off into deep and wide* so you see student! geography... is everywhere!" whatever man...

today was. well. chinese filled. besides God. i know im going to fail this test. oh whatever la. i did study for it. oh well. at least i know nearly the entire class failed. but lao shi hates me so much i know she'll try to make me do badly.


now blogskins hate me too becuase it refuses to let me search the word "red". ok. basically today was sianned becuase of the weather and chinese. so im sorry to whoever i talked to today. i was just sian ok.


dad: do you want to go for a walk with me in the evening?
sister: walk? where?
dad: mac-ri-chi [sorry la. i cant spell that]
sister obviously startled: mac-ri-chi? nonono! i dont go for walks in places with insects!

(:

i love jia yun and ruth. (: <3>

yay. just wanted to say that. (: yay. i love my belt too! i think its nice. even though no one noticed it. next week i shall wear and shorter shirt to show it off. so there!


spent nearly the entire day in church today. how exciting! although that was mainly cos i woke up and one twelve sth. yes. i like church.


had prayer walk. around queensway sec. i believe that somethings gonna happen even though we dont see it. yes. thats have. and i need to be consistant it prayer. i think i lack consistancy. oh well.


had this guy to come and preach to us. hm. i wasnt really listening during sermon. but i thought the end part was like whoa. i mean at the end when he was praying and everything. cheryl suddenly exclaimed that there was golden sparkles all over him. and there was! like all of a sudden he was glittering here and there. afterwards my sister mentioned that she felt God's presence in tghe audi. and when i recalled back. i remembered not wanting to leave the place, becuase i just felt so awed and touched. oh well. God just so rocks doesnt he?

got my belt today! yea i think its pretty nice. no matter what everyone says. or rather. you. haha you know who you are. and my sister thinks its pretty nice too which makes me happy. and the more i look at i the nicer i like it. so lets just hope the feeling stays.


had the nice balley ice cream. yay!! it brings back memories. although i dont know if its good or bad ones. i mean i only ate the balley ice cream a few times in my entire life. like when i was young. haha. it was whenever i took my piano exam! because, well. the place sold the balley ice cream la. so yea. i always looked forward to piano exams. so i could eat my balley ice cream. haha. i just found it facinating. then after a few years the examination venue changed. and there was no more balley ice cream for me. ):


back to shopping. i bought my hoops! haha. smaller hoops are so much cheaper. and they suit my hair! stoopid haircut la. ive always wanted huge hoops. oh well. i still look pretty weird with them on but nvm. (: and i found my pencil case! only all the nice ones are black. they should have ti nice and red. then everyone will like them.


sigh. reconsidering buying my nike watch. i mean its like. 130? even though i really really want it but its pretty much a waste of money. i mean i can buy so much more with 130? like erm. 65 cups of balley ice creams. and it costs more than my swatch watch! haha. another reason is that i realised the watch looks alot nicer in pictures. but still. bleah. should i or should i not?

yay today is a happy day. dont ask why cos i dont know.


pray hardhard for my geog test tomorrow! i must do well.


today my glasses like broke. dont ask how. it just like. came off. stoopid lousy quality thing. had to go all the way to queenstown to get it fixed. and the man still wanted to charge me for a new frame! like go and die la. so yea. he did it for free. and he was like can you come back after half an hour? so yea. imagine walking around queensway shopping centre half blind. but i tried the berry nice yoghurt! haha. sadly i didnt do my "berry nich yog-hurt!" thing. i felt too stoopid without my glasses. and the lady looked so old and fierce. yea. it was not bad la. just... not worth 2.50.


im looking for jay chou and takuya kimura's photos. i feel stoopid.

I stand before You Lord
And give You all my praise
Your love is all I need
Jesus You're all I need


My life belongs to You
You gave Your life for me
Your grace is all I need
Jesus You're all I need


Hold me in Your arms
Never let me go
I want to spend eternity with You
And now that You're near
Everything is different
Everything's so different
LordI know I'm not the same
My life You've changed
I want to be with You
I want to be with You


And I will sing for You always
'Cause in Your presence God
Is where I want to stay



i was trying very hard to think of thing song when i was running. of course all i could remember was the chorus. haha maybe running with zoe tomorrow will be better. wonder if it will even work out. :/


my birthdays all over now. haha. how unexciting. but nvm. theres always next year. and i shall plan my wish well. and blow hard. haha. kae tings birthday next!! haha all excited. cant wait to give her her present. and see her scream. haha. half of it was my idea! ..the better half. :P


hm. i am not some cheena pok la you stupid ben. i found another hauru fan. (: haha. so exciting right. no one can resist a hottie like hauru la. haha. considering watching goodluck. but i dont think i'll even allow myself to like tk la! i cannot have so many people guys in my life of i'll have no space for other things. just hauru and Dicky and ___ is enough. haha. oh yes. we're divorcing sly! cant wait for the official ceremony on the 20th. [our 3rd month anniversary] speaking of which. today is my fourth month with matai! oh yay. we were ment to be! lub<3.>

hm. jeow "preached" to us about forgiveness today. he called himself a pastor. i'll say his the worst ever. i mean boring. seriously la! pastor derek in healing service is better than him! not that pastor derek is boring. but in healing service you hear everything twice. once in english and once in weird chinese so yea. later he started playing music. and we stayed back to listen after everyone left. got caught in the rain for nth la! secrectly, i thought he was trying to show off his songs. like showing us his very hip [although the songs are so old] but. you know. haha. :/


im beginning to see a change in you. not that it bad. it makes me feel really good. but its just unlike you. its probably just her. but maybe we should try and find out. (: yes. kaypohness in me. (:


oh yes i did it. 5k without distractions. but im still a cheater. i run with a low resistance. X)

I lub kae ting!

my bitrthday! (:

happy birthday too me! (:
today is a gazillion red cars day. becuase its my birthday!! yes it was a lovely day. (: haha thankew and thankew to everything who wished me happy birthday and bought me presents [they are all nicenicenice]. i shall save my thankew list for later. (:


of course chinese was good for another reason. haha. its when i opened my present! hauruhauruhauru hothot! (:


cut my cake at night. am proud of the fact i managed to blow out all the candles. especially since they were all so far apart! which is so exciting becuase it means that my wishes are suresuresure to come true.


and my cake was yummilicous! ice cream and oreo. i just cant describe it. anway im just too high to blog. and im going to fail physics and maths tomorrow. yaye.

yay its one day to my birthday! and im all excited. i dont know why but this year's birthday just seems like it will be much nicer than last years. grins. haha. i've gotten four presents so far! exciting? yes!


hm. i dont know why but pauline soh seems to be getting better now a days. i dont know. theres just that bit of niceness. but yet.. haha. maybe its how she feels about us. mixed feelings. or maybe i just biased. bla.


thats about all i think. some 88.3 people came to out school to advertise their silly radio station. last year they promised us they next time they came they would bring some nice person. this year they said the same thing. bleah. bluffers.


then they let us off late for recess. like 11.45 oh well. everyone had to queue but i was there with zoe's present! haha. it was pretty embarrassing though. i mean sitting alone with on huge tuppawear[spelling.] and three thermos flasks. haha. but still. it was really really nice. thankew zoe. lub. <3

I simply remember my favourite things, and then i wont feel so bad! (:


went out for my birthday lunch today. it was nicenice. althought not exactly woowheee nice. yep. it was some buffet thing and some hotel. mostly jap food. and yes i like jap food! its dicky fav food! X)


ok. the sushi was nice. the orange and green one. i didnt dare to try purple. the seaweed one had mayo so it isnt nice. yep. the sushi was really tasty! haha. dunno la. just.. different. and the tempura was rad. it looked so cold and mushy and tasteless. but when i actually ate it, it was the exact opposite! it was like warm, and crispy, and the prawn was. i dont know la. nice. but i only ate two. i was like soo full. haha the desert was not bad too! the cheesecake. and mango pudding. and ice cream. and chocolate truffle. and chocolate mousse. oh goodness. i feel the fatness now.


went to visit my grandparents. had this long talk about christianity. sigh. it occured to me halfway that there was a spiritual battle going on. i guess we should just keep praying and believing. becuase God always wins! (:


i think running rocks. increased the resistance today. i still suck.

two days to my birthday!! (:

youth service today rocked! i mean it always rocks but today it rocked more than usual. it was the official launching of youth service!it started out with this stompish thing. which was not bad la! i thought it was really cool. especiall the whistle becuase it was so nice and loud and ear piercing. then was the dance. yay. go cheryl and hannah and erm debbie. haha.


worship was good. i could feel the presence of the holy spirit in the place and well it felt really nice. just standing there and worshipping God. (: the songs were nice too! and the worship team. lalala. l love youth service.


then they had some brick building thing and sermon and then we were to place the brick picture on the wall they had built previously. and i was soo embarrassed okayy!! becuase we were lining up to get on stage, and the people were standing in a row giving out the brick cards. i tell you1 when people give thing out they should stretch their hand sout all the way! anyway. pastor edwin [?? ..the guy in the yellow shirt] was like. giving it out. but since belle joy and ruth didnt take the card. i didnt take it. but i thought that we should so i was like. stretching out my hand and taking it back.. yea. then he was like "oy you want tot ake yr card anot!?" and belle joy turned around and was like oh. and she took it. so i was like there. and extra. and i tried taking it from him. but he wouldnt give it to me!!! so the hand thing happened again and he wa slike laughing. dont wanna take the card.. dunno what... and i was like. sooooo extra!! gosh. so pastor glenn was like next to him and i was like oh no. how. then he also didnt give it to me! like he was holding the card right in front of him. so i was like heck. and i snatched it from him. ahhh!!! so embarrassing!! bleah. haha.


oh and youknowwho was there today. like after how long. yep he was wearing contacts. (: didnt see him at first. was looking around for him when i finally spotted him. lol. maybe he was in church all along but i just didnt see him because he changed to contacts. lalalala. i feel stoopid. im blogging about ahem.


thank you evan. (:

i think running is good for you. like seriously. it improves yr mood and makes you feel untired and hopefully burns fat. ok fine. it should. because thats one if the reasons im running. but seriously. running makes me eat more. ok./ today my 2.4 speed improved again. and the best thign was i didnt do the sprint at the last 100 or so metres thing. yea. not bad. 13.40. yay!! (:


all worried about the real 2.4 i mean thinking of running on a track freaks me out. i dont think i can make even 2.4 without walking. how am i gonna get my gold howhow? and i mean its not even thirty points. its just some pathetic gold. bahh.


sports day today. yea we didnt win. like i mean that was expected la. but i think im getting pretty sick of our banner. i mean the way the class just leaves the whole thing to the three of us to handle. oh well. at least its over. only thing thats left is plucking out the mops! yea we played a trick on jeow. happy april fools hahahaha. i cant believe he even fell for it. it was so retarded. and he got all excited. oh well.


went out with ting wei and jia yun. yay i found my belt! and im highly depressed because my ins all screwed now. i mean with my current hair im going to look horrendous! oh well. no one looks nice in their ic right. ):

i try so hard to forgive you, but everytime i look at meself the hatred bubbles up again.


10 things you want:

1. red pencil case
2. nike watch
3. my fringe
4. new phone
5. nike handbag
6. levis bag[s]
7. that belt
8. heelsheels
9. Dicky Cheung!
10. wah i cant think of so many things at once la swatch watch strap

9 things you love:

1. red.
2. my bolster
3. my bed
4. my camara
5. the feeling you get after running
6. sleeping
7. my squash raquet
8. church!
9. foodfood.

8 days you like:

1. sundays
2. saturdays
3. christmas
4. new year (chinese)
5. my birthday
6. new years eve (english)
7. and chinese
8. holidays

7 things you saw:

1. the clouds
2. my mee pok
3. physics tys
4. sound of music
5. black marker
6. hauru!
7. my fone

6 things you hear:

1. the tv
2. the fan
3. myself typing
4. the fone ringing
5. music
6. me sniffing

5 people you talked to:

1. ting wei
2. zoe
3. oldest sister
4. my mum
5. my 2nd sister

4 places you visited

1. school
2. the toilet
3. tony and guy
4. church

3 things you look forward to"

1. my brithday
2. shopping
3. party!

2 things to do:

1. stone
2. tell lame jokes

1 thing you hate:

1. that bloody hairdresser.

i think hauru is hot. like. still. i dont care how outdated i am. hauru is hothothothothot. (:


cant wait for the sonic edge festival! even though its like. what. three months away. yep. im all excited. planet shakers and hillsongs united [and many many more!] and going to play! thats like. how cool. everybody must come. i dont care. (:


today was erm. boring. i stayed at home the entire day and felt bad for not studying. hm. i really really need to do well for my chem test tomorrow.

here i am. chatting with two guys. ones talking to me about Dicky and the other hauru. and both of them are, directly or in directly, asking me if i want to be with dicky/hauru. and i say yes and they will want me and they both tell me its impossible and wake up. talk about mean friends. who tell lies.


this morning i was just thinking about when i was young. and one of my biggest self-attenable wishes was to be fat.ter but now im all fat and gross i want to be thin again. life is just sosos unfair. we should just be like inflatable of something.


went to church today. youth service and it rocked as usual! (: sang mostly oldold songs during service. like those i used to sing during SPK. nevertheless. it was really meaningful. it had all something to do with Jesus dying for us, and rising again. (: the song during offering was "Lord I life yr name on high" halfway through the song i realised i could sing it with my mind entirely on something else. hm. not good.


sermon was on building bridges. halfway through i really needed to pee. so yea. you can see i couldnt pay my full attention.): i listened though. it was really meangingful. about building bridges. yep. jesus is a bridge for us. and we are to extend the bridge out to others! yep. and i thought the video thing was nice. lol. hannah was like so embarassed. but i thought she was pretty good. haha. cant believe she didnt tell us! lol. then caem the best part. we crossed the bridge! that was like. how cool. haha.


pastor glenn was like so dao. i went to hi to him after service. becuase im friendly and unproud and he gave me that okayy. why are you here look. what i was like how extra la!! shouldnt have listened to him humph.


i want to go to sonic fest!!


tennineeight more days.

today is good friday. the day jesus died for us on the cross to cleanse us of our sins. i think i havent really got down to thanking God yet. and come to think of it, i havent done my Qt. oh well.


went to church today. for the "visual sermon" didnt really get most of it. but certain parts were pretty sad. youknowwho was being youknowhat as usual and i got youknowwhat and youknowwhated and she youknowwhated. ok fine. i couldnt think of any other you know somethings for youknowwhatever.


went to my ah tios funeral. it was pretty saddening. i mean i dont really know him and everything. he just used to be his man sitting quietly watching tv when i went to visit my da yi and minmin and yingying and tingting. and i would see him and not know what to call him and freak out. oh well.


came back and went to shing shong. bought lots and lots of food. yes. it made me real happy. the bestest thing is that everythings so cheap. well. cheaper. haha. i mean we spend alot less. bought lots of biscuits. ie cowhead. oh goodness i love that. yea. im all prepared to get fat. like a cow. i just cant wait for tuesday. when i get to cut my hair. its getting so darn out of shape now. i just want to shave bald. oh yes. thats only for the 22nd of each month right. :P


went to this chinese high resturant for dinner. it was pretty good. haha. had sharks fin. oh goodness i miss it! i mean the one we had at new year was all watery. and without crab. unlike this one. then there was like sea bass [i dont usually eat fish] and other yummilicious things. stuffed. (:

zoe amuses me. she thinks that one marshmellow has one calory. like. good luck to her diet. haha. i think it should be at least 10. hm. 50g is 159 calories. haha. i cant believe i went to check. do you know that there are twenty three different colours of m&ms to choose from? you can also print a message on it! random.

english today was funny. we had to write this news paper articlee. with the proper format. and we wrote about sylvester!! about erm. how he broke up with maia becuase of his three wives. and he married her becuase he was drunk, and mistook her for one of his wives. ahaha. (: then we like pasted hauru's picture as the journalist and pasted our picture and drew maia and sly. lol. we were damn high la.


banners nearly done. good job SuMIn! [and zoe and ting wei] (:

i, me, promise that by the 23rd march 2006, and this time, i shall be [edit]. ok that was private. wait yew laurgh at moi howz?


school today was erm. normal. yea. i love mrs logan! shes the bestest funniest teacher ever. hahaha. although chem lessons always seem rather loong. but shes so funny!

i want to runrunrunrunrun. only i cant. ): and i want my nike watch. and a new phone cover. i want i want i want. and to think i just re-wrote my english essay about the tsunami. about erm. how i realised that materials are unimportent. and i no longer care about clothes and phones and camaras and whatever thing. *coughs* yea right.


i think the mee pok queue is getting shorter. that makes me happy. (: or maybe i should start being healthy for recess. like today. i had yoghurt[crap.] for dinner. and one kiddo. kiddos rock! (: that was becuase i just ran and everyone had dinner already. haha. so i just took my yoghurt so i could eat in front in the tv. with company. now i all hungry again. :/


run through it, ran through it.
what the heck la. its no big deal.

updated wishlist. (:(:

kae ting came over today. we watched spirited away! haha. whats his name? haku. yea. but i dont think hes goodlooking. haha. haurus the best. im not going into anime. but the show was nice. although it was just missing.. well. hauru. (:


zoe came and we went to church. failed to come up with a plan. saddening. so we just stood and the entrance maybe prepared to do something impromptu. but she just didnt turn up! so we gave up and went in. and then zoe was like "miss soh!"and we all turned and looked and oh goodness! miss soh was there! and she seemed really happy to see and was was smiling really widely and waving non stop. [edit] oh and we saw her boyfriend! hahaha.


had worship and service. worship was nicenice as usual (: zoe thinks its super cool. i think kaeting was pretty lost. haha. hope she wont get scared away or sth. :/ ohoh. blablabla thinks pastor glenn is gdlooking!! and she liked him for like 10 mins. lol. i was like suaning her. hahaha. chatting with her on the fone now. she hopes her boyfren will dress like that. haha. [edit].


i dont wanna talk about the sermon cos someones gonna read this. winkwink. :P then after church kae ting and zoe xcame over. and we saw sylvester sing! haha kae ting and i are gonna cut our hair like sly!! haha. i think it'll totally kill me. lol.

today whatever diet of eat in moderation and healtily crap was thrown away. today was all about oil, stuffing yrself, sugar, fat. putting on weight. and no doubt i did today. alot. anhd i didnt exercise. i woke up too late for my 5k. plat. ):


today, shopping sucked becuase:

1. i did not buy anything. anything
2. i didnt get my hair cut
3. i didnt watch a movie
4. i didnt see anyone i know [dont ask. i always seem to]
5. i didnt see dicky. or sylvester. or hauru. or matai

but then right after zoe left, i saw mag!! then i knew that the day was about to take a turn, and i would buy something. and i did!

met zoe to cut my hair. only to find out that the placed closed down. so yea. we went all the way to bugis only to find out it was under renovation crappish! yea. then at suntec we found another one. and zoe and ting wei were like telling me to cut. but then i said that all the people were old and my hair would probebly turn out really auntie. and they said it wouldnt. so we were just standing there watching the people cut their hair. then suddenly, the scissors seemed to spin out of the guys hands, and he nearly cut the old mans ear! gosh. like how freaky is that.

shopping was gross la. nth seemed to fit me. my 19.90 jeans cost 60 all of a sudden. and my levis bag dissapeared. and so did everything i like. whateevr la. i just wanted to like. die or something. lunch was nice though. erm. teriyaki chuicken. hm.

no mmod to blog. let me tell you about my dream. i dreamt of matai last night. i miss him. ): let me tell you about my dream. for some strange reason me and this whole large group of people were like being locked up. like some war thing, and everyone goes to prison? and i just knew that we were going to be tortured. so of course i didnt wanna go. anyway they all forced us in and i was like. staring at the prison guards. and i decided that one of them looked cambodian. so i asked if if he was cambodian and he was yes and stood up and got all excited. and even though the chance was soo tiny. i asked him if he knew matai. and he said yes!! and he got even more excited and he pulled me away from the crowd and ran off with me somewhere and brought me to this place. and there was matai! sitting on the chair! ahh. matai so hawt so hawt.(:

now that my diets all gone, lifes looking much better! i mean besides the fat. i wanna wake up early tomorrow. then i realised my parents would be sleeping. bahh.


went to adelines house for cell today. yay i got my "i kissed dating goodbye!" haha. how exciting. and adeline cooked for us. well she pretended she was going to cook for us becuase all she made was the potato salad. oh. and she cut the mushrooms! haha. shant be mean anymore. :/


fatfatfatfat. what do i do now that my diets all gone?
today i ate:

1. half a sausage bread and half a cranberry bread
2. mee pok and two fried wan tons
3. spaghatti with sushi and rojak and salad
4. peel fresh white grape alo vera
5. 2 1/2 wangwangs.

yea. fatt.

im proud to announce. i have offically ended my diet.


it was the doughnut. that doughnut. it simeply spoilt everything. i mean my diet was going on pretty well. let me tell you what i ate today.

1. one ham and cheese sandwitch
2. 2/3 cup peel fresh white grape alovera [half and one third]
3. fried rice for lunch
4. 20 or so corn brands [i was hungry!]
5. a tiny peice of pear
6. rice with sweet and sour pork and portugese chicken
7. 1 and a quarter doughnuts
8. one merci chocolate [preline]

so you see. my diets all gone. i had like. gazillion calories stuffed down my body. oh well. cant be helped. i mean my sister bought doughnuts today. and my other sister started eating it. and oh goodness i looked sososo good! so i said "i think i should end my diet." and i did! haha. i think it was worth it. and the chocolate too. (:

so right after that i called zoe and said" zoe this is SuMIn. i am proud to announce that i have offically ended my diet" then i hung up. for effect. though it was pretty much ruined becuase she replied before i could hang up. but. haha. too bad.

oh. and i didnt have yogurt and apple for dinner today. actually i was considering bananas. but well. i was hungry la.

thats all about today i think. aero modelling was crap. and chem tys was a killer. i only did like. one. oh well. that sucked.

day2.

today i did something i never imagined i would. something that I have never even thought of doing, never in my life. tell you what it is later. (:


my diet plans showing only a slight improvement. im still eating alot. although i am now able to list the things ive eaten. which is a really good start. ok hm. things i ate today.

1. ham and cheese sandwitch with cereal. as in the one you put in milo and drink. [higest metebolism. i figured]
2. peel fresh guava
3. beehoon with two peices of fried chicken and a little egg
4. i cup of peel fresh white grape alovera [two half cups]
5. half an orange
6. two brownies. [one was rather large):]
7. bread. cranberry and olive or sth.
8. apple and yogurt.
   

so as you can see i ate alot. and im supposed to be dieting. and i did zero leglifts today. [i did 40 yest]. and im confiding every single little detail of my diet to my blog. goodness.

went to school for the aero modelling thing today. jia yun forgot. i cant believe that. we went to the toilet to call her. and apprantly she was "at home sleeping" lol! so erm yea. it was pretty much a waste of time. our wing broke.

today i ran 5k. in 30mins. :D yes. that was what it was all about. im proud of myself. (: played hillsongs in my mums room. that took my through. hm. halfway in the running i was practically saying gasping the words out. no tune. but yes. i think this is good. im proud of myself. [repetition]. grins. (:

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testin. but yes. hes hawt.

zoes getting freaky. scary. ): anyway. my diet plan was more or less a failure. but that doesnt matter. becuase i stil have my entire life ahead! [until i start losing weight] so yea. so SuMIn! you can go it!


haurus too hot. i do not go to jap animae. only him.

worship

yest during worship, i couldnt help but notice this woman in front, dressed in blue, dancing to the music and waving her arms around. then i thought to myself. whats she doing? does she realise shes the only one doing this? then it came to me. i realised that worship was all about God, and not the people around you. she was the only one focasing on God himself, and rejoicing in His name, just as the cambodians did. they didnt care what others thought of them, as all that was in their mins was worshipping God.

i realised that i am still unable to do that. to focus on God alone, and ignore my surroundings. when will i be able to?

today i stayed at home and did maths. wow. what a good girl. like yeaa right. i nearly died la. its like how sian. like when i started i was like. ahh!! i got this right! im so clever!! then ohoh i got this right again. i feel so smart! but by the time i got to question 10 i was already half dead. like there was part a, b, c, d! and sometimes e!


ok nvm. shant talk about that. went to church this morning. like early in the morning. thankfully i felt more awake then i usually feel when i go to the sunday morning services. haha didnt like the speaker though ended up smsing belle joy. [real smsing. haha] who was like telling me how prefect i was. kidding.


im fatfatfat. ):

happy birthday grandpa! :D


yea. hes 85. how exciting right. we had a celebration [dont know if i can call it party]. thats why i missed church. cant wait for next week though! even if it means schools starting again. haha. sats just seem incomplete without church.


woke up this morning afternoon all ready to go sun tanning. i mean before i lose my tan entirely. [its beginning to fade off] so i went downstairs bringing with me sunblock and two story books. and i met my mum. who told me i was mad. [it was 12] so i waited till like three. which was supposedly a better time to go in the sun. and i told my sister i was gonna go sun tanning. and she told me i was mad again. "... yes! afternoon sun makes you tan! but it also makes you have skin cancer!" ok fine. so i didnt go. all the excitment for nth. someday i shall wake up at 8 and go sleep out in the garden. humph.


yea. sharon didnt come today. bleah. but the food was nice. i got full really quickly. then we just sat around and talked. haha. pretty much boring. without my companion. haha. nah. i dont feel like blogging bout the thingy. nth much happened. byebye.

boo.

i passed my maths test! yes! praise the Lord. once again His grace pulled me through. i mean passing is clearly impossible with my understanding of log. but then, prayer always works! yay. and erm. trusting Him for my lit test. again. i mean i dont see how but God works miricles. yay.


tues:
had this tea making thing. kae ting jing xuan and i were laming around as usual. esp when it we drank the tea. becuase the woman said that even though the cup is very small, we must drink it in three sips. so kae ting and jing xuan and i would like do the cheers thing and say "sly!" everytime we drank. then we had to keep making more tea becuase he didnt have enough of slying.


basically life has been boring these few days. oh yes. i mortal knows who i am. after like. the first letter. talk about losers.


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good morning! heh. i just felt like saying that. dont ask why. hm. im lonely now. no one to talk to on online. plat. boreeeeeeeed.


first day of school after OBS. i think i just wasted my entire term away. the years fault i tell you! its so arranged that just before i get into the studying mood more holidays come. then i start to slack again. oh well. havent been doing well in any tests. just got back two today. oh well. lets just say i scraped through again. the usual failing then asking for marks and passing [for phys.] andandand. for lit, i passed!

went to gimo hawker centre for lunch today. it was pretty sad. i mean everything was closed. all i got to eat was the duckrice. and abolling [howveer you spell that] and the waffle/pancakes. and i stole some erm. carrot cake. like damn sad la. the beef kuey tiao stall dissapeared. like tamgos towel. and the nicenicen dessert stall was closed. i mean when will i ever get to try those yummilicious food my sister was talking about for a year? oh well. the food was nice la. (:


came home. had this like.1/2 dunno what marathon. i mean a weeks worth of it. haha. not bad la. i like that show. that christopher lee person is so sweet! lol.


hm. i shall go continue my obs post. (:

hm. day one back from obs. yes. i think i woke up pretty early. with a stomache ache. i shitted like trice since yest. theres gonna be a forth soon. yesyesyes. outcome of constipating yrself for five days. hm. i regret not shitting in the open. hahaha. something i wanted to try. but i was just too lazy to dig the hole. hahaha.


went to church today. it was funfun! as uaual. hahaha. cell was bout dating again. i love listening to all those interesting stories! lol. oh and pastoe glenn preached!! he was so funny. hahaha. and yea. sermon was really meangingful. about worship. yep. think i should change my attitude. hm.


was showing off my tan to everyone!! even jonlo. lol. cheryl said im alot tanner. and i was wearing my jacket so she could only see my face. grin.


qt today was about consistency. hm. i felt bad. but this time its really God speaking directly to me. i mean after not doing my qt for like 5 days. thwn this comes. yes. i lvoe it when god talks to me. haha.


im like rushing. thats cos im on the fone with zoe. i made her hold on so i could finish this. :P ta.

i'm back!!
civilisation!

i miss home. i miss hot water. . I miss clean toilets. I miss nice food. I miss the car. I miss my friends. I miss the television.I miss my family I miss the computer. I miss my Dicky. I miss my fone. I miss blogging. I miss my bolster. I miss hot/cold milo. I miss my glasses. I miss eating whatever i want. I miss slacking. i miss my bed. I miss my blanket. I miss not having insects near me. I miss you*.


i got tanned!! yes i did i did! and i have a plaster tan to prove! hahaha. that sucks. and i shouldnt have worn such a big shirt. :/ it made the t-shirt tan so low! hm. anyway it was fun la. though i was sianess on the first two days. perked up on the third. hahaha. tamago kept telling me she never knew i had a serious side. and that it was good and i should show it more often. hahaha. i mean. that isnt my serious side la. its my like blackest face. or sianned face. i cant remember which. hahaha. whatever.


day 1:
off to OBS! was pretty excited. wishing real hard to be in ting wei/kaeting/jiayuns group. bleah i wasnt. but tamago was with me la. and vanassa. so i guess it wasnt so bad. haha. out instructor is Cindy. hm. no comments. k la. quite nice. haha. then tamago and I were like saying how we should have gotten a Male Malay instructor. cos they are the best. haha. then we started pitching our tents. and went to kayak. but it rained. so we just ate dinner. (: haha. our tents were so nice. like our group pitched it the fastest and it was like the best tents. yay marco polo. (:i slept at night la. suprisingly. haha. bathed. in the stinkeyy toilets.


day2:
mini trek down the base 1. for the rainbow at the end of it. turned out to be kayaking. hm. it was fun. we did capsise drill. and tamago's glasses fell into the sea. ofcourse the list goes on. hm. her pe shirt got blown away by the wind, her towel dissapeared into midair, her slippers nearly got swept away by the flood and her bra got stolen by dogs. it was esp funny when her slippers nearly got swept away by the flood and she was acting all depressed in the morning. i wanted to laugh so bad. only i didnt dare to laugh loudly. hahaha. yea. so we went to bathe. the toilets were so clean and nice!! nd we had like cook food. real nice. not like. from a can. :/


did rock climbing and practiced belaying. i tell you tamago nearly killed me. when i let go of that stopid pole she didnt even hold the rope la! luck i like held on to the metal thing. [and i screamed at her, "tamago! you wanna kill poeple ah!" but i mean i got a shock] then i still had to like. stand there and wait for her to get ready. _-_ . went for rock climbing. i reached the top!! like four times. i mean i climbed halfway and didnt wanna continue cos i was just dying. [dont ask why] but of course no one would let me go down until i reached the top. and i kept like falling every few seconds which just proves how tired i was. so i would like gather all my energy and climb to to top and touch that rock. then i would fall. so this continued like three times. and i just wanted to die. until the forth time i touched it for a little longer and they let me go down. like whatever la. i know im a loser. oh and that tamago lai was in front of me and climbed up sooo fast. i was her belayer and i jsut wanted to die. she was like some stuoud monkey stretchching here and there and she reached the top in two mins and i had to like pull and pull the rope!? yea. so after dinner. we had to trek back. in the dark. it was freaky i tell you.

ohohoh! and i founded my first ever allergy: fibre glass. oh goodness it sucked. even ducttape didnt work and it hurted all over my arm. ever one just had to hit me there. then we gave cindy the nickname ducttape! hahaha. i thought of it. grins.


day3:
trekked like 3km though it felt more like 10. carrying our heavy bags and the stoopid tent. i just wanted to die. ok id didnt, that iwas the day i started feeling better. yea so out campsite was this erm antsy place. and our toilet was this peice of emtpy ground facing the sea. so whenever you wanted to pee you had to go in this big group and have someone bring a poncho to cover you. and when you wanted to shit you had to dig a six inch deep hole. hah. oh and we had a bathe in the quarry. after this boat bulding activity. out boat was olopocram. which is marco polo backwards. yes i thought of it again, (: i think its quite smart la. anw the bopat like sucked. ebverything fell apart. so too bad. yea. so the queary was fuhfun./ we swam around and did weird stuff like slapping cindy. anw she like blocked of out hands so many time. like trust us already! haha. then we played like. snowwhite and thwe seven dwarfs. and cindy was snow white and tamago was the prince. so cindy got like freaked out and started swimming away and tamago was chasing after her calling "wo de mei ren!!" haha. the water was so nice. (:


day 4:
we kayaked round the island! like 16km and we only stopped once. who hasnt seen my tan? which i had even though it started raining halfway?and my stupid partner chering was laughing at me becuase i was scremaing then my tan was gone. but it was fun anyway. even though irritating poeple kept like bumping into us. after a while we got like paraniod. and started screaming at people who came near us. holding out our oars saying, "nonon. yr nopt coming near us" then we would push their boat away. haha. oh and i was singing the sailor song! i mean it was just so.. apt. haha. then when it started raining i sang with christ in the vessel we can smile at the storm. and i smiled at the storm. cos christ was with me. haha.
when it was rainign i stated thinking of hot milo!! like how nice it would taste. then we were like shivering in this room they brought us too. and everyone was talking about what they watned. and i said i wanted a hot bathe. and hot milo. then at that moment, the door opened and a hand holding a bottle stuck in. and the person holding the bottle was like.. hot milo. aahh!!!!


had like. out last dinner. cambell soup./ yumyumyum.


day5:
nth much la. just left la. pretty sad cos we got bonded unknowingly. and yea. went back in a speed boat. coolness!! then we went and had ice cream and stuffs. hahahahahahahahahaha. came back. and when i lay on the bed, oh my goodness. i was soo nice i wanted to cry!! boohooo